My Love is Wrong

Pipin was furious at Ara

I'm starting to feel uncomfortable. All sorts of thoughts playing around in my head. I tried to calm myself.

'Fine..." I with Pipin's voice across there called out to me.

"Yes to mbak."

"You love Ma Pram yaa..."

I'm silent. I don't know what to say. I just shut up.

"Ara, I know everything. Pram told me everything."

I heard Pram's voice over there telling Pipin to turn off the phone and solve his problem later enough with him and there was no need to involve me.

"Ara, you heard me all right. I already know your relationship with Pram. I want to know, does your husband know about your relationship with Pram?"

Pipin's voice sounded resolutely investigating me.

" Yes Mbk. I love ma Pram. Ii'm sorry. But my relationship with Pram is not what Pipin thinks. And my husband doesn't know my relationship with Pram because I don't think he needs to know." Reply slowly.

I tried to calm myself but I knew it was hard. Not felt by me, my tears dripping.

"Ooh so. Now you want how to continue your relationship with Pram. You do know that you already have a husband and Pram already has a wife, why are you still in touch?? Huh!!!! " Pipin's voice has begun to rise.

I shut up and cried. I realized my race and the feeling Pram had was wrong. I don't know what to say.

"Ara, how do you want me? Huh!!! you want to marry Pram? You want? You want to talk to your husband if you want to marry Pram? Answer my question." Pipin's voice sounded full of anger.

I don't blame Pipin for being angry with me. I know me and Pram were wrong. Whatever the reason is, it remains wrong.

"Ara, you answered my question!!!"

" I don't know how it goes Ma'am. Sorry me. But my relationship is not what Pipin imagined. " I tried to answer Pipin's questions.

I'm silent.

"So I asked Pram what he wanted. And Pram said, he wants to marry you. If you both want to get married, will you lose your children and your husband?"

"Mbk, I'm sorry for everything mbk. Let me think about it all again." My answer.

I heard Pram talking to his wife across the phone. And then Pram picked up the phone and talked to me.

"Ara, stop. Maaflan. Let me settle this matter with my wife first. You're fine there "Kata Pram.

"Yes Pram."

Then the call was ended by Pram.

I was crying so much. I never imagined everything would happen like this.

Only this time in my life have I been treated like a criminal under investigation and will be put on trial. There is a feeling of shame and sadness.

I cried and made up what I should do. I feel sorry for Pram. How he is now.

I took a deep breath and wiped my tears.

I never thought it would be like this in the end. I made a fuss at Pram's house. I'm confused what to do?

I realize my feelings are wrong. Pram's feeling wrong. I know Pram loves me very much. And Pram's love from then until now has never gone away. I know it. But I don't have the heart that Pram should get such a scorn from his wife Pipin.

I can imagine how angry Pipin was to Pram, because the way Pipin got angry with me in a high-pitched voice made me uncomfortable.

But at the end of the phone call, Pram still showed me his affection, "You're fine there..."