My Love is Wrong

Deciding not to choose is a choice

Arriving at the office I immediately opened the computer and started a task that I had not yet completed.

I was alone in the office, because Andre seemed to be going out to buy dinner.

There's an incoming message. And I saw Ara sending some of her sales photos to the reseller group. I just say hello in the group, I keep leaving because I have to finish my job.

Ara sent a private message to me and I opened it.

"Pram., how are you? Already better? I'm worried about Pram."

I immediately replied to Ara's message.

"I'm getting better with Ara. I just have a regular headache. I was sleeping and now I am better. My head doesn't hurt anymore."

"I love you my dear... Make sense of your attention. Stay by my side Ar."

" Yes Pram... I love you so much. I'll be by your side forever."

"I love you my honey.. Forever..."

I feel so happy, Ara cares for me and really loves me. I feel my happiness is perfect. I truly thank God for this gift.

Ara's presence made me even more excited to move on with my life. Because I once thought of just living a makeshift life without any hope. It's because of my circumstances.

I've been up many times in business. It makes me feel tired to live. I am living my predetermined destiny for me.

Before I found Ara, I had almost no purpose in life anymore. I make a living to meet the needs of my family, and when my children grow up and become independent I can leave them alone and I want to live alone to enjoy my own life and improve my relationship with my God.

And I once said that wish to my wife. That if the kids are established, Papa wants to go alone. And my wife asked me, "Who's mom going, Papa's mom?"

I said, "Mom can stay with the kids, let Papa go alone Mom. Papa wants to improve Papa's relationship with God. Papa will look on."

My wife agreed to my request.

But since Ara was present, I have a new spirit. I want to make the people I love and love happy before my life is over. Although I don't have to be his life partner. I am quite on his side, accompany him, and keep him happy always.

Seeing Ara happy was already very happy for me. Such was my love for Ara, the gentle and simple girl who never lost my heart. Ara occupies a very special place in my heart.

"Pram's...What are you saying?" Ara sent me a message.

"Don't say dear... I promised you I'd be by your side."

" I'm a gumbal ah."

"Hmm why was Ara scolded?"

"Not scolded, dear. I just want to take it, if talking is good so that later what happens is good.."

"Yes Pram."

"Darling, I'm sorry... I love you, since the first time we met until now. Not changed my darling. I love you..."

"Love you too"

"Ara, I had a problem this afternoon at home."

"What's Pram's problem?"

"My son Rahma opened my HP and read our chat."

"Trus? "

"Yes I had to lie to my son. I told you we were just friends. It's nothing Ar."

"It's okay, Pram. I'm afraid Rahma will tell Mbk Pipin. "

"Gak Ar's. I'm sure Rahma didn't tell me."

"It is .. You don't have to think about it. It's all done, Ara."

"Yes Pram. But I'm afraid Pram. I'm afraid you'll leave me."

"Son... Believe that... I love you so much, so I won't leave you. I love you..."

"Yes Pram. Hmmm Pram, can I ask you a question?"

"You ask me what, baby...Whatun you want to ask, you do not need to ask Ara, ask directly. I'll answer it. Because too much of our time has been lost, it's been 20 years Ar. "

"Pram, if you were told to choose me or mbk Pipin, who would you choose?"

" fra...Check out my message is fine. Sometimes we are faced with a point. Where we cannot choose. Because there is nothing to choose. So deciding not to vote is one option."

I'm waiting for a reply from Ara. But it turns out Ara didn't return my message. I then continued my work.