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Scenario Almira

The weather was so bright today. The sky was blue accompanied by several clouds. These clouds form themselves according to human guesses. Comforting people and accompanying them so that they do not feel lonely. However, some people still feel lonely. Because what treats it is a soothing voice, a softening face, and a warming grip. Not the warmth of the sun, the calm caress of the wind, and the beauty of the sky.

To me, looking up at the sky and enjoying the warmth of the sun is like I am communicating with it. I want to say I live well and I'm fine. Now, I can tell him directly. However, he would definitely be confused and astonished because all he knew I was Ami. Nor would he believe me if I said I came from the future. When can I say it directly?

I walked to class after parking the bike in the back yard of the school. Today I woke up late because I was too busy watching my favorite Taiwanese drama, At the Dolphin Bay. The drama was at midnight. Of course I won't miss it. I could have watched it back on Youtube later after I returned to the future, but still I wanted to watch it. I never seem to get tired of watching it. The soundtrack is still on my music playlist. This is my bad habit. I can't not watch Taiwanese or Korean dramas.

I closed my mouth a few times because I yawned. I've been here 4 days and I still don't know how to get back to the future. I also do not know the woman that the Son loves. Why do I feel like I'm going back to the future if I already know who that woman is. I pray to go back in time after May says that the woman whose Son is me. Then God granted my prayers. Then, it's likely that I'll go back to the future if I've proven May's words to be true. It seems like it is.

Being engrossed with my own thoughts, the key of the motor I was holding fell. I was about to take it, but my hand stopped. I saw someone's hand take it first. This is very similar to the FTV scenes. The girl was carrying a lot of books and the book suddenly fell. Then, a man came to the girl to help her collect the books. Alay but this did happen. I wish the guy who took my motorcycle keys was a handsome, smart, gentle guy. I have put great hope.

“Dreaming continues anyway, falls on the key.”

Yeah, Heri again. “Thanks,” I said while taking the key from Heri's hand.

“You to class? Can you stay with me?” ask Heri.

What a child. Tumben asked for permission. “Tumben.”

“Tumben why?”ask again.

“Tumben ask permission and not to fire,”I replied. I looked at Heri with a face of astonishment.

“Digombal is wrong, not contested is also wrong,”balannya.

“Not wrong either. Good even. Can you please guide?” I asked while chuckling.

“Iya”

“Waah from whom?” ask me with a face that is made as targeted as possible.

“You are,”he replied. “Take the road ajalkannya. Back in,”next.

“Kok me?” I asked while walking beside him.

“Iya. You are disgusted to wriggle at me every time I forget,” he replied.

I feel bad about Heri. I can't pretend to like the fighting that I hear every day, like I'm taking medicine. So, I'm gonna put on a flat, awkward face with the flutter. “Not disgusted, but amused,”balasku.

“If you don't think about it you are the one who sees me that way. And why am I like that,” obviously not looking at me at all.

“Because you want to be recognized. Whereas if you used to be the girls that come to you,”hiburku.

“Oh yes? You too?”

“Can be.”

Heri stopped and looked at me with a face that wanted to tease me. “Do not digombal.”

“Hahaha. I've seen you first,”ucapnya while laughing.

“Awas if you repeat yes. Won't want me to talk to you again,” threatened me.

“Galakanyaa” reply. “No will work,” he continued.

“That's where you entered your class,” I said as I pushed her away from my classroom door.

The class is next to my class. She did not reply to him anymore and walked back to her class while blinking one eye at me. The course lasts for 5 minutes, it seems. After that, he returned to his original mode. I'll go to class soon. Classes are crowded. I'm heading for Ami's seat which is my seat right now.

I saw Aira's chair. He was looking up at the sky from the window. How habit. I loved the blue sky a long time ago. However, my goal of seeing the blue sky was then and now different. He smiles occasionally. What he thought. I also forgot. Little did I know back then that I would continue to see the blue sky.

Next, I saw the seats of Son and May empty. They must be together. Of course I feel that they like each other because they are always together. I can't blame anyone. Not May, Son, Ami, and myself because they all have their own reasons. This is how his destiny is. God wants to make it like this. With no one to have it.

I got up from my chair and walked towards the back of the classroom door. I was rearranging my heart so as not to waver. Besides, I want to cry too. Trying to recap everything that happened because what I'm doing here won't change anything. He will not return to the future. I bent my knees and buried my head there. I have to be sincere.

It's time for a break, but I don't want to get out of class. Why I feel sad today. I don't want to linger here, but I also feel like staying here. If I stay here, it's against the rules of life. I even thought if something happened to me in the future. I may have died. But I do touch that thought. I really don't know what happened. I shouldn't be here because it'll make it harder for me to forget.

