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Who're You?

I was awakened by the sound of Azan. I opened my eyes, but did not budge from my position. I looked at the ceiling today. Day two, I said in my heart. I'm still thinking about the Star last night. I must be determined to heal. If there is no determination, I will not be healed. From today, reduce to think about the things that happened in the dream. Let it be a memory only and do not serve as an excuse to live. For the reason to live should be yourself. I need to appreciate and love myself more.

Being preoccupied with my own thoughts, I didn't realize the Star was already beside me.

“Eh, are you awake? Kirain is still slitting,”sapanya.

“Where are you?”I just ignored his statement.

“Mesjid,”answort.

“I also want to pray,”balasku.

“Later after me from masjid.”

“Oke.”

He checked the infusion hose before he left my room. He also smiled and patted my shoulder slowly. I remember what Doctor Fani said. He once said that the Star is responsible. He seems right. He is a good doctor and a good man. I could have fallen in love with her if I had met her first.

The star kept its promise. After he came home from the mosque, he helped me pray. We talked for a while. He also helped me eat breakfast. I wonder why the nurse here never felt surprised or surprised to see the stars in my room. It seems like it wasn't just once he did it.

“Doctor breakfast first. From earlier ngurusin me continue,”muhku. I feel bad about him. The problem is that he's not who I am. I just know he's Doctor Fani's son. That'sthat's all.

“Ya. I went to the canteen first,”returnya. He picked up a cell phone that was placed on a table near the sofa. Then he turned to face me. “If there is anything, push the nurse call button,”the message before leaving.

“Iya. Been there go.”

“Ishh was even expelled even though it had been guarded all night,” he said annoyed. He put both his hands on his waist. I realized that every time she felt upset, she always held her waist with both hands and her eyes would turn cold.

He was out of my room before I could return the favor. What would Doctor Fani think if she knew her son was taking care of me now? After thinking about it again, I was more worried about what he would say to me. His chatty nature will definitely appear again after seeing me. Hopefully it doesn't go down to the stars.

*****

The star wrapped up her yellow rice breakfast and ate it in my room. I asked him why he didn't have breakfast in the cafeteria. He said it was not good to eat alone. It looks like a single. I don't respond to him anymore. He'll switch the conversation anyway if I debate him. He ate his breakfast on the couch where he slept last night. When I remember, I wanted to ask her what happened to me.

“I can disturb you breakfast?”ask me in a sitting position on my bed.

He stopped the chewing for a moment and looked at me. “Bby. What's up?”

“What happened to me? I mean what's my disease?”ask me with curious and demanding eyes.

He looked at me for a moment, then drank the water that was on the table near the sofa. He cleared his throat, then looked back at me. “You had an accident, then a coma,”he replied.

I am still not satisfied with the answer. “Why can I crash?”ask me further.

“You can ask your parents later,”he replied.

Not helping at all. My once friendly face turned angry. I feel my pupils shrink. I want to put my frustration on him. What's wrong with the story?

“Tau didn't do it from earlier. Tell me if you don't want to be disturbed. Why here all night if so, my”kata vented my frustration. I no longer care about his status as my doctor.

“Kok you got mad?”tanyakanya. His eyes turned cold. He's upset too.

“Yeah elunya bummer. Like to switch the conversation,”I reply not too late sewot.

“Elu?”

“You,”I answered ketus.

He put his breakfast on the table. Ah, I'm so bad at interrupting her breakfast but, she sucks too. If answered according to the question I asked, there would be no angry and upset scene like this. He stood up from the sofa and walked towards me.

He folded his hands on his chest and stood beside my bed. “I'm afraid I'll give you the wrong info,”ucapnya.

I snorted lightly, then looked into his two eyes. “This isn't the first time you've taken care of me?”my many.

Quiet sec. “Iya,”answort.

“Ya. You must know and have heard from my parents what happened. Come onl. I would be sad and might cry if I heard it directly from my person, my”.

