My Love is Wrong

Papa will always nemenin ma'am ...

I went to the hospital early in the morning to see my wife. Because yesterday Rahma said that her mother had to be operated on immediately because there was a problem in her back brain.

Arriving at the rash of pain I saw my wife was sleeping while Rahma again clean up tidying up the room where her mother was treated.

I greet my son.

"Eeh Papa..." Rahma.

"Dec... I'll be the one who opens the office... Maybe you didn't go to the office this morning. Papa will take care of your mother first." I said while kissing my wife's forehead.

"Yes Pa."

My wife sleeps very well. I sat near him. I looked at his thin and pale face. The face of my faithful wife has accompanied me for almost 22 years. Suddenly my tears wanted to fall. I feel guilty because I haven't been able to make her happy. I let out a breath.

Then Rahma decided to open the office after I gave her instructions for what she should do for today.

At about 9 a.m., the doctor came to check on my wife. Then I wondered about the surgery the doctor suggested. After getting an explanation from the doctor finally determined my wife will be operated on in 1 week. So my wife still has to hospitalize first.

I take care of the files that need to be prepared and equipped for the operation.

After all the full requirements I leave it to the officers at the hospital.

"Mom... All the requirements are in order, Papa will be out for a while... It's Papa next to ya... Papa wants to smoke a little." I said.

Wife nodded.

I sat in the corner near my wife's room. I pulled out my phone and I called Ara. But Ara didn't take my phone calls. Up to 3 calls but Ara did not receive my phone calls.

I bengong. I thought of Ara. Will Ara be mad at me because I haven't called her in 2 days. I didn't even send him a message.

Huff.... I'm wasting my breath. "b... Sorry me... I miss you Ar..." Bathink.

I then went into my wife's room. I sat near him...

"Mom... The strong yaa... Mother will be operated so that mother must prepare mentally daj leave everything to the Power... Papa will always nemenin mother...The spirit dear..."I said.

Wife's staring....

" Paa.... Sorry mom yaa.... Makasi Papa still love ma mom... Sorry mom Pa..." Kissed hand. And I stroked my wife's hair, which had begun to be adorned with her white hair.

" I love you... " I said with her eyes tight.

"Paa.... I don't know what's going to happen. Because the operation is tomorrow between life and death. So please excuse my mother's fault... Sorry mom who never paid attention to me Papa all this time. Sorry mother who...."

Uncompleted my wife continued her words, I immediately closed her lips with my 2 fingers.

" It's Mom... Mom doesn't have to apologize. Mother is a very kind and devoted wife to Papa... Papa is grateful because mom has accompanied Papa all this time. Papa who apologizes for not having time to give happiness to mother. " I said.

Wife's crying.

"Paaa.... Please forgive mom.... Mother please... I realize there are so many mistakes I've made to Papa. Mom's not a good wife Pa..... Sorry mom..."

I smiled and kissed my wife. Then I nodded.

"Makasi.... Honestly, Pa... I feel very lucky to have Papa. Papa gives mom unequaled happiness. Papa makes mom happy with Papa's love. Now I realize why Papa could fall in love with Ara. Because I can't keep dna reciprocating Papa's love good all this time." My wife said while crying.

I'm so moved to hear that.

" Sorry Papa ya Ma'am... Sorry Papa." I dare not continue my words that Ara had filled my heart long before I chose her to be my wife.

I chose to hide my feelings for Ara in my wife. I don't want to interrupt her thoughts and hurt her feelings because my wife has to be physically and mentally fit before the surgery.