Go home
He Who Can't Leave
Renjana Kanya's
By midnight, we were home. Eka's father looked anxious as he opened the door for us. Moreover, the heavy rain had not subsided when we arrived home. The rain since entering Lamongan Regency made us have to lower the speed of the car and slightly hamper the trip. That's why we arrived late at night when we arrived.
"Night, Om. How's things going?" greet Araz while greeting Eka's father when opening the door.
The man smiled. "good. How are you doing yourself? Successful launch of the media?"
"Yes, Om. Thanks to the prayers and support of many."
"Mas Araz, talk to Daddy first huh. I made something warm," I said, turning Araz's focus on talking to Eka's father.
"Yes Kanya, make something for Araz. Let Daddy talk to him first."
The conversation of the two men across generations looks familiar. I smiled before leaving them for the kitchen. It seems like a glass of chocolate can drive away the cold and tired during a mixed trip. Maybe a bowl of instant noodles soup is also able to tame the worms who are angry in the stomach.
When in Omah Kayoe, we talked more with Mas Miko and Mbak Rinjani to forget about dinner. Be we skip dinner and just stuff it with snacks.
"God! Why the hell lo diem pecking at the dining table that!"
I cried out hysterically when I saw the Son sitting on the dining table chair. The dining room lights were deliberately turned off.
"I can't sleep. You just got home?"
"Yes, it rained from Lamongan. That's why the road is slow."
"Not stopping by anywhere, is it?"
I turned towards the lowered Son while stirring the hot chocolate in his glass. His face looks bad. Is he jealous now?
"Not a child, either. Why do you have to report if you stop by somewhere else first?" my question ignited the man's anger.
"Gue asked because he cares about you" he said with an emphasis. Even the me-you he used changed to me-lo which indicates the more he's not okay.
I don't know what's bothering her mind. What is clear since knowing Araz will pick me back in Jakarta, the mood of the man quickly changed. He might be jealous, but I don't want to worry about it. We have both decided not to engage in any form of past romance. If in the end he who is burning jealous alone, I can not comment.
"But your caring attitude is not where it is now" I said no less firmly. The son rose from his seat and stepped near me who was boiling water.
"So my caring attitude should be what it looks like?"
My son was standing right in front of me. The distance between us was only one inch away. I could even feel his breath hunting.
"Why, are you afraid your boyfriend is angry?" Challenge the Son to squeeze my body with a wall. There is no distance between us.
"Son, we have agreed yes. Don't worry about gini dong!"
I pushed the Son's body away from me. However, the man still insisted on standing in front of me. Without shifting a bit.
"Satan equals deal. You bring him here without thinking about how I feel. You think I can just as sincerely accept the annoying reality of a gini?"
Mouth's tight. Son is really jealous of Araz. I know very well how the man behaves when he is blinded by jealousy. And, his attitude this time was no joke.
"Son, you're drunk?"
"Yes, you made me drunk!" he said while tilting the corner of his lips.
"Gue doesn't understand the same way of your mind. We have a deal. You decided to end it all. You have to accept the consequences of your own choices. Don't think of gini dong!"
"It's getting better at saying yes now. So I don't mean to you anymore?"
Mouth's tight. Ever since my son and I made a deal to step up with our respective stories, I have as much as possible closed the obsolete pages. There's Araz I have to take care of his feelings. Maybe I haven't fully loved that man yet, but 75 out of 100 percent, I've had feelings of affection. And I'm sure it can be growing all the time. Because, with Araz, I learned to mature in attitude and determine how to move.
"Now, you're nothing more than a big brother to me. That's also what you decided from the beginning. I'm just asking you, son. Accept the consequences of the choices you have made. You can't keep believing this. It will only hurt a lot of people. Isn't that what you always emphasize me? Why is it like this now?"
A cynical smile expands from the lips of the Son. Without saying a word, he turned around to leave me. It left me with an increasingly violent gulp of fear behind my ribs. Body's limp. I fell on the kitchen floor.
Before long, Araz appeared with slightly sleepy eyes. It was obvious that his face was so tired. The tired face panicked when I saw me battering with tears streaming down my cheeks. He hunted me down and observed every part that was considered injured.
"You why? What's up?" Araz hunted me with a question I could only answer with a whim.
The man was panicking. He took me in his arms after previously turning off the burning stove.
"Oh, it's okay. Everything's fine. Everything's fine. It's been. Plis, don't cry Kanya. I don't want to see you cry. Already, plis. Don't cry, okay! Smile, Kanya. Like your smile that always makes the sun envious when you see it."
Entertain Araz while gently patting the back of my head. My crying is getting more and more. Being treated like that makes me weaker and demands comfort for longer. I actually stopped crying as Araz peeked at the top of my head and hugged tighter and tighter.
"Already, don't shed your tears more than this. I know it's not easy for you. Make you. Anyway you need time. The son also needs time to really sincerely accept this reality. It's been. Don't cry anymore. Yep. There's me. I'll keep that smile on your face. Okay, Honey? So keep smiling. I beg you," Pinta Araz still hugged me. No he let me take a centimeter out of his arms.
From behind her chest, my tears grew. My lips are smiling. Being in her arms makes me comfortable. I recovered with the magic spell he said. I recovered with the elixir they called the embrace of affection. And I was healed by a sentence I always wanted to remember.
"I love you, Kanya. Keep smiling my bidad. Don't let the cloud take that smile away from me."
