My Love is Wrong

Your presence makes me excited

We were both silent even though the phone kept going.

After being completely calm, I broke the silence.

"Pram..."

"Yes Ara.."

" Why didn't you look for me. Why didn't you send me a letter. Since the end of High School you have no news." I was crying again.

Pram looked at me guiltily, then Pram lowered his head.

Although we only met through video calls, but I could see and feel how Pram felt cornered and guilty. I saw Pram crying.

"I'm sorry Ara..."

" You don't know if I'm waiting to hear from you. I'm waiting for you Pram. I was thinking ooh maybe tomorrow your letter comes. Days change days, months change months and even years change. I'm waiting for your letter Pram. I want certainty from you. Edelweis photos and flowers give you a witness Pram. "

"I finally realized, my race was clapping one hand. I'm too into the PD and assume that the photos and flowers you're packing mean more."

My tears are dripping again. I have no power to hold it. For 20 years my question has not been answered.

"Fra... Please forgive me. I was wrong."

"I've been in a relationship with someone, and I was let down, back then I was hoping you'd come to cheer me up. But apparently not, I'm disappointed. Until finally came the man who offered his love to me. You don't think anymore, love or love. What matters is that she loves me and loves me, that's enough for me."

"Fra... If at that time you give me a sign that you have the same feelings as me, I will definitely dare to express my heart. But I was wrong Ar .. I am a coward who has no courage. Especially after I heard Rendi's sari that you already have a fiance, I've got less courage to go any further."

"You don't know Ar, how much I admire you, and love you so much. My love for you maybe you can't understand Ar, you're happy that's been so happy for me. That's how I love you, I love you too much.

" I'm sorry I'm Ar.. Really forgive me."

I took a deep breath.

"Already Pram... I go home first... It's getting dark."

"Yes Ara.. Go home... Be careful on the road..."

There is a sense of relief because all is answered now, although all the mysteries of the photo and the edelweiss were answered when we each had a family.

As it was getting dark, I rushed home. I wiped my tears.

***

At night, when I was going to sleep suddenly there was a message coming in from Pram. I opened the message.

"Nature .. Later please send 5 photos of products yes Ar, if you are not busy."

Then I sent some photos of my sale to Pram. And Pram immediately replied to my message.

"Makasi Ar's. I've created a group reseller, and you I invite into the group. But tomorrow you will accept my invitation.. Now you rest first."

"Fra... Don't think the macem... Take care of your health."

I was so excited to read Pram's message.

"***Prame Makasi."

"You take care of your health, too..."

"Yeah Ara.. Since your presence came back, I've been getting excited. Now you sleep, a real rest."

"Yes Pram***."

Then I tried to rest. My head is getting uncomfortable again. I took medicine and then tried to sleep.

My husband entered the room and covered me.

"It's done, Pa..."I asked my husband.

"Yes Ma. has settled Ma, just send me sleepy once. So let's send Ma in the morning." My husband said as he walked into the blanket and hugged me.

Then we fell asleep.