My Love is Wrong

Pram's desire to make Ara happy

Days change, months change. The efforts built by Pram have begun to show results. Pram assisted Rahma managed to make his printing business more advanced.

This afternoon Pram promised to call me.

My phone rang and I saw it was a call from Pram. I immediately accepted it. But before I ask Siti to continue the order that I have listed. Oh yeah, Siti's working again.

Then I told Siti, that I would take a short break in the back room.

"How are you, my dear? "Ask Pram.

"Good news Pram....How are you yourself? Healthy is Pram."

"I'm always healthy if I want to call your mom. I miss Ar." Pram.

My heart is shaking and flowery.

"Hmmm really..trus if we don't call you unhealthy that?" I asked while laughing.

I heard Pram laughing.

"Ara. please beat me up... I want my efforts to really show results immediately. I'm excited to build this business Ar, only my time is really seized. My time hasn't been loose Ar. This is Ar's dilemma, one side I want my efforts to succeed immediately but the other side I miss your ma. I miss Ar. I'm just cheering myself on, this is all for our dream Ar. So please understand yes, and please forgive me ." Pram.

"Yeah Pram... I understand and you don't have to apologize. I love you Pram, I want to see you happy. I want you to succeed. I will support you. You are still in spirit..."

"Makasi Ara ...My love. I will make you happy someday. That's all I wanted before God picked me up." Pram said excitedly.

Hearing Pram's words like that scared me, I suddenly cried. There was a feeling of love for Pram to me but there was fear, I was afraid of being abandoned by Pram.

"Why silence Ar? I was wrong?"

"Now, I'm talking about Ar... You don't believe I love you?"

"I believe and am very confident in your feelings Pram. I'm just afraid that if that time doesn't come, God will separate us. That's what I'm afraid of." I said with tears still.

"Fra... Please beat me up. I want to say important to you. I love you, and God knows how much I love you. We can only live our lives full of plans and desires. We are just trying to realize all our dreams and desires. But we must also remain conscious and remember that above all we do there is an almighty power that governs and sets our destiny. We can only walk Ar, but all the provisions are in God's hands. You understand what I mean, my dear?" Pram explained carefully.

"Yeah Pram, I get it." I said.

Pram switched to a video call, I accepted it.

Pram immediately kissed my forehead, then looked at me deeply

"Darling ... Why crying? We must submit to the provisions of God, dear. We pray a lot that all we want and aspire to be realized. Jaa... I love you... I want to be with you not only in the world Ar, I want to be with you until we are in the next realm. I love you so much, Ara..." Pram.

I nodded, and I really wanted to hug her.

"I hug ya, but stop crying yaa..."

I'm nodding. I could feel his embrace even though we were physically far apart but our hearts were close to limitless. I can feel the outpouring of his affection.

"Ar.something when I'm going to pick you up. Keep loving and loving me. Be patient in your waiting. Smoga Lord Sudi realize this dream and my desire Ar..."

"Yes Pram. The spirit of Yaa looking for money, looking for a blessing and halal.. And take care of your health."

" Yes my love... Your orders will be carried out by me ." Pram said as he raised his right hand as a sign of respect.

I laughed and Pram laughed.