He pulled out a chair and sat down next to me. “OK. You had an accident while going to the office. You're waiting for an online motorcycle taxi on the side of the street in the alley of your rented house. Then, there's a car driving very fast and it hit you. Your head hit hard and suffered a western head injury. You've been in a coma for 10 days. Sometimes you can move your hand, but go back to the beginning. You're back in comma.” The stars told me about it while checking my facial features occasionally.

I don't really know what to react to. Knowing I was leaving for the office after that night, I instead fell asleep and was unconscious as I thought.

“I'm not fainting in the room?”

“That's what you remember?”tanyakanya.

“But my head hurt once the night before the accident. I fell asleep and I was in the past. I think I fainted in the room. Who hit me?”

“A drunk man and he died.”

“Died? Because of the accident?”my many. The star has not finished continuing its story.

“Not because of that, but alcohol overdose. His family is responsible. Those who pay all your medical expenses,” he replied.

“Continue, how am I doing now?”

“From the way you can already be upset, angry, and argue, you can already go home today.”

“Serious dong, Doc. I haven't even been able to walk on my own yet,”balasku sewot.

She laughs. “What's so funny? Dih,”ucapku.

“Your expression. You seem to have a hard time lying. Your facial sharpness is very easy to guess, “reply still with the remnants of laughter earlier.

“So, how am I doing, Star Doctor?”ask me and change my face to be more friendly.

He straightened his back and turned the look on his face seriously.

“Everything is normal. You only need a little therapy. 2 more days you can go home.”

“Alhamdulillah,”balasku. “You didn't practice today?”my many. It's 8 in the morning and he's still in my room.

“There, later at 9.30,”answerp.

I remembered something. I unconsciously leaned my body in front of him all of a sudden. The star looked surprised for a moment, but he instantly turned it to normal.

“Since when did you take care of me?”ask me enthusiastically, then change my position to the starting position.

He seemed to think for a moment. Why is this man always considering the answer he would give?

“Since the beginning,”his answer.

“Loh, why?”many wonder.

“I don't know either,”he replied.

He stood up from his chair, and returned the chair back to the side of the table not far from my bed. He saw the wall clock. “I have to go back to the room first. Want to get ready for practice,”ucapnya. He rubbed his neck for a while and the look on his face turned cold and stiff. He's groggy again?

“OK,”balasku. “Thank you so much for everything,”follow me.

“It’s okay. You rest first. Your parents are coming too.”

“Let's rest,”I'm tired.

“Loh, you still have to rest even though you have come home. Let it recover quickly. Don't want?”

“Iya, yes.”

He smiled and patted me gently on the shoulder before leaving my room. He stopped at the door and turned to face me. “Oh yes. Mama wants to cool you down today,”.

“OK,”balasku.

“You're ready,”next.

“Prepared for what?”many confused.

“Pokonya get ready,”his answer. Then, he left my room.

What the hell is a kid? So strange. It's never clear, by the way. I grumbled for a moment as he closed the door. Talking to the Stars instead makes the head light, but becomes heavy. He likes to go around like mas odong-odong when chatting. Always consider what he wants to say. Between fear of hurting the person or just not wanting to interfere more deeply with the problems faced by the person. He probably won't hesitate to leave in the middle of the conversation. He also seemed to want to ask a lot of things, but he held it back. Feeling inappropriate or the timing is not right. Be that as it may. He seems very careful in his actions.

*****

About 1 hour after Bintang left, my parents came to the hospital. I was so happy and at the same time guilty to see them. I am happy to still be able to meet them. I am sad to have to meet such a situation. We haven't met for a year. Years ago, my parents and my only brother, Ken, came to see me in Depok. We were supposed to be in good health this year. But life is unpredictable, right? Because the universe has a plan.

“How? Is anyone sick again?” That was my mother's first sentence.

“Healthy life. His head also does not hurt any more times, I answered using a Medan accent.

“Alhamdulillah,”return my mother.

“How are your feet? Still not strong on the road?”ask dad. My parents are at my side now. While I was sitting on the bed. Not good to sleep on, even though I like to fall first.

