My Love is Wrong

Feel uncomfortable

I sat on the porch holding Al, waiting for my husband to come home from work.

Ria and her friends are still in the room. While Afif is still engrossed in watching TV, so is Ana.

I saw in the distance my two in-laws were on their way to my house.

I greeted him and Al was taken by my mother-in-law from my arms.

Not long after my husband came. We gathered together for a warm tea.

"Sir, I'll rest in the room first... I'm a little bit dizzy. "My husband's words.

"Oh yes bang...Rest first," I said.

I walked into the room accompanying my husband, while Al was still in his grandmother's cradle.

I scowled Muhlas' head, and smeared with wind oil.

"Dec...This time I was tired. There's work to be delivered the afternoon before 4 o'clock, so we're all overtime. ya draining Dek's energy and mind."

I just nodded while still continuing to massage his head. Actually I was also dizzy again, because from earlier I could not rest, wanted to sleep but outside the sound of TV and tape recorder was very big so I was disturbed. Hmmmm...

I feel uncomfortable, so many people in my house. I rented a rented house that was not big while all the family husband almost every day in my house. Sometimes even my husband's brothers take their friends home.

Evening came, I had to prepare dinner. When we were ready, we ate together.

After dinner, my two in-laws said goodbye to go home, so my husband Muhlas had to drive them back and forth knowing the night vehicles were a bit difficult around my rented house. Forced my husband to drive them back and forth, even though he had a headache.

After all, I, Al, and my husband, and Ria and Afif, lived in my house.

"Dec, how does it feel like I'm carefree... " My husband said as he picked up the jacket and headed for the bed. I still give Al ASI.

"Maybe the brother because the brother is tired so his body is carefree." I said.

"Hmmm.... Yes deck..My brother took medicine first... " Said while looking for over-the-counter medicine in the medicine box.

"Bao... I have something to discuss." I said.

"What do you want to say?"

"I'm sorry about earlier... " I was silent for a moment because I hesitated to talk about it. Looking into my husband's eyes, I continued my words.

" Bang, I'm sorry, actually I feel uncomfortable with my brother's family who come almost every day. Not to mention the brothers brought their friends to play here.Sorry I sometimes can not rest in the afternoon because they are very rowdy. Some set the TV and some set the Tape recorder, and it's a clashing sound. I'm dizzy bang. Not to mention I have to prepare a meal for all of them. And the thing I don't like the most is when you have to take mom, Anna and dad alternately back and forth, even though you're tired in the office."

My husband listened to my complaints.

"I'm sorry bang... I don't really want to reveal any of this, but I don't think it's good to keep it so I decided to talk to my brother about it." I then lowered my head.

My husband took a deep breath...

"Dec, I'm sorry.... I've made you feel uncomfortable in your own home."

"I can also feel the discomfort of this deck, because this we have lived almost every day and if not wrong almost 1 year since we were married. I also felt tired of having to take everything back and forth after I got home from work, because I was tired at the office too. "

"But I don't know how to solve it yet. Because I can't possibly forbid them from visiting us."

I felt guilty hearing my husband's explanation. I made him feel pinched. I kept quiet, then hugged my baby.

"I don't like to be visited, but not every day like now bang. Not if they quarrel, sometimes mother quarrel with Ana, sometimes Afif quarrel with Ria. Anyway, so rowdy. Sorry."

Muhlas kissed my forehead, "I'm sorry, dek. I'll think of a way out..."

"Yes bang... Now brother rest up. Let's get the pain healed."

A few minutes later I saw that Muhlas had fallen asleep, perhaps due to the influence of the drugs taken or perhaps because of fatigue as well.

I looked at the faces of my husband and son. Suddenly my tears came. It's not this kind of household life I expected, but I don't know how to get out of it.

I tried to accept this situation because I was trying to understand my husband's situation, but over time I was not strong either.

Dedek Al woke up and cried. It looks like dedek peed, I then changed his diaper and lured Al. Al and I fell asleep.