My Love is Wrong

Pram felt inappropriate

The night was getting late but my eyes could not close. Vertigoku will recur. I immediately took the Vertigoku medicine that always accompanied me in my small bag.

I took my medicine. I calmed my already chaotic mind.

Time has shown at 2 am. I've calmed down, and my vertigin' I've got it under control.

I took my phone. I'm looking for a new contact that Pram used to contact me.

The number is online again. I then waited because I saw again typing the message.

"Fra... I'm sorry yaa... I'll calm down first. Because the state of my household is really again on the edge of the horn. Pipin every moment angry. I can't do anything like this. While my kids need to eat."

"Please understand me, Ar. You know how I feel about you. Please give me some time. I love you so much, Ar."

"I'll calm things down here first Ar."

I replied to Pram's message.

"I understand Pram. I can't wait to see you like this either. Seeing you like that, it made me realize that you are not okay right now. "

"What you think is good, do it. Don't think about me. I love your ma. You're happy, I'm happy too."

"I support whatever you do."

"I believe you love and love me, but our current situation is very unlikely. "

" Honestly, Pram, this is heavy for me.

"Ara, I think you should make sure you feel for me, maybe what you feel is not love and affection. Maybe what you're feeling is just because you're obsessed. I'm sorry Ara..."

"If my love and my love need not be doubted. I love you so much, love you so much."

"What do you mean Pram? Why do you doubt my feelings for you??? You evil Pram!!!"

"I'm sorry Ara..I saw your happiness with your family. So I'm not sure if you really love me. You just pity me, not love Ar."

"I've ruined my family for you, and you know how I dare to express my wish to my wife if I want to marry you."

" And we have met, you have seen my true condition. I'm a fat man who doesn't deserve you, while you're young, beautiful. I'm not sure you really want to be my wife."

I was sad to read Pram's message. I wept. I was sad because it turned out that Pram doubted my feelings for her. I didn't reply to Pram's message.

"Pram, I can understand about your situation there. And I support whatever you do because I love you and trust you. But I'm disappointed that you doubted my feelings for you."

"You think I'm just obsessed and pitying you. I don't like those words."

"I'm sorry Ar... I said that because I felt it was inappropriate for you after meeting you in person. I'm just a failed man with this kind of self, where maybe you really love me. How could you love a man like me."

I cried reading Pram's message. I just read it.

"Ar.. I'm sorry for grading you. I'm just afraid of losing you. I love you so much, but I feel so helpless. Ara. Toloang reply to my message."

"Yes Pram.... I don't like that you doubt my feelings. Please don't repeat Pram. I want us to strengthen each other. I love you."

"Yeah baby. Oh yes Ara... I blocked your phone number on my personal number. Because I was making a fuss with my wife. Please forgive me, and I hope your understanding."

"Yes Pram, you don't need to explain and there's no need to apologize Pram. I already understand."

"I want you to be okay, and I'll wait for you. "

"Yes, baby... Wait me. I will work harder, I will finish my business and responsibilities here. After that I'll pick you up. I love you forever...."

"I love you...."

"Oh yes Ara... When are you going back to your town?"

"Tomorrow noon Pram."

"Yes dear.be careful on the road, my prayers are always with you...Sorry if our meeting wasn't what we expected."

"I'm happy with our meeting Pram. I love you .... After 20 years, God let us meet again."

"Yes Ara... Oh, Ar, tomorrow I can't take you back, I don't think it's possible. Even though I'd love to drive you. I'm sorry."

"It's okay, Pram. I know, baby..."

"Udah was yaa... Now you rest first. I love you...."

"Yes dear... I love you too.forever..."

After that I tried to sleep.