My Love is Wrong

I've made peace with the situation

The night is getting late... My husband is still sitting in front of me.

"Ma... Maafin Papa's. Papa was in a hurry to get married again. Earlier on the way home to pick up the kids, Papa thought with Arjun's attitude and his threats. There was a woman smiling like that, Arjun was angry with his side especially if he knew Papa was married again. And honestly ma, your cold attitude for Papa is afraid that later mama leaves Papa. But in addition, Papa feels guilty because of the attitude of Mama who still respects Papa and still teaches children to stay homat to Papa. Ma ... Sorry Papa ." My husband said at length.

I tried to wipe my tears.

"I've been sincere to all the destiny of God to me. Whatever Papa wants to do, please do it and Mama will approve."

My husband shook his head and then ruffled his hair.

"Pa... I want to be honest with Papa. There is one thing in my mother's heart. Honestly Pa, Mama was very disappointed when Papa said that Papa would marry again just because Mama could not serve Papa. Mama was sad and realized that Papa did not really love her. Just because Mama was sick and could not do the obligation as a wife, Papa already wanted to find a wife again. Is that how you love and love your mom? Mom finally realized, yeah.... Just so much Papa's love for mama... " I said and I don't cry anymore.

I'm glad I told you my feelings were stuck. My disappointment, my sense of weakness and needlessness just because I couldn't serve him.

"Sorry Papa.... Please forgive me Papa." My husband said grab my hand and hold it.

"Pa... Mama forgave Papa long before Papa apologized. My mother made peace with the situation. Mama is self-conscious, aware of my weakness. That's why when Papa said he wanted to get married again, Mama wasn't angry. Though my mother's heart is in revolt, it doesn't take it."

"Ma... Maafin Papa's... Oh my God, I have God's fault... Ma's... Please see Papa. Papa is very dear Mama, Papa Khilaf Ma... "

I don't want to look at my husband.

" Hmmm it's Pa... Everything has already walked. Mama's okay. Continue with Papa's plan, because it won't change things. Mama is not a wife who can meet the needs of Papa as a whole. My sincere mother." I said and then laid my body to sleep.

"Ma... I have to how? Papa's confused..."

I just kept quiet. Soon my husband came out of my room and headed to his study.

I don't know what my husband did. But half an hour later, my husband came back into my room. But I pretended to be asleep.

"Ma... Papa has decided. Please beat up Papa." My husband said as he stroked my hair.

"Ma... Papa knows mom's not sleeping. Papa just called Lily. Papa talked about the wedding plan. Papa told Lily that Papa could not continue the wedding plan. Papa told me about the attitude of Arjun and Aldi about the incident in Lesehan. Ma's... Papa's gonna consider canceling the wedding plans, Ma."

My husband kissed my hair, then slept behind me and hugged me.

"Sorry Papa Ya Ma.... Tomorrow Papa will meet Lily and talk about this. I'm sorry Papa hurt your feelings. Ma'am..." My husband said and turned my body.

We faced, I looked at my husband's face but I closed my eyes afterwards.

"I love you Ma... I love my family. I will defend the integrity of our household. " Said my husband and hugged me. But I just kept quiet.

I don't know if I'm happy with my husband's words or not. Because I know it's not that easy that my husband will cancel his wedding plans.