My Love is Wrong

Hollowly

I was sad to see Pram from my sleeping mobile screen with various tools installed on his body.

My husband sat next to me and hugged me. I don't know what feeling is raging in my heart. I wept.

Before the call ended, Mr. Pipin, did not forget that Mr. Pipin asked me to pray for Pram's recovery.

"Ma... Never mind... Mama should pray Pram so that Pram is strong and can escape the sari of his critical period. Yeah...." My husband and I just said.

I looked at my husband.

"Pa... Maafin Pram Ya Pa... Sorry him... Sorry Mama..." I said and then looked down.

Husband nodded.

"Now Mama calm the mind of Mama, trua we both pray Pram yaa... "

I nodded....

"Ma... Tonight, I will not have to cook... Papa order food in the online application only yes..."

"Yeah Pa...Later Papa asked the children to eat what..." My husband nodded and went out looking for Arini and Azka.

I sit on my bed. My appetite is gone. I'm not tasteful. I imagine Pram's suffering at this time.

"You're strong Pram... You must be strong. You want to see me happy, there's Pram...." Bathinku screamed and my tears kept pouring out.

I saw Pram's profile picture. I looked into Pram's eyes.

Memories of being in High School danced in my mind. It is reflected how hard and tight Pram if I do not want to follow his advice and advice. Palagi are related to my health.

It was how Pram gave his attention to me. I want to scream asking for Pram's recovery. I wept.

I sat down and prayed for Pram's healing as well as for the calm and strength of Pipin's mother to face this test.

The next day, I just sat in my room. Before that I had prepared breakfast and provisions that my children had to bring. Then my husband dropped off the school children.

This heart I did not go to the store, the audition called Siti to handle the store and prepare the orders that must be sent.

Last night I didn't sleep, because I had a pale Pram face.

I called Mbak Pipin to ask about Pram's situation.

"Sir, how's Pram doing?" My toot.

" Pram is still unconscious Ar. I'm afraid of Ar, I don't want to lose him. She loved him very much and she needed him very much..." Ma'am Pipin crying.

I'm crying too.

"We can only pray to God... Smoga Pram can pass this critical period mbak. You also have to take care of your health, and you also have to be strong for the sake of children. Well yeah..." I said corroborate.

We're regular calls, not video calls. Then Mbak Pipin told how the incident until Pram became critical.

After about 5 minutes we called, suddenly Pipin yelled.

I am glad to hear it, I thank God.

"Take mbak? Ara wants to see mbak, sorry Ara... " I want to switch to video calling but I'm not good.

But Pipin immediately switched to a video call and I immediately received it.

"Mom, you better call the doctor." I said. But Pram forbid with a headband.

I saw Pram open his eyes.

" fra... Just sec... I'll look at Pram." Then the video display was changed so that Pram and Mbak Pipin could see each other.

"Pram's... You see who this is... Come on my dear spirit... Me and Ara really hope you're cured." Mbak Pipin.

I looked into Pram's eyes. I met with Pram. I just cried speechless...

Pram looked at me weakly and shook his head as if to tell me not to cry. I can only cry. We are speechless but it is as if our hearts are speaking.

I know, Pram would hate to see me cry. Pram wants to see me always smiling and happy.

"I'm sorry Ar...." Those words finally came out of Pram's mouth." I cried and I saw that Pipin was crying.

"I want you to hang on and try to heal Pram, I beg you..." I finally voiced out what my heart said.

Pram shook his head and took a deep breath...

"Pins...I'm sorry yaa... "Say Pram in a weak voice.

"Pa... Papa has to be strong, Papa's dear mother, the children's mother still needs Papa." Ma'am Pipin crying.

" Please take care of the kids.." Said Pram while closing his eyes.

"Papa's strong... Papa's strong... " Pipin said while crying.

" Mr Pin, please call your doctor... Prams.... I. i.... " I cried and could not continue my words.

Pram looked at me and smiled....I could not continue my words, I looked at Pram with a pleading gaze.

Then Pipin shouted to the nurse.

"Pram.. don't leave me Pram...." Shouted Pipin.

I don't see Pram anymore even though the video call is still alive. I just heard the sound. Maybe because the phone camera is not right in the direction.

Last I heard Pipin's voice yelling for Pram's name.

I feel empty.... I've lost him.... I was sitting limply against the wall of my room. My tears are rushing, my chest is hurting, it hurts a lot.

"I love you Pram .... You're Pram's good man...." I said in my heart.

I cried like a child who lost a toy.