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Luka

I saw my watch. It's 5 in the afternoon. The online object I was riding stopped and I gave the payment as stated on the application. Here I am now. In front of this beloved office and have to overtime. I would love to watch my favorite Korean drama tonight. I was wondering who Luna really was. I also want to see Lee Min Ho oppa's face. So sad's.

After the surprise that Doctor Fani gave me, I helped her and Mona in the kitchen. I also know myself to help clean up. At least wash the dishes. At 2 p.m., I started interviewing Doctor Fani. Want to play guess no? Did the interview end soon or long?

Surprisingly, the interview is completed within an hour which usually takes 2 to 3 hours. He said because I'm on my birthday so his chatter was postponed first. Yes already. Old people too. Can't fight, right? Hopefully there won't be any interviews with Doctor Fani in the months ahead.

His interview was completed sooner, but Doctor Fani's story about his children and grandchildren was not completed until Ashar. The most frequently talked about stars. My favorite child. He said the Star has lived in London since graduating High School. He majored in medicine at one of the famous universities there until he got a specialist doctorate. He had no intention of living and working in Indonesia, but Doctor Fani persuaded him to work here. Actually it has been persuaded from previous years, but only succeeded this time. I didn't ask how to persuade him. It's none of my business, either. Afraid to say kepo and interfere.

The stars are older than me. He is 31 years old and not married. Doctor Fani always reminds him to seriously look for a companion, but is often overlooked. Mas Fadlan is 33 years old and unmarried. Should Mas Fadlan used to dong who thought? Aye, right? Star initially did not want to be a doctor and most anti-doctor, but the time of High School suddenly wanted to be a doctor. Until now Doctor Fani did not know the reason. Stars love fried rice and meatballs. He can even make his own meatballs. The star's favorite color is black. He doesn't like bright colors like red. He loves sports, especially football. He also often plays futsal with his friends on weekends. The star was initially a bit squishy, unfriendly, and quiet. If you already know the original will be as chatty as Doctor Fani. Stars love kids. That's the information I got from Doctor Fani. It's just a summary. The rest I forgot. Doctor Fani talks more about the Stars than I do about my interview questions today. I smiled a little considering how happy Doctor Fani was to talk about the Stars. He loved his son very much. Besides, where are there parents who do not love their children?

But, wait....., Doctor Fani has no intention of matching me with the Stars, right? Or with one of his children? I reflected on Doctor Fani's attitude towards me all this time and at home earlier. I slapped my cheek. Stop, Ra! It is the same oppa, not the same that can be spoken to directly. Aihh Doctor Fani was like that a long time ago, Ra. I love curhatin anything. He had not seen the stars for a long time, so dicurhatin. Baperan really you!

*****

I was writing an article from an interview with Dr. Fani earlier. I stretched my muscles for a moment. I feel tired looking at the computer. My shoulder is heavy too. I feel so tired today when I do not work much. I just wrote 3 articles this morning and did an interview with Doctor Fani.

A message stopped my muscle stretching. The office atmosphere is still a little crowded. There are a lot of overtime too. I opened the message.

*May:

What again? Vcall, yuk!

Me:

Again in this office. Cattle, maaan. If chat can.

May:

Dollar continues to be pursued. When's soul mate?

Me:

It's the same thing God does. The soul mate is not pursued yes but comes alone. Huu.

May:

Me:

Aaami. Not by yourself either. There was Ami and her husband. Haha

May:

That's Ami with her husband. Lah you?

Me:

Sharing is okay. At that party. Wkwkwk.

May:

Lebaran must be home, right? I deliberately ended the marriage a week later. Watch out if you don't go home!

Me:

Ja. Insha'allah.

May:

Goody!!! I am happy.

Me:

Didn't expect it. You want to get married. You used to love Fahri, Yudi, and Umar. Haha. In fact, it used to be serious with Umar.

May:

Gosh my. Everyone calls him ex. Not with the Son.

Me:

Ah yeah.... Son... But he's not an ex. He's gebetan hehe. But yes, yes. You liked her a lot before.

May:

Ja. And you're the matchmaker. It's clear he doesn't like me.

Me:

Don't like what? You guys are close first. He's closer to you than I am. From your story all along, she likes you.

May:

It is closer to Ami. Do you know why he is close to me?

Me:

Because he likes. What's again?

May:

Because...... he wants to know about you*.

I stopped typing when I read a message from May. This is really not funny. What does it mean Son wants to know about me. It's obvious that Putra likes May High School time. She brought May toast, martabak, sometimes taking May home as well. This kid must be joking.

*I:

It’s not funny at all, May. Just don't you.

May:

That’s the fact. When I said Son likes another girl, it's not a lie. When I said Son likes you, that's a fact*.

I'm getting a headache reading May's message. Just be right.

Me:

But you said you were joking. You said because I used to match you up so much that you said my son likes me.

May:

Actually not kidding. At that time, I promised him not to tell you. I didn't know what to do at the time. L like it. And he likes you. I want you to stop setting us up but I don't know how to say it. I’m so sorry. He loves you. That’s the fact.

I nodded my head which was suddenly dizzy. I also feel nauseous. I don't want to continue my writing. I just want to calm myself down at this time. Why did May just say it now? Why not just from the past? Why would I know? Why not just keep it? Am I not curious? Who is the woman that the Son likes? I want to know. Once I find out, why does it hurt so much? I should be happy, but I just want to cry.

 

*I'm writing an article from an interview with Dr. Fani. I stretched my muscles for a moment. I feel tired looking at the computer. My shoulder is heavy too. I feel so tired today when I do not work much. I just wrote 3 articles this morning and did an interview with Doctor Fani.

