Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 63 LEFTOVERS IN THE TRASH

I finally closed my eyes and took a break to unwind. I was tired of sleeping so long I didn't go to work.

Then suddenly my coworker at the laundry called me. With heavy eyes I tried to pick up the phone.

" Hello Rissa ?? "

" Yes, why did I fall asleep today. I'm so tired because I've just come home to my village. I'll get ready right now, ma'am."

" You don't have to go to the laundry right now, Riss. You better take a break in cosan Riss. "

" What does this mean Ma'am, I'm not fired because of my mistake today ????. I'm sorry I really didn't fall asleep this afternoon. I go straight to the laundry now, huh mbak ??? "

" No need Riss, you don't misunderstand me. You are not fired anyway, just mbak just told to tell the boss that today you do not need to go to laundry. "

" Yes but why mbak ??? "

" Because the laundry was quiet from this morning and there were no Riss customers at all. Laundry plans will also close earlier Riss. "

" Oh so, Ma'am, I guess why mbak. Yes, if it were like that, ma'am. "

" Yes Riss, then I'll close the phone first, Riss ??? "

" Yes, then, Ma'am. "

Today I got no income because I didn't go to work and Laundry was closed. Hopefully soon a replacement. I'm sure God didn't sleep and he must have given me ease the next day.

My savings money is getting thin, because for a few days yesterday before the national exam a lot of unexpected expenses. From buying a variety of exercise books or National Exam trials, photocopying various books, buying stationery supplies and others.

If even I was forced to sell a necklace given by the late Kak Steffan. Although with a heavy heart, because I have no other choice. Because the late Kak Steffan allowed to use the given necklace, if the situation is urgent and needy.

Especially during the national exam, I took time off work to be able to focus on my exam. During that time I also did not earn any extra income.

Finally I took the late brother Steffan's necklace from my closet drawer. I looked at the necklace carefully, at that moment I could not bear to sell it. Where might I sell it, because this is one of the mementos of the late Kak Steffan for me.

So how do I get money to connect with life ?????. I want to feel like I'm crying right now. But regarding my promise not to cry without Farrell by my side, I could only endure the sadness in my heart.

" Who am I asking for help ???? " My love is in my heart.

Actually I don't want to cry and try to hold it. But my tears can no longer be contained. Break my tears already flowing down my cheeks. Nelangsa, that's the feeling I'm feeling right now. I was confused who to ask for help.

How am I not a nelangsa, you know how much money in my wallet ?????????????.

Twenty thousand five thousand five thousand five hundred rupiah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes that's the nominal money that is now languishing in my wallet. How many days can I survive with that kind of money ????. I was confused who to look for a loan on.

Suddenly I woke up to pee in the toilet. But after I finished fulfilling my wish, accidentally in front of the room of one of my boarding friends, I saw there was a box of leftovers that were still a lot. I picked up a box of rice and eggs that the owner probably ate only a little. So hungry I immediately ate the leftover rice with greed. But on the sidelines I ate the leftover rice, my tears did not stop dripping.

Now for the first time I was like a scavenger so happy to eat the leftover rice I found in the trash. I couldn't help my hunger this time, so I didn't feel like I was spending it to the point of being left alone.

After that I immediately cried considering how miserable my life is right now. A child who fights alone In a city of people without material help from his parents. Just this time I felt the nelangs of my life scavenging for Food Waste In Trash. Can you imagine eating leftovers while crying due to lack of factors ???????.

It's okay for now that I'm scavenging for other people's leftovers, but hopefully someday I can feed others who need me more. Wouldn't the wheel keep turning ????. Now I'm downstairs, but who knows I'll be upstairs.

Since the national exam is over, I just realized how about I go home to my mother ?????. Instead of me staying at the boarding house, I still think about the cost of Kos and eat me a day here.

Suddenly the phone rang. It was my mother who called me.

" Hello, huh Mom ??? "

" Hello Rissa, son, may I ask you a favor ??? "

" What's wrong Mom ????. Ask for help what is ma'am ???? "

" I'm sorry if Mom bothers you, son, I'm really asking for help you have no money saved ??? I tried to borrow it from my relatives and neighbors but nothing. "

" What's Mom doing ??? "

" Make your sister's tuition pay, she is billed with the school and also make the house electricity pay for 3 months not paid son. Yesterday also had the warning lifted. Your father has been unemployed for a long time without a job. I'm confused to ask who else, son, "See you.

" How much do you need Mom ??? " I'm trying to calm my mom down.

" About Two Million Rupiah son, I promise that mother has sustenance, I will give back my son. "

" Yes Ma'am, Rissa will try to get the money. "

" O God, thank you, son, I'm sorry that you're bothering you. Mother was confused because she was completely broke and did not get a loan from relatives and neighbors. "

" Yes, Mom, just calm down. Rissa will try to help Mom and the family. Just pray that Rissa can go home and deliver the money to the house as soon as possible Mom. "

" Yes, Amin. Yes, I've closed my mother first, her phone. "

" Yes Ma'am, "I answered with tears in my eyes.

Just now I had the desire to stay with my mother while waiting for the results of my national exam to come out, it was precisely my mother's situation was much more difficult than mine. How could I not help my mother in her difficult times right now ??? "

Once again I saw the contents of my wallet containing twenty-five thousand rupiah. I was crying as much as I felt. How hard is my life's ordeal this time ???????.