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Nothing is perfect in this life. A perfectly structured plan remains flawed. A life that he said was perfect must have dissatisfaction. The perfect plan is God's plan. Although often not understood. Although often questioned. Don't understand and don't question. Just accept. Because according to God it is perfect. God will not make you lost. Just trust that.

A loud and loud voice woke me from sleep. I opened my eyes slowly. Why is it so noisy in the UKS? I asked in my heart. I raised my head and looked at the room I was in right now.

Wait for. This is not UKS. Then where am I? Did someone move me? I looked at the blackboard, the teacher's desk, the closet, the door in turn. I'm getting my forehead wrinkled. This is my class in XI. Why am I here? I saw one by one my classmates. Aye right. They were my classmates in the XI class. None of them were my classmates in X class. Class determination is indeed changed every class increase. I saw Alif, Malik, May, and Ami. Where is the Son? What year and what month is it now? Did I come back when he left us? It happened in Class XI. Did I go back to the time when she was no more?

I still looked at my friends one by one with a look of disbelief. I only slept in the UKS this afternoon because my head hurt so much. Now, am I here? Wait for. My head doesn't hurt anymore. Doesn't hurt at all.

“Udah wake up, Ra? Well-witted the time you slept,” said Anisa. She was the boyfriend of Son back in High School.

“Hah?Ra's? You're just me?”ask me to Anisa who is next to my desk.

“It is, who else. It's just that you're Aira here,” he replied.

Wait for. I'm not Ami? Am I being myself now? I immediately turned my eyes to Ami who was busy chatting with Malik and May.

“Mi,”call me to Ami who is at Malik and Putra's desk. Son and Malik are my friends and are separated by only one table from my desk.

“Napa, Ra?”ask Ami.

“You Ami?”I'm not sure.

“It. Strange times you. Who else is it?”the answer.

“While times you, Ra. Wash your face there. Not yet aware of your lecture,”allot Anisa.

I'm not replying to Anisa anymore. I ran towards the school toilet which was not too far away with my class. I washed my face and saw the fullbody glass in the corner of the toilet. I looked at my face in disbelief. I'm back to being Aira. Black hair as my back tampa bangs that I pigtail one. The black jacket I wear to school. Chubby cheeks and a body that remains short, 158 cm. And not getting any higher. I'm still 158cm in the future. Did God grant my prayers? But I don't know what month I'm back. I could've gone back to the moon she's gone. I grabbed my skirt pocket and no cell phone. There is nothing in my jacket pocket either. I must have kept it in the bag. I have to go back to class.

I ran to class. When I got to class, I checked the calendar. October 3, 2009. I breathed a sigh of relief. I went back to when he was still here. He hasn't left us. I looked at his desk, but he wasn't there. The one sitting there is May.

“Silk, where?”ask me to Malik while turning my body towards them, but I am still sitting in my seat.

“No idea,”Answer Malik.

“You know, May?”ask me to May.

“No also,”answered May.

I turned my body back forward. I took the notebook out of my bag. I'm starting to conclude what's happening to me now. At first I was in the UKS because my head hurt. Then, I fell asleep and prayed I wanted to spend my time as Aira here with him. Even if only for a moment. Then, I am now in XI grade and he is still alive as well. The sign is that God has granted my prayers. Since the Lord has granted it, I must enjoy myself with him before I return to the future. Heh. How can I spend my time with him? What should I do, huh?

“Oi, Son. Where have you been?”That's Malik's voice. The son is here. I stopped writing the agenda of what I wanted to do with him and looked at him. He also looked at me for a moment, then walked towards his desk.

“Meet the scout earlier,”he replied while sitting in his chair. May is no longer there. He sat back next to me. Me and May are sitting in this XI class.

Son, Malik, and Alif were busy chatting. What they are saying. The other children were also busy chatting and some were playing guitar. It's so fucked up this class. Noisy. I bit the tip of the pen I was using to write. I'm thinking and weighing. The habit of biting the tip of the pen has not been able to stop even now. I put the pen on the table and turned my body to face the table of Son and Malik.

