My Love is Wrong

thesis test

For days I went through very difficult circumstances after my farewell with Good. Ever since that fateful afternoon I've always avoided Good. It's good to find me home, but I don't want to see him.

I've decided to focus on the thesis exam. I'm trying to get rid of all the memories with Good. I prepared myself well for the test to go well and get a good result.

Not feeling day after day passed, finally my script exam day arrived.

"Fra... You have breakfast first son, mama make fried rice with eggs said the cow," mama told me to have breakfast first.

I'm still preparing some small notes for the preparation of the thesis exam. So I haven't had time for breakfast.

"Yeah... Wait a minute, ma, Ara, finish this for breakfast" I replied as I tidied up the files that I had to carry.

" The fried rice is delicious, but sorry Ara can not spend because Ara hastily ma. Sorry ma..."I tried to finish off half a plate of my fried rice.

Mama interrupted and smiled.

"Ara, I pray that Ara's thesis exam runs smoothly and has facilities." Mama kissed my forehead giving me spirit.

I smiled, and said mom.

Arriving at the college, I went straight into the exam room. I prepared all the files. "Thank God, my examiner's lecturer hasn't come yet" I thought.

There are some friends also got a thesis exam turn today.

Before long the examiner lecturer came, the thesis exam began.

"Huh..."I took a deep breath and breathed it out... After almost 2 hours, my exam was finally over. Thank goodness I answered all the questions well. I was nervous earlier, but thankfully all the lecturers were very good, I was directed until I finally could answer it well.

"How's Ar, the test?" Amir asked.

I did not see Amir. Maybe because I finished the exam so don't focus on my surroundings.

"Alhamdulillah Mir.. There is a slight improvement," I replied with a satisfied smile to Amir

"Thank God... Congratulations to Ara..." Amir patted my shoulder.

I happy... But somehow there was a feeling of being moved and my tears wanted to drip out, but I immediately controlled my emotions. I averted my eyes.

"Mir, I go first, I want to go straight to the library mumpung still morning." I say goodbye to Amir.

"Yaa Ar, be careful on the road... It's Ar, the spirit ya."

I was moved to hear Amir encouraging me. I'm nodding.

"Makasi Mir." I replied and passed down the stairs.

When I was about to head to the library, it was suddenly good to pull my hand

"b... Why do you keep avoiding me??? What's the matter Ara??Please explain I'm "Good looking at me sharp.

"Let go of my hand, I don't want to see you anymore" I said, trying to take Good's hand off my hand. But Good's hand was more firmly gripping my arm.

"You can't be like this, you suddenly avoid me and don't give me the slightest explanation. What's wrong, Ar?"

Finally Good to release the handle.

"At, please, please explain me. Please please..Please Ar..." It's good to beg me while looking at me. Then his hand would rub my cheek, but I brushed it off.

"Don't Gus. You hurt me enough. I already know everything, so you don't have to hide anything else to me. It's enough for me to be your game" I said. I don't want to look Good in the eyes, because I can't stand it, my tears will fall down.

"Ar, look me in the eye. I love you, so dear Ar... Why do you say that. What the hell is it?

I will continue my steps, but Good to pull my hand again.

" If you don't give me an explanation, I won't take your hand off!!" Good to grip my arm.

My tears finally could not hold. I wept. It was good to try to hug me, but I refused.

"Please Gus, you don't have to pretend like me anymore. I already know your relationship with that girl."

"Where's Ar? Who do you mean??"

"I saw you piggybacking on a girl. I've been told by the Goddess before, but I don't believe it. The girl you are boning is exactly the characteristics with what the Goddess said. And you ma the chick was so friendly. "

"Your jealousy doesn't justify Ara. I love you, that's the truth. You should have trusted me more than the Goddess."

I stared hard at Bagus.

"Listen Gus yaa, at the KKN place, I believe very much in all my words. And I'm sure that you love me so much. But after we KKN ended, your attitude slowly began to change."

"That's how you feel, Ar" Good defensively.

"I've got stories about you from a lot of friends here, but that's it... I don't want to blame you. I was wrong. I gave my heart to you too soon."

"Ar. Please listen to me." Good to take off his hand grip on my arm.

"Already Gus... Please forget everything. I've cleared everything. We don't fit Gus, too much difference. I realize I'm not pretty like your girls . Please let's forget everything, Gus, I'm tired of Gus."

"You don't know how difficult my days are, Gus, let alone having to prepare for the thesis exam." I explained again.

Good looking at me inside.

"Ar, I love you, I'm serious. I have another boyfriend, but my relationship is not as serious as yours. Because I love you so much...Trust me, Ar."

I threw away my sight. I don't want to be fooled anymore.

"I'm sorry Gus.. I don't want to continue our relationship. I'm sorry, Gus, I have to go" I said and set foot on my way to the library..

It was good to finally let go of me. Good to hold his head with both hands and bow.

I don't care anymore. I continue my run. I've had enough of you to hurt Gus," I said.

I'm taking a breath... There was a sense of relief, the end of it all was completely over.