My Love is Wrong

Recollecting

I'm a guy who doesn't have the courage to be in a relationship with a girl, I don't have the confidence to do that. I felt unworthy because of so many flaws I had. Especially coupled with the economic situation of my parents since experiencing business bankruptcy. That's why I never dared to really approach women.

This incident made me nervous. I got carried away, I got out of control and dared to kiss Pipin.

My whole life was the first time I kissed a girl. The girl Pipin. I don't know why I could and dare to do it. Maybe because I started to love Pipin.

My heart is broken because of Pipin's love and sincerity.

I do regret what happened this afternoon, but I enjoy the beauty of the turmoil that is in my heart.

I remembered Edo's words, "Have lived anything near you now, let alone Pipin so attentive and did not hesitate to show how much he loved you."

I sat by my bed looking at Ara's photo. "Did Ara feel what I feel like, too??"

My daydreams were broken because there was the sound of Agus greeting.

I opened the door to my room and let Agus in.

"Gus, we're talking in the room, because I had a headache from last day" I said as I slept in my bed.

Agus nodded. Then saw there was instant noodles and coffee on my little table.

"Well, you just got a delivery from the parents in the village," Agus cengar cengir while taking 1 pack of noodles.

"Delivery from where? This shipment from Hong Kong was Pipin who bought it at the front stall of the boarding house," I explained with a laugh.

I let out a breath. Then I told Agus the truth if me and Pipin were made.

Agus was very surprised and asked, "When is Pram??"

I answered him briefly, "last noon..."

"Oooh congratulations, Pram finally made it too., I'm not treated ne?"

"Traktir whatan, did I say earlier if I have not received a shipment from the village? Tu you brew instant mia aja there, I became pingin ngeteh too, let my belly is gone," I told Agus to make noodles and warm tea.

"Ready boss." Agus directly lit the stove to make noodles. Agus made 2 packs of noodles, 1 cup of tea and 1 cup of coffee.

Then Agus and I ate our own noodles and drinks.

"Pram, you don't play with Pipin's feelings... As for him, I saw him so attentive and dear to you since the first time I met you." Agus reminded.

I just shut up. I imagined the cheerful face of Pipin, who always approached me, my attention. Even since the ospek first, every girl friends or sister level girls approached me, Pipin immediately closed their way. Where I was there was Pipin.

"Kok you're that dumbass? You why? " ask Agus because seeing me silent is not much to say from earlier.

"Already Gus... I used to live like running water. I want to go to college seriously, Gus, I don't want to disappoint my parents. About Pipin, I knew he was so affectionate and considerate of me, and I had no intention of hurting him."

Agus is Pipin's friend from a generation who happens to be in the same area as me. Agus often advised me to be Pipin's girlfriend, because Agus did not like Armando who was famous on campus as an arrogant, rude and arbitrary student when acting and talking. Understand Armando's son people are.