“Heh, Son. Want to walk? Later after school,”tanyaku to Putra. My hands are cold and my heart is beating. This time I took a street guy. Even though it was Son, I was still groggy.

Suddenly the class became quiet. They all stopped doing their activities and looked at me. Why does time stop? The son who was chatting also stopped. His face looked very surprised at my invitation.

“Loh, how quiet?”many confused. Is my voice too loud? Can everybody hear it? Finish your story, son.

“Please follow,”ucap Wawan.

Everyone went back to their activities, but whispered. There was no such commotion. I saw the Son asking for an answer while raising my chin slightly.

“I have futsal training back home school,”he replied.

I exhaled my small breath sign I was disappointed with the answer. I bowed my head and looked at my shoes. I was considering accompanying him to futsal practice, but it would definitely be awkward. I'm not familiar with his futsal friends. But I don't have much time here.

“With practice how?”tanyakanya.

I lifted my head and looked at him. I'm speechless.

“Where? Want no?”continued.

“OK,”my reply with a smile. He also returned my smile.

I don't think he's gonna want that. I turned my body forward. I feel like I'm being looked at by someone. I looked to my left side. May was looking at me in wonder.

“Why?”many wonder.

“Yet you don't want to talk to him. Now you take the road,” answered May.

I frowned at me. “I didn't say why?”my many.

“How to. You don't tell stories. Anyway after you two chat last week, you're enemies to him,” explained May. “Si Putra also did not tell me why,”more.

I must be mad that Son told me he didn't like May. I'm mad at him. It was supposed to happen in XI, not X. The sign is, I didn't change anything. I can't change what happened. I came back just to keep his promise.

“Cok didn't you answer?”ask May.

“May... I like my Son,”I replied.

May remained silent. He took his eyes off me. Then, take the textbook that was in his bag. He did nothing and just looked at the book he had placed on the table. I was quiet too and still looking at him.

“I know,”reply without taking his eyes off the book.

“You know?”I just don't believe it.

“Let's just the story. Bu Lala has entered,”ucapnya.

I don't reply to him anymore. One by one, everything was clear. May already knew I liked Son, but didn't say anything until that night. He also knew the girl that Putra liked, but did not tell me. He knew it long ago. But he just kept quiet. I can't make my own conclusions. I have to listen to the reason later. Sometimes, people you think don't know everything understand everything. Then pretend like you know better than him.

*****

I sat on the porch of my class looking at the blue sky. It's beautiful sky today. Blue once, just a little cloud there. Sometimes the light disturbs my vision, but I still like it. Sometimes it hurts my eyes, but I like it. I raised my right hand forward, feeling the sunlight in my hand. I do it often. Without realizing it, I smiled.

“Beauty yes sky?”ask the Son and sit beside me.

My son returned my smile. He also raised his right hand and felt the light of the sun. She smiles. She's. I kept looking at her as if this was the last day I would see her. Admire every expression he shows. It's so beautiful this guy.

“So where are we going now?”ask Putra.

“Loh, will finish the training go. You're not training?”askaku.

“Ngak. I'm sorry,”answere.

“Why?”

“Liar can take longer,”answered. “Ayok, where are we going? At 5 o'clock you have to go home. Otherwise you'll get upset later,”next.

Ah yes it is. I have to go home later. If the return is long, I can be homelin. “Umm where are you? Where do you want to go?”askaku.

“I? How new road?”

The new street is where young people hang out in my area. “Malas ah to it. Many,” I answer put on a face not like.

“Hm where it was going. Dikasih tau even do not like,”replynya while putting on an upset face.

“Hehe. To the hill teletubies would you like?”my many.

“Bby. I also want to go there, ” replied Putra. “Yuk, leave now,”next. He went into class to pick up his bag and also my bag. Then we walked to the school parking lot. Spending time with her as Aira begins. I will cherish every second I spend with him.

