My Love is Wrong
Ara prayer
I try to calm myself. I have to be strong so that Pram is strong. I continued reading Pram's message.
"b... In a perfectly healthy home is only Sabila. My body is hot, my head hurts and my breathing is hard."
I replied to Pram's message.
"Yeah Pram... I love you... Patience yes... I'm sure you'll be cured, I'm sure."
"Yeah Ar... The pain medication decreases, a few hours later the pain returns again."
" Yeah... Keep taking the medicine."
"Yes..."
" And keep eating, force yourself to eat. I'm sad Pram, because I can only pray Pram." I sent a sad and crying emot.
"Patience sweetheart... Your prayer means so much to me. Don't worry, Ar... I'm fine, baby... Don't cry and be sad... I love you..."
"Yes dear ..."
"b... Something's pulling Ar... I haven't had a shower in 3 days. He he's..." Pram sent emot a laugh.
I'm a little amused...
" I'm stinking..."
"But it doesn't smell Ar..." Pram.
" Don't take a shower, you're perfectly healthy." I said.
" Yes, baby..."
"Pram.it doesn't smell, maybe you don't smell." I said.
"Yeah..." Pram said and sent emot a laugh.
"Don't smell anything? That's Anosmia her name is dear..."
"Ooh. That means, you will recover Pram. Have a proper rest, take regular medication and forcefully watch your meal..."
Pram just read my message but didn't reply to it. I'm worried again. This is not a pram habit.
"Pram's... Where are you going? How did you suddenly say?" I said. But my message was not read.
I waited for Pram's reply, but 1 hour later Pram replied to my message.
" I wanted to go to God Ar... Facing God must be clean..." Pram.
" Why is Pram????" I also send sad and cry emotes.
" Yeah Ar... To worship before God must be clean."
I just sent you a cry emot. I can't write a reply. I wept.
"Ara darling... Jamgan.... Yaa...I have Ar kidney disease... But the severity of kidney pain, can still be predicted. While my current pain is unpredictable. I took the medicine only lasted a few hours, kept back again the pain. Doain I am Ar..."
"Pram's...I'm sure you'll be healed. I'm sure it is. Pram Prayer...I will ask in my prayer that God will grant you healing..."
"Yeah baby..."
" Prim...These words of yours make me short of breath Pram... "
" dear... I love you...I love you forever Ar... Forever... It was once yaa... I'm getting sleepy..."
"Yeah... Rest dear... My prayers are always for your recovery..."
After replying with Pram, I tried to calm myself down. I'm scared, really scared. My feelings are fucked up .. I'm afraid of God...
Then I sat down crying and praying..." Oh my God ...Forgive us my Lord... Forgive us what we have, forgive us Lord... Heal Pram, Lord... I'm begging... I am a sinful man, I am a sinful man, but please heal my loved ones. So much sadness and pain that Pram has gone through, but he is always strong God. It is thanks to the power you give. Please give Pram the strength to face his pain this time for the sake of his children and wife, because they are so dependent on him and need him so much...So many dreams and desires that he has yet to realize. So many desires for the good of others that he wants to realize... Please give healing to God.... It is only to You that we ask, grant my prayer Lord... And forgive us."
I wept...I am interested in God's provisions... Because we can only pray...
