Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 50 FOR THE SAKE OF MY IDEALS I SACRIFICE MY LOVE

I also entered the boarding house with shaky steps. Each was ringing in the words of his Mother Kak Morgan who was very slicing my pride.

I lay my face on the bed, not feeling the grains of tears falling down my bed sheet. For the first time I felt humiliated like this just because of my social status.

My love relationship always ran aground just because of differences in social status. Is it possible that poor people like me are forbidden to fall in love ????

Suddenly my phone rang and it was Brother Morgan who called me.

" Hello. "

" Riss, how are you ??? "

" It's okay, brother, "I'm forced to lie about the truth.

" I'm sorry I just got in touch with you now, Riss. "

" It's okay, brother. Brother Morgan why not go to school today ??? "

" I need some time to myself Riss. I need some time to solve my problem, this is Riss. "

" All problems must have a way out, brother. "

" This time it was different, Riss. Are you trying to come back home to ask my parents for their blessing again ??? "

Long time I was silent, how could I just say yes to Brother Morgan's request this time after I was treated like this. It's the same with suicide. Not that I was selfish or unwilling to maintain my relationship with Brother Morgan, but the problem this time was that there was no longer the best solution for us.

The decision of Kak Morgan's parents cannot be contested. Moreover, the threat of Mama Kak Morgan earlier, which will get me out of school if I continue to be in contact with Kak Morgan. I don't want to sacrifice my school just because of this love thing.

Then I continued my conversation on the phone with Brother Morgan.

" I'm sorry Brother, I don't have the courage to repeat the same mistake again. "

" What do you mean Riss ??? "

" The words spoken by Kak Morgan's parents do have a point as well, I'm aware of that. For them I should be self-aware of where I am. Entering into the life of Brother Morgan was a fatal mistake I ever made. "

" You don't want to fight for our love affair Riss. "

" It's not that I don't want to defend or fight for our relationship, but I don't dare to take risks. "

" It's only up to this point that you sacrifice for our love Riss, I'm disappointed by your attitude Riss. "

" It's up to Brother Morgan to judge me how, which I certainly do the best for myself and also the good for Brother Morgan. "

" I'm disappointed in you, Riss. "

Suddenly the phone is turned off. I feel guilty for Brother Morgan. It's not fair to him that I treat him that way. But on the other hand, when I remember the threat from Mama Kak Morgan I was so scared. The threat is no joke.

The next day...

As usual I always work in laundry to connect my life. It just so happened that the laundry was quiet, and I had completed all my tasks.

Suddenly, Brother Morgan went in and pulled me out to go with him. I had to get permission to go home first. I don't know where to take it tonight. Even Kak Morgan rode his motorcycle at a very high speed. I'm really scared of the recklessness that Kak Morgan did this time.

In the end, Brother Morgan took me to Cafe Cotta again, the place we visited. Without further ado, Morgan ordered two cups of cappuccino lattes for us.

" Riss, I honestly don't want to lose you. I love you so much Riss. How could you want to get away from me. "

" Sister Morgan I have a reason for all this, "I speak in a very serious tone.

" I'm confused where to say it from. "

" What do you mean Riss. "

" Brother Morgan please listen to me carefully. Actually I don't want to say this and keep this a secret but I don't want to look bad in Kak Morgan's eyes. "

" What is Riss. "

" Yesterday his mother Brother Morgan came to my boarding house. "

" What????? How could my mom get to your boarding house Riss. "

" I didn't believe it at first either, but that's what happened. "

" My mom said anything to you Riss. Don't listen to Riss' words. He must be just messing around. "

" His mother Kak Morgan threatened me to get me out of school if I didn't follow her words to cut ties with Kak Morgan. "

" That's never gonna happen Riss, trust me."

" Sister Morgan, think with a clear head. Brother Morgan's parents are one of the biggest donors in our school. He has the full power to do something. With the power he had, he could easily get me out of school. I don't want to sacrifice my school, brother. "

" Then what if we elope with Riss. "

" I'm sorry Brother, I'm not that stupid to do a job that might hurt my future. I don't have the guts to do it, sister. "

" Wouldn't this way our love relationship could be a strong Riss. "

" Just the opposite, sister. There will be a lot of problems coming and it will further corner me. "

" And shall I how Riss ??? "

" I'm sorry, brother, with a heavy heart I want to end this relationship. "

" Tega you Ris. "

" I have no other choice Brother, Brother Morgan should also be aware !!! Don't blame me for all this. I did this also for the good of Brother Morgan. It's free to continue this relationship but without parental blessing. "

" It should be that if you really love me you should try to be able to take the heart of both my parents Riss. "

" Don't be selfish Brother always told me to keep fighting !!! I've always tried to obey Morgan's will. But what has Brother Morgan done to fight for our relationship !!!!!! "

" I'm sure you can take my parents' heart Riss. "

" Ah, brother, tired of me it continues to be discussed !!!! It's obvious that Kak Morgan's parents don't like me, still wish they could accept me in Brother's family !!!!! I've respected Brother Morgan's decision, so please respect my decision too. "

" Anyway I want you to keep fighting for our love Riss. "

" Oh no, Brother Morgan does not understand. It's free to talk to selfish people like Brother Morgan!!!! Anyway I want our relationship to end here enough, "I'm straight out of the Cafe and looking for a motorcycle taxi driver to take me home.

" Riss, don't go home yet. Let me drive you home, "Sister Morgan keeps coming after me.

I kept running and luckily there was a taxi driver passing by. I went straight to Kosan.

It's not that I'm selfish, for My Love's sake I'm Sacrificing My Love. I do it all for the good of all of us. For the sake of Brother Morgan's parents, for the future of Brother Morgan and also for my future.