“Still not too strong road. Must be therapy first about 2 days said the doctor,”abutku.

“Si Stars?”ask mom.

“Iya. He's my doctor, Ma,”.

“Ohh,”return my mother is short. He picked up the orange they had brought, then peeled it. Mom gave it to me.

“Kok mama does not cry yes I like gini?”I asked my mother who walked to the sofa. Then, put my needs there packed in a sizable bag.

“You want me to cry apparently?”ask my mother back. Ah, my mom's a little prestige showing her feelings. My mother never even cried every time she drove me to the airport to go back to Depok.

“Udah nangis even your mama. After your mother and father came here already crying on the plane. Shut up father. Scolded by your mom and dad when I calm down,” replied dad.

My father is very humorous. He always seemed calm in the face of something heavy. But I know my father was worried too. It's just that he didn't show it for fear of making the people around him worry more.

“It was mama anuratin. He can still joke, people are worried. You were in the hospital unconscious. Worry mom,”bela my mom. He looked at my father sewot.

“You cry until the wonder of the people at the airport. They think I fucked you. Later guessed that person is like Tae Oh also me,”reply my father did not lose the sewot.

Gosh darn. Where did my dad watch The World of Married Couple? Don't tell me to watch Trans TV?

“That's your spectacle. Si Tae Oh same Da Kyung,”reply to my mother.

“Kok know the drama's father? Watch where?”manya curious.

“On TV there are. Your mother also watched the drama. Your mother first watched, so I watched,” replied my father.

“I didn't accidentally watch that. It turns out too. You also so follow the watch,”return my mother. “That's the story of the teachers at the school mama. I told you our neighbor's story was mama see,”follow my mother.

Oh my god, my mother. Why is the neighbor problem being carried around? I said in my heart. My mom doesn't really like watching TV. Even if watching TV, the show must be cooking or On the Spot. It was just a TV show my mom liked. My mom doesn't like watching soap operas. So, if my mother had already arrived to watch the drama, it was certain that the drama was good.

“Ihh, this mama. Where can I like that,”balasku.

“Iya. Bad times her husband. Abandoned his wife's son for the sake of the actor. I'm crazy I think her husband is. Still little children. I can't say the smallest one yet. Want to flush with her husband's hot water.”

Quibble. My mother has started a long story and is gossiping. Our neighbors have a similar story to the drama. Our neighbor always confided to my mother because he no longer knew who to confide in. He didn't want to make his mother worry too much. My mother was among the oldest in our neighborhood. Therefore, our neighbors often complained about their problems to the mother. I can only condemn it.

“It is,”my reply is short. I don't want to prolong this.

“Esay you don't have to hurry times yes if you want to marry,”reply my mother.

Lah. Am I the one on target?

“Although it's 27, don't immediately accept if someone is applying. Look at how the seeds weigh. If you find me like that Tae Oh, I can hit his family later. Ja. Gotta settle for those kumaki. Notah I hit her later mistress,”lap my mother fiery. My mom still can't seem to move on from the drama.

Actually, I believe my mother can do things like that. Mom is firm and her talk is always spicy. But everything my mother said was true. Mother never spoke softly coupled with a persuading tone to us. Mom always talks loud and to the point. Maybe because my mother was educated so hard a long time ago. But we know that my mother loves us.

My mother never spoiled us either. Since childhood, we have been taught to be independent. I've been helping mom with homework since Elementary School. My mother also told me to go to school by myself. In fact, my friends are often escorted and picked up by his parents. I used to feel like my mom didn't love us. In High School I realized, mom just wanted to make us independent. Because after I migrated to Java, I did not feel any trouble at all doing everything myself. There's a silver lining too.

“Mama same father also do not just say yes,”balasku.

“Kok so we? You're the one who's reckless. You're the one who wants to stay with that guy, not us. You're the one who should know better how the guy is,”reply my mom.

“Sok pretty the next time you get what I like,”balas my father.

This is my father? Instead of diaminin, his son even blasphemed gini.

“Aaamiin that's it, Dad. Why was I being insulted?”just pissed.

