Wingless Butterfly

CHAPTER 94 THE NEW LIFE

It did not feel like the night was approaching dawn, I immediately got ready to go to Surabaya this morning as well. I know what Mama Farrell meant by suddenly asking me to enroll for college in Surabaya, with the aim that I would not change my mind again. Everything he did for the good of my future.

" If Farrell were alive and married to me, how lucky I would be to have a Mama-in-law like him, "I wish.

My mother was constantly crying about my departure. But this time he did not cry sadly, but cried because I would continue my life and dreams that had been delayed.

" Rissa, I want a message to take good care of you, son. Whatever happens, keep your honor, son. "

" Yes Ma'am, Rissa will always remember the message from Mom. Forgive all Rissa's mistakes during this time, Mom, Rissa always makes Mom's heart sad. Pray that Rissa can succeed in college later, Mom ??? "

" Yes son, Mother's prayer is always with you, son. In my bow, I will always pray for your success in studying Nak. "

" Thank you Mom, for now Mom is the top priority that Rissa will always be happy about. Rissa doesn't want to disappoint Mom anymore let alone make Mom hurt. "

" Yes son, always tell your mother this, son, tell me every trip you study there. Even though I'm stupid in every way, I believe and believe that Rissa will succeed and will not be like Mom. "

" Don't say it like that, Mom, because Rissa's the best mom in the world. Mother is one of the reasons Rissa lives in this world. "

" Mom should be the one who is currently accompanying you, helping you to enroll in college. But because of this poor and stupid mother, I don't think it means anything to you Riss. Mother felt that there was no use for her child, "Mommy cried and wiped her tears with her torn clothes.

I really understand my mother's feelings, maybe she is inferior to Mama Farrell whose appearance I admit is very fashionable. In stark contrast to my mother, she never wore a dress as simple as my mother, but all because she was a rich man. Very different from our family life. I also often cry to see Mother who often wears clothes that are not decent and torn and shabby.

Not only that, the social gap that we feel makes Mother feel like she feels left out like my own biological mother. Actually I also want Mom to accompany me to Surabaya, but I also do not want to be selfish because my two sisters at home also need Mother. So I feel like she's being replaced by Mama Farrell. But I'm sure Mama Farrell didn't intend to, but she did it all for my own good.

" Mom, Rissa please don't feel that way, for Rissa I mean a lot to Rissa. Mother is Rissa's paradise, and the prayers that Mother chants at all times are a source of fluency for Rissa's success. You must always remember, no one will be able to replace your position in Rissa's heart. "

" But still I'm ashamed of not being able to give you anything like this, son, " replied Mom, crying.

" Mom, Mother's prayer is far more important and valuable than anything else. Rissa's paradise is on the soles of Mom's feet And Mother please don't feel Mama Farrell or Mama Kak Steffan shift the position of Mom, not Ma'am. We take the positives, ma'am, they do it because it's for the sake of their dead children and also for the future of Rissa Bu. Even if Mom asks Rissa to stop pursuing Rissa's ideals, Rissa is currently canceling everything. "

" No son, don't forgive Mom Son. I just feel jealous of Mama Farrell and Mama Steffan Nak. They love you so much that they blind my eyes, Mother Son. But I am so grateful and grateful to them, maybe through them God helped you. I'm sorry, son, and I promise I won't have these thoughts anymore. "

" Yes Mom, Rissa loves you very much. And until whenever Mom is a great and wonderful Mom can educate Rissa like this. Thank you Mom, and forgive your son who still can't make you happy. "

Eventually Farrell's mother came to pick me up, and now I'm going to start living a New Life in a city I've never seen before. And I never thought Farrell's mom would say anything that would make my mom happy.

" His mother Rissa, sorry for today I deliberately did not invite Mother. All this I did was just to make Rissa stronger and not weaker Ma'am. Let her make her own life, and I'm not here to take Mom's position. But I'm just here to facilitate Rissa so she can pursue her goals again Mom. At the same time fulfill my promise to my late son, Farrell. Never misunderstand me, Mom. "

" Thank you, Mama Farrell. ".

" I promise Ma'am, I'll take Mom to Surabaya to meet Rissa if everything is in order. "

" Thank you Ma'am, "My mom hugged her late mother Farrell while shedding tears.

I'm grateful that you don't misunderstand anymore and you don't feel inferior anymore either. And now it was time for us to part, we hugged each other in tears. I have to go and fight in a new life. I also say goodbye to my father, continued me and my two sisters. Actually I also want to say goodbye to my real father, but I'm afraid of getting treatment that hurts me.

" Rissa said to Surabaya first, Mom, see you there again. "

" Yes, son, don't ever leave your prayers, son. Be careful on the road, take good care of yourself and do not eat late. "

" Yes Ma'am. "

" mother can't give you anything, son, but at least I know you'll always need this, " answered Mother while giving me a small pink Qur'an.

The picture above is just an illustration.

" Thank you Mom, the Qur'an is so beautiful Mom. Rissa likes it so much, and Rissa will read it every time. "

" Yes, Son. "

I also put my feet out of the house, it felt so heavy this step. But I round out my determination to keep moving forward in order to live a new life.