My Love is Wrong

My Husband's Face is Pale

I cried, and so did Sabila. Joseph sat down near me.

"Mom... Papa is okay..." Ask Yusuf.

I stroked Joseph's hair.

" Wish your Father, son. Your brother called earlier, he said Papa had been taken to Harapan Keluarga hospital. I want to go there first with Sabila yaa .. Joseph take care of the house first, son."

Joseph was silent and just looked down. Then Sabila and I went to the hospital.

Before I left, I kissed Joseph's hair first.

"Mother go first, son." I said.

"Mom... Can yusuf come? Joseph wants to see Papa." Yusuf menhiba.

I could not bear to see Joseph, I finally nodded. Then we went three. About 5 minutes the taxi that Sabila had booked arrived. We headed to Harapan Keluarga Hospital.

I got there and went to look for Rahma. Rahma had said that Rahma and her Papa were now in the ER.

" Mom..."Rahma called.

"Sir..." I said and approached him. I saw my husband sleeping and there was an infusion attached to his hand.

I'm sad to see it.

"Dec, Papa why? "

"Papa suddenly a pain in his chest Mom, keep getting tired right here. Hu hu....."Rahma said while crying.

I hugged her. My feelings are not good, I am afraid. I pray that my husband is okay.

" Deck, is Papa sleeping?" Ask Sabila.

Rahma shakes.

"So don't know, brother. Papa from earlier was like that. Adek is afraid. Adek kinda wants Papa why-why. Adek dear Papa..." Rahma was crying.

Seeing the condition of the husband like that, I can only give up. I realized I had to be strong, I had to be able to strengthen my children. My kids need me.

"Mommy wants to talk to the doctor first.... Sabila, please look at your sisters, son."

I looked for a doctor and asked my husband.

The doctor explained that my husband had a heart attack but thankfully my husband was immediately taken to the hospital.

I then asked Sabila and Rahma to take care of the room for her Papa. After all, my husband was transferred to the hospital room.

My husband still doesn't flinch. Like sleeping. I stroked my husband's face, unaware that my tears were soaring. I'm afraid of things happening that I don't want.

My husband's face was pale, I clasped my husband's hand. I whispered in his ear, "I love you so much Pa, hang on. For me and your children. We need you, Pa...."

Rahma got up from her seat and approached me.

"Mom... Already, mother don't cry. I was afraid my mother was sick. Now mom rest first. Yeah..."

I let out my breath...

"Mother pingin deket Papamu, Deck. Mom is okay. " Alu erased my tears and grasped my husband's hand.

I wish my husband could come out of his sleep. I will correct my attitude. I'll make her happy. I want to make amends for all my mistakes.

I realized, my husband always obeyed my wishes and always according to what I said even though I was not kind to him. I often underestimate him dajbnot take it.

I regret too much. I feel so guilty. My husband always stood up for me when there were bad words about me from his mother or his brothers. My husband really loves me. "Yes my God, please heal my husband. Give a miracle to his recovery. I beg you." My prayer.

Sabila and Joseph entered the room.

"Mom. I bought you rice padang. We eat yuk ma'am...."

"Eat Nak... Mom's not hungry yet. You guys eat first.. Mom's eating soon." I said with a smile.

Then my kids ate the rice. While I still hold my husband's hand. I hope my husband returns my hand