“Tau is your father. Though I already know he said it prayer.” My mother returned it.

I turned my eyes to Dad. He closed his eyes for a moment and closed both of his lips. Dad's holding himself back. I want to laugh to see it. My mom and dad like to argue like this. Not that couples often argue like this, huh?

“I'm the wrong one from earlier. Shut me up,” said father. Then he walked to the sofa. At first, Dad was next to my bed.

I laughed at this situation. I'm glad I can still joke with them. I actually knew they wanted to comfort me so I wouldn't be too sad and think about my situation. Mom and Dad could always read my eyes. Maybe my eyes show guilt for making them worry and have to take care of me like this.

“Btw, what school?”my many. Both my parents worked as teachers. Last year was my father's last year as the principal of one of the Junior High School there.

“Enjoy. Licensed on leave with his principal,” replied my father.

“How many days are you given?”ask me further.

“Until you're healed. Don't think about it. I'm safe,”reply my father.

“How am I doing? Do you think my office is in the hospital again?”my many.

Ja. How about my job? I just remembered it now. I'm not fired, am I? I'm actually lazy to look for another office. I feel comfortable working there. I love his job and his staff. If I quit, I would like to continue my studies again. My parents wanted me to work as a teacher. I agree and like it too. But I don't know when I'll make it all happen.

“Aman, safe. The star who called your office and told me you were in the hospital,” my father replied.

“Star?”my many. Why didn't he tell?

“Yes, Star Doctor, who treated you,”return my mother.

“He also called dad. He said don't worry, he's handling you. He's also the one who took care of you before my mom and dad came, so follow my dad.

I frowned at me. How did he know my father's cell phone number? After last night, he didn't tell me everything. Though, he seemed to know everything better than my parents. What did you expect? He wouldn't have opened his mouth to tell a story if he hadn't been forced to. This time, he had to tell me everything.

“Kok he can call dad? She knows the number?”ask me with eyes full of questions.

“Says know from your phone. He saw your phone contact,” said father.

Oh yeah, my phone. “Ma, where is my phone?”my many.

My mother searched for her bag and pulled my phone out of there. My phone's intact. Not cracked at all. I turned it on, then turned on the cellular data. Before long, notifications popped up like the pace of a train. A great deal. I was even confused as to which group to open first. There are also missed calls from friends from work, college, and High School. I'm guessing my college and high school friends would already know I'm in the hospital.

“You... same as the Star near?”ask mom. The journalist's soul had already begun to surface. Sometimes I think, Mother and Doctor Fani actually have almost similar characters. Shrewd and kepo. Maybe all mothers are like that. It was their way of showing that they cared and cared. Loh, Doctor Fani also loves me then?

I'm still busy with my phone. “Ngak. Just met once,”iksku. I'm still reading my office group messages. They're very worried about me. Almost every day someone asks me how I am. I also typed in a few sentences saying I was starting to get healthy. They already knew that I was conscious from the coma. I asked who told them I was conscious. The answer really aroused my curiosity. The star told them.

“But, how does he care when you are, huh?”ask my mother further. My mother still doesn't believe it.

“Kan, I'm the patient. Reasonable care,”balasku. I turned my eyes to my mother.

“But he takes care of you too. Every night again.”

I looked at my mother. The look on my face looks like a fool maybe now. I looked into my mother's eyes asking for honesty. “Not taken turns?”

“Ngak. He told mommy to sleep in your rented house. At first mom was the same father nolak, but he maksa,” replied my mother.

“Kirain your girlfriend loh,”reply my father.

I immediately denied it. “Hah? A boyfriend? No way.”

My father looked me in the eye.He was silent for a moment. Dad's probably analyzing my face. “Iya. It's not possible, too,”ucap my father.

I was surprised to hear my father's answer. I opened my mouth wide, indicating that I did not believe my father's words. I put on a hurt face and shook my head for a moment. I was kind of disappointed with my father.

“I mean, the Star can be even better. Uh, you mean,”ucap my father further.

