My Love is Wrong

A dream that excited me

I have been hospitalized for 2 days. My condition is getting weaker. Respiratory devices are still installed.

"Pa... Mom's bribing the porridge..." Wife says.

I look at him softly. My wife was crying incessantly. I want to wipe her tears. Yet I was really weak helpless.

My wife feeds me porridge, slowly. I tried to swallow it even though it felt bland.

I want to heal, that's what I have in mind. I want to make my wife happy, I want to make my children happy.

Only 3 bribes I managed to swallow.

" Mommy.sorry Papa yaa can not make mom happy. Papa wants to heal Mom. "

My wife hugged me.

"Mother dear Papa... I need you Papa...Papa will heal. I always pray for Papa. Live all this with sincerity Pa, the important Papa must be eager to heal. Papa has to force himself to eat ya..."

"Yes Ma'am..."

"Oh yeah Pa. This morning Ara called just Papa sleeping. Ara tanya Papa's... Mom said Papa was weak. Mom wanted to wake up but Ara said no. Later in the day Ara will call again he said. "

I listened to my wife's story.

"Pa.. Ara said, Papa must force to eat the porridge and must take regular medicine so that Papa can recover he said. "

I nodded weakly.

Room door is locked. The doctor came.

The doctor checked my condition. Doctor greets me.

"Good morning, Mr. Pram." Said the doctor.

" Morning Doctor..." I smile.

"The father's situation has made progress. Later I will prescribe additional drugs to reduce the swelling sir. What matters is that you have to stay up." The doctor smiled encouraging me.

I'm nodding. " Thank you Doctor."

" The Same Sir... This medicine has not been taken yet.." Said the Doctor.

" Pram just finished breakfast, Mr. Dekter. Soon the medicine will be taken." Wife says.

"Oh yeah... I must always encourage Mr. Pram... And the important thing is the prayer. And Mr. Pram should still routinely take the medicine that I have given yaa... Okey... Now I'm going to check on the other patients..." The doctor said to my wife.

"Yes, Mr. Doctor... Thank you Doctor.." My wife said and lowered her head slightly.

The doctor smiled, "Together..."

The accompanying doctor and nurse walked out of my room.

"No Pa... The doctor said that Papa's condition is now improving. So Papa has to stay up..."

"Yes Mom...." I nodded weakly.

But that's how it is if we're in pain. The pain came like a flood, but it healed slowly. Like water droplets. I have to be patient.

I try to always be grateful for whatever my situation is right now.

"Mom... Papa sleepy... Papa wants to go to bed first..."

"Yeah Pa... But this medicine must be taken first..."

My wife took the medicine that the nurse had provided earlier this morning.

You then take the medicine, and sleep again.

I'm asleep.

In my sleep I dreamt, Ara cried and held my hand.

Ara crying kissed my hand.

"I want you to heal Pram. You promised to always accompany me. You promised to be there for me always. You're strong Pram. You must be healed. Even though I don't have you, seeing you always there for me, it's been so happy for me, Pram. You said you wanted to see me happy. I am happy to see me healthy and always there for me. Pram Spirit....I beg Pram." Ara sobbing crying.

I just looked at her, wanted to wipe away her tears but I couldn't.

Then my wife came, and took my other hand. Wife's crying.

"Pa...I need Papa...Papa must be healed. I can't afford to go through this on my own without Papa... Pa. Papa's dear mother... I can't afford Pa...I beg you Pa ..."Wife's crying.

I can only return the hands of two women I love. I wept.

I looked at Ara who was crying, and I looked at my wife who was also crying.

I need to heal. Give me the healing of my Lord, I ask. I wept. I want to heal.

Suddenly I felt someone moving my shoulder wake me up.

" lt...Pa... "

I woke up to see Rahma in front of me.

I was dreaming.

"Father dreams and delirium ..." Rahma.

Well, it turns out I was dreaming.

I'm nodding.

" Mom's taking a shower, Pa, so you're waiting for Papa."

"Yeah Deck... "

I remembered my dream just now. I'm excited to get well. I need to heal. I want to make the people I love happy.