Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 29 I'M JUST A COCOON

Maybe the right words for me right now are I'm Just a Cocoon. The unseen, ignored and discarded. Nothing is pulling me out right now. I made toys, laughed at and made things bet. How shiny.

I woke up at dawn, I complained to God. I was crying in my bow. After that I learned to repeat the materials for the exam that day. I hope I can carry out the test well today.

But for a moment my eyes were on something.

" Sweep, "My inner self.

Yeah, that handkerchief was my gift to Rayhan, my first love and boyfriend. It is true that the handkerchief is still stored by Rayhan, but now the handkerchief is back to the giver. I washed it clean and let me keep that handkerchief with my memories.

At school when it was still quiet, I went straight to the cafeteria while carrying books to study there. I was really hungry this morning because I didn't have dinner last night. I ordered an omelet of sambal rice and a glass of warm tea. After the food and nose were gone, I still studied there.

Suddenly from a distance I saw Carla approaching me. And he's really mad at me.

" Hey you're Rissa. "

" Well, Carla, what's wrong ."

" I warn you yes don't bother Farrell anymore, because of you I am always compared to you !!!!! "

" It's my fault, is it Carla ??? "

" Farrel always told me I could be like you, it had to be like that. Yes, maybe a Carla is likened to your model person. "

" But I have nothing to do with Farrel, he has broken off our friendship. I've accepted that decision, Carla. "

" It's good that it's like that, because from the beginning you should be aware of who you are, where you are. You don't seem to be friendly with Farrell. Because you know, Farrel's a rich man. His family business is everywhere, and how could a Farrell have a relationship with someone like you. "

" I'm not at your level, but I still deserve a school here. My goal here is just one "School "that's all. Maybe you're squirming I'm like trash here but I'm gonna prove that poor people like me have rights here, too."

" Helah, the school is proud. "

" I'm not free to go to school here, I'm struggling with the scholarship I got. "

" Hemmm, maybe poor people like you use gimmicks to lure people like Farrel, right ????. Oh, how !!!! "

" I'm not that kind of person Carla. "

" The proof is how maybe a Farrell can want to deket the same person who is not as level as you, hih appearance aja kampung. "

" It's up to you to insult me like how Carla, it's my fate to always be treated like this. "

" Sok-sok an acting like a rich kid, you idiot !!!!! "

" Carla, watch your talk, "Farrel came and scolded Carla.

I shed a tear as Carla said the word "pretty" to me, as low as I was in the eyes of the children of rich people like Carla and possibly others.

" Here come with me, "Farrell pulled Carla's hand and kept her away from me..

" Apaan anyway. "

" Keep your talk Carla, now you pull your word and apologize to Rissa. "

" Sorry quickly Carla !!! "

" Hello, how could a Carla apologize to this Ascension !!! That's right !!! "

" I didn't think your heart was this low, Carla. You're still the old Carla, the arrogant Carla, and you have no feelings. "

" It's up to Farrel what are you talking about, you're more like that poor girl than me ???. I think you're really being used by him. "

" Again I ask you if you still want us to stay in a relationship, apologize quickly !!!! "

I quickly left both of them behind, because someone like me did not deserve a Carla apology.

Now I'd better focus on the test today, whatever my circumstances are right now, only I can change my future better.

One day I promise to open my eyes to you rich children, crown princes, heirs of the royal family if I too can succeed with my own hands.

Thank God I can do my exams well and I want to go home quickly. But Farrell approached me..

" Riss, I'm sorry about what happened this morning. "

" From now on, you don't want to be familiar with me. Forget everything, let's just say what happened between us was just a mistake. "

" Riss, I know you were hurt by Carla's words earlier, but I beg you not to be angry with me either. "

" Rell, it's enough, haven't you yourself cut off this friendship so please don't add to my burden anymore. I am quite tormented by the circumstances I have agreed that we have no relationship whatsoever right, it is enough just assume I am dead now !!!"

" Riss,, "

" Enough farrel !!!!!!!! Enough !!!!!!!! I said enough.. I used to dream of becoming a Keupu Butterfly, but in fact I have remained a cocoon until now !!!!! And you always thought I was trash. I still have feelings, it hurts to be treated like this.

" Rissa, "Almost Farrell tried to hug me but I refused Farrell's embrace.

" You don't need to be so considerate of me anymore, Rell, because we're not friends anymore. Let me enjoy this solitude. You left me, you weren't there when I needed me. I hope you're always happy with Carla. "

" But riss.. "

" Goodbye to "

It hurts, it hurts so much that this suffering will end. I'm stuck in a complicated relationship.

Honestly I still have a little bit of feeling left behind for Rayhan, my first love but now he's happy with Raysa.

I lost the figure of my best friend (Farrel ) who was always there for me, where I had problems he always accompanied my day. I haven't been able to open my heart to her, but now she's happy with Carla's former first love

And the last time I was happy to have another friend at school, Steffan always gave me the support to keep moving forward looking at my future. Steffan's sister also always taught me when there is a school assignment that I do not understand.

But now it was precisely Kak Steffan and Kak Morgan (my upperclassman ) who played me and made me their betting item. I don't know what kind of past made them hate each other and helped drag me into their relationship scandal.

And that dream, that dream at dawn where I saw a girl like I was giving me a signal that this case would be solved..