My Love is Wrong

The shadow of Pram starts to come often

The night was getting late, I closed the books I had read. I've done the tasks I've done. Then I put my body on the bed. I'm trying to sleep.

Half an hour passed, my eyes could not be closed. Mind everywhere.

"Huh.kok I can not sleep ya.." murmured me while rubbing my eyes.

For a few days I remembered Pram. Pram's shadow often appears when I'm alone. Especially if I see Pram-given edelweiss flowers, Pram shadow containers immediately appear. What is this feeling, why is his shadow always haunting me.

I got out of my bed, sat back down at my desk. I picked up the diary I kept in the desk drawer. I opened my diary, and I found a photo of Pram. I smiled at the photo of Pram.

I wondered in my heart. "How are you doing Pram now? why disappear???"

It's been about 6 months since class breakup at Wiwin's house, I don't know about Pram. I wish there was a letter telling me. But it turns out there isn't. I never gave an address to Pram. So why do I wish there was a letter from Pram?

I don't know why since Pram gave me photos and flowers, there's hope in my heart. But Pram never said anything either. I often get attention from him but not too much.

Questions playing in my mind.

"Ah... Never mind, I can't sleep thinking about it. I was hoping about Pram but I never paid more attention to Pram myself." My inner self.

I went back to my bed, holding a photo of Pram. I tried to break my body again because I saw the clock on the wall of my room already showing at 1 am.

I still hope that one day Pram will send me a letter. I keep playing with my own mind. Until I finally fell asleep.

the tomorrow...

The next day, I woke up bad. I hurriedly took a shower and kept getting ready to go to college.

"Alhamdulillah..," my mind.

I watched my lecturer's explanation well. If the lecture I always take a seat in front of the end, sometimes the left end sometimes the right end.

Almost 2 hours passed finally the lecturer ended his lecture. Then we rest for a while.

"Hi Ara... Why was it so late?" Amir greeted me and sat down next to me. Amir gave me some candy.

I took 1 piece of candy. "Yaa Mir, I can't sleep. I slept till 2."

Amir laughing.. "Why can't I sleep, why do I keep going?"

I'm laughing a little.. "He he.. You are GR really Mir, I am nyicil college assignments yesterday . I'm afraid I'm piled up, I'm overwhelmed and dizzy myself."

Amir laughed and still teased me. " You don't have to be ashamed, I know how you love my face until you can't sleep. Not much of a reason..."

I'm starting to sprain," Whatever you have Mir, the important thing is that I never think of you, let alone love your face. Hm..."

"By the way Ar, the task of Accounting management has not been done yet," asked Amir.

"Not yet to run Mir, there's something I don't understand yet" I replied.

Then Amir and I started a discussion on Accounting Management. About 20 minutes & the next lecture begins again.