My Love is Wrong

Pipin asked how I felt about him

Pipin took his bike in the parking lot. I waited under the tree.

The distance from where I live is only a few meters with my campus. So my parents didn't facilitate me with motor vehicles.

It wasn't long before Pipin was there. Pipin got off the bike and let me in front.

I hugged Pipin to the bookstore. I'm still males by the way, silent account only. All the way I was silent. I focus on the road. Pipin tried to persuade me.

"Pram's... Please excuse me. Ease dong silence. I can't see you being quiet. Cook from leaving until you come back again you do not talk. Sorry I'm so.." Pippin tried to apologize again.

I let out a breath. " Hmmm, yes, do not need to be extended. I just wasn't in the mood anymore. Now you take me to college. Yes Pin, I'm going to rest, I'm so sleepy."

"Pram, we have meatballs at the campus cafeteria. I'm hungry and I'm sure I'm hungry too."

"Other times Pin... I'm so sleepy," I refused.

"Well, that's it."

When I got to college, my bike turned off. And get ready to go back to my boarding house.

"Pram, I'm really sorry. I promise I won't let you down again. Sorry I'm so..."

I smile. "Ok Pin."

Pipin smile.

In the room Kos

Not even a 10-minute walk away, I've arrived at the boarding house. I went straight to my room. Suddenly Edo called me.

Edo was a friend who lived across the street from my room, and Edo was home to me.

"Pram... How come you get back from college, no college?"

"Hi Do, I was in college for only 2 hours and then I drove Pipin to the bookstore, but because I was sleepy, coming home from Pipin, I went straight back to the boarding house. I want to sleep Do" I replied.

"Oo so, but it looks like you're sprained again huh.. Ma Pipin Pram? "

I'm sitting on my boarding terrace. Hm... I let out a breath.

Edo sat next to me. Edo took out a pack of his cigarettes, then thrust them at me.

"I don't smoke Do, makasi," I refused subtly.

Edo smiled. Trus Edo burned a cigarette

"You have a problem, you can tell me so you can plong."

I intend to ask Edo's opinion of Ara. Edo is a village with Ara. So he knows a lot about Ara. And too many compliments for Ara from Edo. And I admit, Ara deserves a lot of that praise.

"Do, how do you think Ara is better than Pipin?

Edo laughed immediately. " Ooh apparently the girl problem to. I think you should pay attention to which girl is close by. Ara far Pram, besides you don't know if there Ara alone or already have a partner. Be that as it may...Pipin is also a good person, very considerate of you and beautiful too," said Edo aambil smoking his cigarette.

I'm speechless. But it's true, Ara during High School never paid more attention to me. I was the only one paying attention to him. I swallowed spit. But I really love Ara.

I'm not the kind of guy who falls in love fast. Since I was Junior High until now I have only ever loved 2 girls, Erni and Ara. I dated Erni once, but still love monkeys, when I was Junior High. That'sthat's all.

If I feel for Ara, I am alone because I am afraid of rejection. "Ara, I miss you, "my inner self.

"But Do, I love ma Ara. I'm rattled. Even though Pipin doesn't express his feelings for me, I know how much Pipin loves me."

"Tell it, follow my advice. You used to live the same way Pipin did. Let it flow like water."

"hmm. Yes, I want to sleep first. Let's wake up I'm fresh." I answered while waking up.

"Sip Do. I go in first." I went into my room.

k photo Ara who is cycling again. "Ara.., my inner self while smiling. I'm happy to see him smile.

Before long I heard someone knocking on the door, then said hello. It sounds like Pipin.

I get out of bed. Then open my room door.

Right too, Pipin was standing in front of my bedroom door.

"Pram, I'll bring you some meatballs to mix your favorite ice. You must be hungry, right" asked Pipin while thrusting a plastic bag containing meatballs and ice mixed.

I smiled and took the plastic bag. "Thank you, "I replied.

I took two bowls and a spoon. Then take it slowly. I saw Pipin watching me. I pretended not to know, while still eating meatballs and ice.

"You want a Pin, "me ask.

Pipin was shocked because when I offered that, Pipin was watching me. Pipin shook his head and blushed in shame.

I smile. Pipin has been watching me all along.

"Pram's... Can I clean your room? "ask Pipin.

I'm nodding. "But my room is in a mess right now, I'm ashamed of Pin."

Pippin smiled and went into my room. I stayed on the terrace and continued eating.

I suddenly got a stomachache and went to the bathroom. I hurried into the room. Because I hurriedly hit Pipin, and Pipin almost fell if I did not hold his shoulder. Pipin reflexively held my shirt, and our position was very close. I was shocked and nervous. Pipin looked at me and then fell ashamed.

"I'm sorry Pin I accidentally, I'm in a hurry to go to the bathroom" I said. While releasing my hand on Pipin's shoulder. I went straight into the bathroom.

"Pin, you wait for me outside, yep, "cried me from inside the bathroom. I don't want any slander later.

After finishing the bathroom, I saw Pipin already sitting on the terrace. Pippin folded up some of my messy clothes in the room. Then I sat down next to Pipin.

"Pram... Can I ask you something?"

"Well, can you ask me what Pin is?"

"You promised an honest answer.."

I'm nodding.

"Actually how do you feel about me, Pram? Do I mean anything to you?" ask Pipin.

I was surprised by Pipin's question, I wasn't ready to answer it. I'm speechless.

"Pram, answer my question."

"Pin, you already have a guy, so what does your question mean?"

Pipin. Then reply to my question, "You answered my question, you yourself how do you feel?"

I was quiet for a while. Then I noticed Pipin who was still down.

" I'm confused to answer what Pin is, this is how we go just like it is. Just walk away, let time answer."

Pipin seemed dissatisfied with my answer.

"It's not clear, if I go home first ." Pippin got up from his seat and prepared to leave.

I just shut up. I let Pipin go.