My Love is Wrong

Ara calmed down

I calm my heart. I manage my feelings. There was a sense of disappointment, sadness, meaninglessness that enveloped my heart My mind was in turmoil, but I realized this was the reality.

Before I thought my husband loved me very much and loved me very much but now my husband asked permission to marry again.

" lady... I'll be married in 5 days. I hope everything goes well. "

"Yes Pa. Where will Lily live?" My toot.

"I've signed Lily's house on BTN Setia Kencana. Not far from our home." Husband says.

I'm nodding.

" You let Ma... We've already discussed this, and my mom has agreed to it."

"Yes Pa. The children's problems let mama explain." I said and learned to accept the truth.

" Yes Ma... Makeup." My husband said and kissed me.

I don't feel any affection in my husband's kiss on my forehead. I feel, this is just to cool my heart and my feelings. This is my life.

"Oh yes Ma, Aldi ma Arjun will be home in 3 days. Because they're on semester break from tomorrow. According to Papa, tomorrow do not tell the children that papa will marry again Maybe you should wait a few days after the wedding Papa.

I'm nodding. There were tears ready to drip from my eyes. But I can't stand it, I don't want my husband to see me cry.

We were not long at the beach, because it was getting dark. We went home, and on the way I preferred silence. All that was heard was the voice of Letto who was singing the song "Handaran Hati".

That night, I tried to prepare a potluck dinner. But I cook with a bad feeling, so maybe even the food I make does not taste good.

At dinner, I was grateful that Arini and Azka did not protest with the taste of my cooking, maybe they understood my newly healed condition. I saw them eating so well. So did my husband.

"Yes Ma..." Answer them aerempak..

After eating, the children return to their rooms. I also went back to my room. My husband went into his study.

I lay in my bed. And I saw a cell phone. There was a message from Pram.

"Ara.. why are you not active from the last we finish calling. You're healthy, baby..."

"I'm worried Ar."

"Don't force yourself to do homework. If you can't cook, you better buy it! "

"Please follow what I say Ar."

" I promise not to be king of Zolim, I will take good care of you "

" I love you ..."

My tears are falling." Pram's tomb will be your love and care. Why didn't you pick me up Pram, why????" bathinku.

I'm looking at Pram's profile picture ." I love you Pram... "

I didn't answer Pram's message, my mind's still messed up. I was confused by my husband's wedding plans. " How do you say you love me Muhlas, if you're going to marry Lily. Maybe you'll remember me when you're with Lily.

I'm getting messed up with my own thoughts. I imagined later that my husband was married to Lily, meaning that I would have to divide my husband with Lily. Can I??? Can I imagine my husband sleeping with Lily. " I can't stand God." I screamed in my heart.

I wiped my tears. Then I calmed myself, my feelings and my heart by praying to God. For it is the Lord who wills. If it is fate, I will try to accept it patiently even if it is difficult.