My Love is Wrong

Love needs trust

The next day I was getting ready to go to college. When I opened the door, I was shocked that there was Pipin waiting for me.

I saw Pipin at a glance and then put up my shoelaces.

Pipin kept quiet and after I finished my shoes, Pipin offered me bread, but I refused because I felt full. Pipin was disappointed.

"Where's the key? Let us not be late" I said breaking the silence between us.

Pipin nodded.

A few minutes later we arrived at the campus. We rushed to our own lecture rooms. Pipin and I were different because Pipin was my older brother.

Before parting Pipin said, "Pram, I'll wait for you here yes, I go to college until 3 o'clock." Pipin didn't dare look me in the face.

I just nodded and gave him a quick glance, then passed.

***

After college ended, I met Agus.

"Pram, you are waiting for Pipin under the tree there," said Agus while pointing to the park bench under the tree right corner of the campus.

I just nodded and continued my steps.

Agus saw my attitude like that immediately advised me," If there is a problem do not take it too seriously like that, find a way out, talk about it. Yes, the name is also two heads must be different nature and way of mind. Okay..." Agus patted my shoulder.

I just keep quiet. Agus is a friend like a brother to me, because he knows how I am and I understand how Agus is. Maybe because of our closeness since I started attending college.

Pipin saw me coming from a distance and smiled. I returned his smile but it still felt stiff, because I was still upset.

"Pram, you're done with your studies?"

"Yes..."

"We're going to the cafeteria" Pipin said

"Sorry I can't Pin, I want to go home. If you go to the cafeteria, I'm fine on my way back to the boarding house" I replied and stood up to get ready to go home.

Pipin sighed and pulled my hand to stay seated beside him, but I continued my steps.

Pippin followed me from behind. At the intersection of Pipin's parking lot, he pulled my hand and said, "Pram, here's the key to the bike, let's just go home to your boarding house."

I turned and looked at Pipin. Pipin gave me the keys to the bike.

"Hmmm.." I took Pipin's motor key.

I'm sitting on my boarding terrace. Pippin sat next to me.

"Pram. please excuse me. I can't see your attitude like this. Don't be so angry."

I still remained silent and took a long breath.

"Pram's... It's better for you to be angry and omelette me than for you to be quiet like that" Pipin began to look sad with teary eyes.

I can't bear to see Pipin like that.

"Already Pin.. I'm tired of talking about this. I've told you many times that I'm not an easy guy who likes a girl quickly. But your possessive attitude made me go awry."

Pipin digested my words while bowed and began to cry.

"Sorry Pin, it looks like this relationship cannot be continued. I can't have a relationship like this. I don't want you to feel pain and I don't want my wiggle room to be restricted like that either. I'm sorry, I think this relationship is quite up here."

"I don't want this relationship to end Pram, I love you so much. You know that and I don't want to lose you." Pipin's crying is getting worse.

I'm silent. I really intended to end my relationship with Pipin, because I felt that my movements were restricted. I saw Pipin crying and holding my hand. I tried to pull my hand, but Pipin tightened his grip even more.

Seeing Pipin cry, my heart was sad.

"That's Pin. Don't cry like this. If indeed we do not have a match why we have to force. We tried to do it but failed. Pin, that love needs trust. Perfect love requires only two hearts that trust and understand each other.

"I'm sorry Pram... I promise it won't be like that again. I'll be even better. I promise, and help me I don't want our relationship to end." Pipin hugged the left side of my arm and rested his head on my left shoulder while crying.

For some time we were silent.

"Yaa... Now don't cry anymore huha," I said as I took off Pipin's grip. Then my left hand hugged Pipin and kissed his forehead. I smile.

Pipin started to stop crying and leaned against my chest.

After a few minutes, Pipin took off my arms.

" Pram, I love you so much, please don't even think of leaving me. I promise I will give you my full trust. I believe in you." Pipin looked at me deeply and smiled happily.

The look in our eyes met, I smiled and then I kissed her forehead.

"Makasi Pins... Please don't repeat, I love you."

Pipin smiled and looked at me happily.