I buried my head on the table. The effects of staying up late make me sleepy. I'm really asleep. In my heart I prayed that God would immediately give me a clue as to why I was in the past.

“Ra, Ra, wake up. Ud in.” A voice woke me from my slumber. It's the restless sleep I've had while I've been here. I didn't dream and think of anything.

I'm looking for the source of the sound. There was no one beside me and no one woke me up. I combed the class with my eyes, looking for the source of the sound. I saw the Son coming out the back door. Aira followed him from behind. That's sound. Son Habits. He'll be there every time I'm there. We don't talk though. Sometimes it is. I listen to music more often while reading a novel or listening to music while writing a poem or story. He also listened to music while drawing. And the one drawn is always home. I wonder why he always draws houses.

“Crowded his looks,”ucap Putra while sitting in his chair.

I turned my body back to face him. “Summer watch Taiwanese drama,”balasku.

“Sama dong sama si Aira,”returnya again.

Is correct. I must have stayed up late watching Taiwanese dramas too.

“Eh. Since when do you like watching Taiwanese dramas? Don't you like foreign dramas?”ask the son suspiciously.

“Neither can sleep overnight. Yeah, just watch it be. It turns out exciting too,”I replied as usually as possible.

My son narrowed his eyes at me. I know he must be suspicious. “You're in love again huh?”tanyakanya.

“Hah? How fell in love? Not you,” I replied.

“You've changed. Change it many times. Now you've started watching the drama,”reply.

“Not in love anymore. Changed don't have to fall in love times,”replyku.

“You like Heri, yes?”tanyakanya.

Oh, my god, son. “Hah? Just don't you. Nope. Crazy for you yes.”

“Lah, who knows? Familiar times your lecturers this morning,”talkannya while laughing with the look of his face that is jaily.

“Can't you talk? Just have a normal chat,”elakku.

“Yes who knows right?”

“Awas aja yes if you spread gossip,”ancamku.

“Nemployment. Why also,”balasnya.

“What were you doing with Aira behind the door?” ask me to divert the conversation. I'm curious too.

“Ngot. Aira is sleeping. I snatched,”answanswered.

“Yakin? No chat?”ask again.

“Ngak. He sleeps heavily because he stayed up to watch the Taiwanese drama,” he replied again.

Duh, back to the Taiwanese drama.

“Ooh,”balasku.

“Udah is that?”ask again.

“Yes how do you want?”askaku.

He was silent for a moment and looked me in the eye. OK. It means serious. “In your opinion, I was honest with you to May?”tanyakanya.

“Honest about what?”askaku. This doesn't seem to be finding an answer because we asked each other from earlier.

“Everything,”answort.

“Everything?”

“Iya. Everything.”

I shut up and looked into his eyes. He really wanted to say everything. And I don't know the meaning behind ‘everything’ is because I'm not Ami who knew the secret from the beginning. But, I knew Ami would also suggest this.

“Iya. Tell me everything to May,”tapku while looking into his eyes.

“Let everything be quiet. I'm calm, May is calm, she's calm too.

I turned my body forward. Why do I feel something is going to happen. It can't be this fast, right? The son told me (Aira) that he likes other people and not May it was in XI class. She also has a boyfriend in XI class. Don't you think Ami didn't suggest Son honestly to May? Did I give you the wrong advice? I turned my body back to face the Son.

“You like same girls, yes?”I was a little hard while looking into his eyes. My classmates looked at us. Okay. Maybe it was hard. He was busy continuing his sketch of the house.

“Iya.”

“And not May,” I said softly. It's not a question.

“Iya”

“Who?” I'm just impatient.

“And you know too,” answered.

“Ngot believe. Other classes?”ask again.

He narrowed his eyes and looked at me in wonder. I saw the tail of his eyes glancing at someone. “Iya yes. It's up to you,”he's lazy.

I turned my body forward again. If it will happen as it used to. It's too fast. The son will be honest with May and she will express her feelings with Anisa, the girl next to the class, who became her boyfriend first. It should all happen in XI class. Do I have to stop him?

My eyes accidentally collided with Aira's eyes. His eyes were like asking the truth. I cut off our eye contact. Is that my eyes when asking for clarity about the woman the Son loved to Ami first? And Ami didn't say anything until now. Until I go back in time to find out all by myself. Ami's answer is always the same every time I ask her. ‘Let the Son tell you everything.’ Though, the Son would not be able to tell me everything if I did not go back in time. Even when I returned to the past, the Son had not told me about it. I wanted to ask him directly, but I was afraid to hear it. Every day I was determined to ask him directly, but I always backed off. I want to see him longer too. Because if I go back, I'll never see her again. I also need to forget about it and move on with my life. There is nothing wrong with falling in love. There is nothing wrong with missing. Because when you fall in love, no matter if he is around you or not, you will always miss him.