*****

The teletubies hill is not too far from the school. It only took us 15 minutes to get there. The weather is not as hot as it was. The weather is suitable for a picnic. Teletubies hill is a small hill in my place filled with fine grass like a mountain where teletubies live. So, this hill is actually a meadow. Usually many people come here for a picnic or just to spend time. But today there are not many people. I can even count them with my fingers.

The son took off his jacket and put it on the grass. “Sit here aja,”he said. We also sat on the right corner of the hill. I took off my bag and put it on the grass. Son too. He took out a plastic bag from his bag.

“Nih, snack. I bought it in the cafeteria.”

“What's it like?” my many. I took out one by one the contents of the plastic bag.

“Create, chips, sucro, tik-tik, bread, aqua, arab nuts?”

“Hahaha. Peanuts should not pass, ” he said while laughing happy to see my expression that was upset because he also bought arab nuts. He's taunting me.

“You seem to like it the same time ya arabic nuts. Wonder me,”my reply while putting the snacks back into plastic.

“Iya. Favorite snack from the past,”balasnya.

No test yet? Only test. “Terus why do you call me chickpea? Because like?”I asked while looking into his eyes.

He looked back into my eyes. Then, he picked up his bag and placed it over his head. He's collapsed. “Umm I thought first. Whether I like it or not, I answered while looking up at the sky.

“Nyebelin really,”balasku shriveled, but he can still hear it. He nodded to hear me grumble. I looked at the blue sky. This time, many clouds accompanied him. I'm glad the sky has so many friends now. I'm happy now too. I closed my eyes and felt a gust of wind on my face. Thank you Lord. I happy. I said in my heart.

“I'm also happy,”ucap Son suddenly.

“Hah?”reply wonder. The feeling I speak in my heart.

“You look happy today. Many smiles. I'm also happy, and I'm still looking at me with a smile. He also looks happy.

“You're happy to see me happy?”my many.

“Iya. You didn't want to talk to me from last week. Your eyes are always ugly when you look at me. That's why it's a wonder you took the road. I'm just surprised,”the reply is long. He straightened his body and sat next to me.

“Why am I angry?”my many.

“Yes because I said I didn't like May as you,”.

Right guess. I must have been angry because it was the only reason that made us hostile. “Keep why am I so good?”manya tease him.

“Yes where I'm going. Strange times you,”he replied annoyed.

I laughed when I saw his face bent. “Lucunyaaaa,”kataku while pressing both cheeks with my middle finger and thumb.

She puffed her cheeks pretending not to like. Aih, what a funny guy this is. I let go of my hand and looked into his eyes. “I can't make you like it, right? If you don't like it, yes. We can't manage to like anyone. You're not wrong. Sorry my attitude is like a child,”. I sincerely apologize for forcing her to like people she dislikes. “I'm sorry for interfering too much in your personal life. Though it's your right to like anyone,”.

He looked at me in surprise for a moment, then smiled. He might wonder the stubborn Aira why it is so gentle and feel sorry like this. More understanding. “So, we're better?”tanyakanya.

“Iya,”I replied with a smile.

“You won't mate with me again May, right?”ask again.

“Iyaaa. Not going,”amakuku. “I'm sorry for my old attitude, Son,”continue me in my heart.

“Okeeeee. Gini doong from a long time ago,”replynya while taking arab nuts in plastic and eat it.

“The arabic is delicious. Eat,”them. Why is he suddenly so happy?

I took the arab nuts he opened and ate them. He was still smiling while eating those chickpeas. “You happy?”my many.

“Iya. I'm happy,”he replied.

“I'm also happy to see you happy,”I reply with a happy smile. Yes, I'm happy.

“If so... You should smile often,”take it while stroking my hair.

“Because I'm happy?”

“Iya, because you're happy.”

Alright. I will smile often. I will smile often in the future. Because I want to see you happy too. Will this happen if I'm not stubborn and if we're honest with each other? This should have happened while I was still able to see you freely, right? But it's okay. Look, I'm happy. Thank you for being the reason for your happiness.