I still put on a face of shock and disbelief. I put on a face pretending to cry. I put my left hand on my chest and squeezed my shirt. Then, I pretended to dry my tears with a blanket covering my legs.

“Tega You, Yah.” I said it like I was crying.

My mom and dad laughed at me acting like a hurt kid. It was great to hear their laughter back. I miss this kind of atmosphere too. We always joke around and make things dramatic and exaggerated. Even though we had complicated problems, dad always made it as a joke first. Just laugh first. That said.

Now I know why the Son always left me in that dream. He is my happiness, but my greatest happiness is spending time with my parents. He knew I would also feel sad leaving them too soon.

*****

This afternoon, I have a guest. Guess who the guest is? Yes, Doctor Fani and her husband. I was not surprised to have been told by the Star this morning. What surprised me was that my parents looked very familiar with Doctor Fani and Mr. Fauzi. Today was not the first day they met. Justright. Doctor Fani and Mr. Fauzi have visited me several times. I should be familiar with my parents.

Doctor Fani asked me about my situation and told me about another Content Writer who replaced me doing an interview with Doctor Fani. He also told me about his children and grandchildren who sent greetings to me. He said they were also worried after hearing I had an accident. I thanked them and thanked them for knowing them. Doctor Fauzi also expressed his pleasure because my condition had begun to improve.

After that, Doctor Fani and Mr. Fauzi had a conversation with my parents. I occasionally cram their conversations. I sat on my bed and looked at those who were talking on the sofa. This situation...Why does my heart feel warm? But I was scared too.

“Ra, last night The stars here take care of you, right? Chat what is it?”ask Doctor Fani.

Doctor Fani's question broke my daydream earlier. “Hah? Not talking about anything, Doc,”.

“He was quiet? Don't you talk?”ask Dr. Fani further.

“Not that, Doc. Stars talk, kok.” I fixed my answer.

“Well, chat what?”

Gosh darn. Why is Doctor Fani so scared? It is also natural that he. I looked at the sofa. Father, mother, and Mr. Fauzi are also waiting for my answer. They suddenly became mute and the room became silent. How is it quiet gini?

“About why I could be in a coma and treated, Doc,”I replied. I'm not lying. He did tell me about it last night.

“That's all?”ask Doctor Fani.

“Iya,”answort. I can't possibly say he helped me walk to the window and we looked up at the sky together.

“Stars are very worried about you, loh,”balas Doctor Fani.

“Iya, Doc. I know.”

“You know?”

“Umm know what yes, Doc?”

“Stars insist on being your doctor. Yang nanganin you are not the star originally.”

I put on a confused and stupid face for the second time. She's... Star. I lost my words. Why is he so mysterious? I have to ask him today. Must.

“Why.... why is he insistent, Doc?”tanyaku carefully.

My father and mother who had been busy chatting with Mr. Fauzi returned to silence.

“Star likes you same time. He did not want to answer when I asked too,” replied Doctor Fani relaxed. Not awkward at all to say. My parents are also in this room.

I, who was not drinking anything, coughed at the words of Doctor Fani. Waahh, Doctor Fani is really cool to give a conclusion. His son did not answer, how can he be concluded that he likes? His mother's question was not answered, what about my question later? There he'll shift the topic.

“Not to be shocked, Ra. Star of man too,” said Doctor Fani while giving me a glass of water.

The person being talked about appeared as well. He said hello, then greeted his parents. And my parents? He's carrying something, it looks like a snack. Apparently, donuts. He put it on the table in front of the sofa. Then, he walked towards me. I suddenly became awkward and misbehaved.

“Where is today?”tanyakanya. He was already beside me. This time he wears a creamy shirt with brown pants. Her hair is still neatly combed. Yes, he must be neat. He is a doctor.

“What's the way?”sewot.

“Loh, how fierce?”

“Ngot fierce. Usually also gini,”Iksawa. I avoided his gaze. I can't even look at my parents on the couch right now. They don't talk. I knew they were eavesdropping while pretending to eat the doughnuts that the Stars brought.

