My Love is Wrong

The hardest moments of Ara

I'm going to the library this morning, because I didn't go to the library yesterday.

I am calmer than I was yesterday. Last night I thought about everything. Yesterday I decided that my relationship with Good was over.

I won't ask for an explanation to Bagus, because I've seen for myself how happy Good is boning with a girl I don't know. But the way their friendly bond has answered that their relationship is not just a friend. I don't need an explanation.

My relationship with Good has only been going for about 7 months. Well, I thank God because I was shown what Good behavior really looks like.

"Ara... Do you want to go to college today?" Mom's voice broke my mind.

"Ara wants to go to the library ma, want to find books that can add insight and reference Ara. Next week Ara will have her thesis exam ma. Doain Ara ya ma..."

Mama looked at. "Yes my son.mama always pray for your success dear... But you're calm now, aren't you...?"

I hugged my mom. " Ara dear mama, makasi ma.. always doain Ara yaa ma.." I cried in my mom's arms.

Mama wiped my tears, then stroked my hair.

"Mama believes and believes mama's son is strong. Ara, you have many advantages that no one else has, Good will regret his actions to you. Patience, dear..."

I cried again, remember the Good deed that hurt my heart so much.

Mama wiped my tears. "Ara, don't cry anymore, your eyes will look swollen. Now you're ready to go to the library.'

I nodded and wiped my tears.

"You're just busy yourself by preparing for the thesis exam, I'm sure Ara can get through this."

I'm nodding. Then I got ready to go to the library.

It's hard to start a new life. Yesterday it was good that filled my days. The pseudo-happiness that Good gives is over yesterday.

Arriving at the library I immediately looked for books that fit my script. I picked up 3 books, and searched the reading room for a place.

"Hi Ara.. How are you?" I turned towards the voice, it turned out that Vishnu greeted me in a soft voice.

I smile. " Good Wis," I answered briefly.

Vishnu looked into my eyes. Maybe my eyes still look puffy and a little swollen.

"b... You all right?" Vishnu looked worried

"Later, we will go home together" whispered Vishnu.

I nodded and continued reading.

I noted the important pont-points on the small paper. After I thought enough, I returned the books I had read. I borrowed some books to read at home.

"Vishnu, we go home yuk. I'm done. You how?? "

"Yes, I'm done with that, too."

"Ara, let's go home and find some meatballs... I haven't had breakfast yet" Vishnu said.

"Yes Wis, I was also in a hurry so I didn't have time for breakfast."

Vishnu invited me to stop by Bakso Barokah, which is famous for its delicious meatballs.."

We ate the meatballs that were served, only I wasn't very tasteful. My mind is still fucked.

" You why Ar? I saw that you had no appetite for meat. Not good enough meat?"

I held the speaker of Vishnu. "It's not so wise.. I like the meatballs. The pentol is delicious."

"Keep you why like not cheerful Ar... What's the matter?"

I just shook my head, "There's no Wis... I'm just not feeling well,"

Vishnu spent his meatballs.Seems like Vishnu is really hungry.

"Ara, when did you get your thesis exam?"

"I've seen the schedule, Monday Wis. Doain yaa smoga all smooth."

"Yeah must be good... You're smart." Vishnu said while looking at me.

I smiled..." Wis's translation.."

I hope that my script exam will be smooth tomorrow, I don't want Good to affect my exam.

I have to be strong and I have to get through this.