A message stopped my muscle stretching. The office atmosphere is still a little crowded. There are a lot of overtime too. I opened the message.

 

May:

What again? Vcall, yuk!

Me:

Again in this office. Cattle, maaan. If chat can.

May:

Dollar continues to be pursued. When's soul mate?

Me:

It's the same thing God does. The soul mate is not pursued yes but comes alone. Huu.

May:

Me:

Aaami. Not by yourself either. There was Ami and her husband. Haha

May:

That's Ami with her husband. Lah you?

Me:

Sharing is okay. At the party. Wkwkwk.

May:

Lebaran must be home, right? I deliberately ended the marriage a week later. Watch out if you don't go home!

Me:

Ja. Insha'allah.

May:

Goody!!! I am happy.

Me:

Didn't expect it. You want to get married. You used to love Fahri, Yudi, and Umar. Haha. In fact, it used to be serious with Umar.

May:

Gosh my. Everyone calls him ex. Not with the Son.

Me:

Ah yeah.... Son... But he's not an ex. He's gebetan hehe. But yes, yes. You liked her a lot before.

May:

Ja. And you're the matchmaker. It's clear he doesn't like me.

Me:

Don't like what? You guys are close first. He's closer to you than I am. From your story all along, she likes you.

May:

It is closer to Ami. Do you know why he is close to me?

Me:

Because he likes. What's again?

May:

Because.

I stopped typing when I read a message from May. This is really not funny. What does it mean Son wants to know about me. It's obvious that Putra likes May High School time. She brought May toast, martabak, sometimes taking May home as well. This kid must be joking.

Me:

It’s not funny at all, May. Just don't you.

May:

That’s the fact. When I said Son likes another girl, it's not a lie. When I said my son likes you, that's a fact.

I'm getting a headache reading May's message. Just be right.

Me:

But you said you were joking. You said because I used to match you up so much that you said my son likes me.

May:

Actually not kidding. At that time, I promised him not to tell you. I didn't know what to do at the time. L like it. And he likes you. I want you to stop setting us up but I don't know how to say it. I’m so sorry. He loves you. That’s the fact.

I nodded my head which was suddenly dizzy. I also feel nauseous. I don't want to continue my writing. I just want to calm myself down at this time. Why did May just say it now? Why not just from the past? Why would I know? Why not just keep it?Am I not curious? Who is the woman that the Son likes? I want to know. Once I find out, why does it hurt so much? I should be happy, but I just want to cry.

Me:

Why is this story now?

May:

Because I know you'll be fine if I tell you now. That was 10 years ago. It's time I told you.

Me:

Ja. I'm doing fine. Thanks for sharing the secret. It can't be changed either, can it?

I'm not okay. I want to blame something, but I don't know who to blame. May though? Ami's? The son? Or destiny? The universe didn't like my plans from long ago. I should have wanted to forget everything this year and start a new life, but I became stuck again in the past. Getting out is hard. I have to what now?

I'm cleaning my desk. I can't concentrate anymore. I gotta go home. I grabbed the bag that was in the desk drawer and left the office. I walked towards the bridge in front of the office holding back my tears.

I can't hold it anymore. I stopped and cried in the middle of the bridge. Thankfully, there were no people. I pulled over to the bridge and cried. There was no crying. Only tears can't stop. The streets are not crowded tonight. Just a couple of four-wheelers and two-wheelers there. The sky is not bright either. There are no stars and no moon. I really want to see it. I looked at the streetlights and vehicles that I thought were beautiful, like colorful stones in a colorless container. I tried to stop my crying by looking at the lights. In my heart I said:

That's why there are some secrets that don't have to be told. Because if we knew, we'd be sick and confused. I want to go back in time.

The night wind touched my shoulder-length hair. I don't know if he wants to calm me down, comfort me, or tell me to go home. Whatever the reason, I accepted it to dry my tears that could not stop flowing.

My phone rang indicating an incoming message. Message from May. I opened the message.

May:

And I know. you love him too. So much's. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.

I put my phone in my bag and got off this bridge. I need to sleep now. My head became more dizzy.

Can I go back in time, Lord? I.missed him. Every day. I.. pls*.

I'm not okay. I want to blame something, but I don't know who to blame. May though? Ami's? The son? Or destiny? The universe didn't like my plans from long ago. I should have wanted to forget everything this year and start a new life, but I became stuck again in the past. Getting out is hard. I have to what now?

I'm cleaning my desk. I can't concentrate anymore. I gotta go home. I grabbed the bag that was in the desk drawer and left the office. I walked towards the bridge in front of the office holding back my tears.

I can't hold it anymore. I stopped and cried in the middle of the bridge. Thankfully, there were no people. I pulled over to the bridge and cried. There was no crying. Only tears can't stop. The streets are not crowded tonight. Just a couple of four-wheelers and two-wheelers there. The sky is not bright either. There are no stars and no moon. I really want to see it. I looked at the streetlights and vehicles that I thought were beautiful, like colorful stones in a colorless container. I tried to stop my crying by looking at the lights. In my heart I said:

That's why there are some secrets that don't have to be told. Because if we knew, we'd be sick and confused. I want to go back in time.

The night wind touched my shoulder-length hair. I don't know if he wants to calm me down, comfort me, or tell me to go home. Whatever the reason, I accepted it to dry my tears that could not stop flowing.

My phone rang indicating an incoming message. Message from May. I opened the message.

May:

And I know. you love him too. So much's. I’m sorry. I’m really sorry.

I put my phone in my bag and got off this bridge. I need to sleep now. My head became more dizzy.

Can I go back in time, Lord? I.missed him. Every day. I. please.