The stars are still looking at me. He seemed to be holding his smile. He knows I'm awkward now.

“You donut no?”ask her gently.

“Iya, can,”amu. I tried to control my voice to sound normal, but my efforts seemed to be in vain. My voice sounds like I'm angry. Why should he come? How can I behave normally after hearing Doctor Fani's words earlier. Yes, the stars like me.

The star walks to the table that is in front of the sofa and picks up 2 doughnuts. He gave one to me, the other to him. I didn't forget to thank him.

“When did Rara start therapy, Bin?”ask Mr. Fauzi.

“Tomorrow, Pa,”answer Stars.

I already knew. Dad told me. Last time, Bintang went to see my father and reported my situation. I was so happy to hear I was going to start therapy. That's a sign I'll be able to walk again soon. A day or two will also allow me to walk normally again.

“You've had lunch?” It was my mother who asked the stars.

“Udah, Nantulang,”answer.

“Nooking?”my ul.

So, Nantulang means Bibi in Indonesian. Can be interpreted as ‘Tante’ as well. However, Nantulang is also interpreted as ‘mama-in-law’. The sons-in-law will call his mother-in-law Nantulang and his father-in-law Bones.

“Iya. Loh why? You mind?”tanyakanya. He made his face look as smooth as possible and pretended to be confused. I know he must have known what it meant.

I squinted my eyes. “You know what it doesn't mean?”my many. My voice has gone up.

He looked at me for a moment with his cold eyes. Then, he grabbed the tissue that was on the table beside my bed with his long hands.

“You're so ugly. There is chocolate,” he said while cleaning the chocolate that was around my mouth. See. He switched the conversation again. My eyes accidentally collided with the eyes of the parents who were on the sofa. It was like watching a drama live.

I grabbed a tissue from his hand. My face was already flushed from enduring the embarrassment. Why is he so good? “Sini, I'm a clean girl, my”kata is still with a pretty loud tone of voice.

He straightened his body again, but he was still looking at me who was cleaning my mouth.

“I know,”he said.

“What?”

“I know what it means.”

I stared at his face sharply, but a look of confusion was also visible there. A lot of questions popping up in my head. I wanted to ask her further, but I wanted to talk about it alone.

The voices of my parents and my parents are no longer heard. They seemed to understand the tension between us.

“You like Rara, Bin?”doctor Fani asked suddenly.

The stars were silent, but his eyes were staring into my eyes. I challenged him. I also looked into his eyes. I want to say not to play games with me and to be more careful to answer.

The star then turned his gaze to the sofa, the place where my parents and my parents were. He was silent, then smiling. I have a bad feeling.

“Iya, Mother. Stars like Aira,”he replied.

Doctor Fani and Mr. Fauzi seemed very happy to hear it. They even smiled at the stars' answers. But my parents were a little bit in disbelief because someone confessed their feelings to their daughter, especially my father. Don't ask me how I feel. I was shocked and confused. I just came to my senses and had to deal with this kind of situation. How should I respond to it?

“Don't joke you.” I'm trying to fix this.

He's not looking at me. The next sentence was able to make me want to throw the pillow that was on my lap at him.

“I am Serious Bone, Steady. I love Aira and I don't mean to mess around. I intend to apply for it.”

Lamar's? I don't even know his full name. He also doesn't know much about me. And vice versa. What if for example I am not what he thinks and expects? I don't even know what his life is like. He also did not know about my vision, my dreams, and also. My heart is not healed. He can accept that?

He should have talked to me first. How can I live with her mysterious? He also kept a lot of secrets. I know it. I'm massaging my temples. I'll reject it.

My eyes collided with my mother's. He seemed very happy to hear the words of the stars. My mom even gave me her thumb. I know, he'll definitely agree. The star is his dream daughter-in-law. Who wouldn't love a handsome, intelligent son-in-law and a doctor? According to my mother, she must be a good figure. My mom doesn't know that her dream daughter-in-law is unpredictable, secretive, distracts, and annoying. Even so, I must say that he is indeed very responsible.

Even so, I must reject it.