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Hey, Kanya
This morning began with the attitude of the Star that changed 180 degrees. He teases me often and sometimes calls me ‘future wifie’. I don't like cheesey's words like that. I'm sick of hearing it. I've told you a few times that I'm amused to hear it. He would stop, but 10 minutes later he would start teasing me again. Where is that cold face?
We had breakfast together. As usual, he bought his breakfast in the cafeteria and ate it here. We chatted for a moment. At 8, she had already gone to her room because she had to have surgery again today. He said he would be busy today. Before leaving my room, he stroked my head and prayed that I would have a beautiful day today. Anyway, he's always smiling. It feels good to see if anyone feels happy because of you.
I did my last therapy today. I can go home tomorrow. Yeayy. I'm so happy because I finally got out and wasn't in this white room. I wasn't injected anymore either. I told my parents to take a walk in Depok this afternoon because they intend to stay here tonight while cleaning up my things.
Right now I was near the window and looking at the sky. It's so bright today. Blue sky. There are small clouds there too. Whether I'm bewitched by her beauty or I just want to tell her how I feel. What makes me hesitate to tell? He also wants me to live this life as I am happy. Loving and being loved.
*This morning begins with the Star's attitude changing by 180 degrees. He teases me often and sometimes calls me ‘future wifie’. I don't like cheesey's words like that. I'm sick of hearing it. I've told you a few times that I'm amused to hear it. He would stop, but 10 minutes later he would start teasing me again. Where is that cold face?
We had breakfast together. As usual, he bought his breakfast in the cafeteria and ate it here. We chatted for a moment. At 8, she had already gone to her room because she had to have surgery again today. He said he would be busy today. Before leaving my room, he stroked my head and prayed that I would have a beautiful day today. Anyway, he's always smiling. It feels good to see if anyone feels happy because of you.
I did my last therapy today. I can go home tomorrow. Yeayy. I'm so happy because I finally got out and wasn't in this white room. I wasn't injected anymore either. I told my parents to take a walk in Depok this afternoon because they intend to stay here tonight while cleaning up my things.
Right now I was near the window and looking at the sky. It's so bright today. Blue sky. There are small clouds there too. Whether I'm bewitched by her beauty or I just want to tell her how I feel. What makes me hesitate to tell? He also wants me to live this life as I am happy. Loving and being loved.
Is my decision right, son? There is a man who offers his love to me even though he is not sure. He said he would try and me too. Which makes me dare to try this relationship because he always involves God when it comes to me. Is this God's plan? Reassure me that I should try this.
After saying my heart, I walked to the sofa. I picked up a book on me and was about to write some poetry there. I like to write poetry. The sound of the door stopping my writing. I walked to the door to see who was coming. He came in hesitantly to my room.
He smiled at me looking at me. “Oh hi, Ra. Howareyou? You still know me?” He wanted to say hello, ask for news, and confirm.
I saw it carefully. His face was no stranger. I patted my forehead. “Heri?”my many.
“Bingo,”answort.
“Oh my God! Howareyou? Gosh darn. Why did you change?”many enthusiast.
I didn't think Heri was here. I never talked to him at school. At all. He was the one I avoided the most at school. He became more content and robust. His skin was still brownish, but it suited him. His face was more full. Her hair was brushed to the side. He's getting cooler now. But I'm not sure of his behavior.
“I can sit first nih?”tanyakanya.
“Bolecules. Sit here aja.”I asked her to sit on the sofa. Then I sat down at the end of the sofa.
“Do you know where I'm from in the hospital?”ask again. I didn't stop asking her questions.
“You answered which one was this? I'm telling you or do I know where you're from?”tanyakanya.
Gosh darn. This boy has not changed his behavior.
“Two,”answort.
“Good news. I know from May you're in the hospital.”
“Kok, can you be in Depok? Vacation?”ask again.
“I transferred tasks to Jakarta. I asked who our friends were in Jakarta. May said you live in Depok. Then, the May told me that again in the hospital, so I looked,”.
“Ohh that? Uh, are you a soldier or a cop anyway? Forgot me,”tanyaku again.
“Army, Rara. Ah, not fun times you. You were from earlier that nanya. How are you civilians?”
The insolent Heri. He's an army. But I know he's just kidding. He was like that from a long time ago.
“Alhamdulillah good. Tomorrow I can go home, I replied.
“Says the May you got into a coma. How can?”ask Heri. He stood up and looked at what was on the table. “Eh, I ask the wafer not to?”tanyakanya.
Gosh darn. This kid's behavior is very entertaining. I laughed, then answered the question.
“By yourself don't want to be eaten either?”my many.
“Bby emang? If it's okay, you answer.
I put on a surprised face, even though I already knew he would answer like that.
“Kanda, Ra. Seriously times you.”
“Serious is fine too. Wherever I'm finished the fruit you brought,”balapku. “If you want to drink grab it yourself at the dispenser,”.
“OK,”balance.
“Eh, you haven't answered my question,”more. He had already peeled off the orange he was carrying.
“I again wait for ojol on the side of the road alley of my rented house, want to go to work. Suddenly there was a car driving. Be me hit. Turns out the driver was drunk and died,”my.
“Cause of the accident?”
“Not. Due to alcohol overdose.”
“Innalillah. But thank goodness you're getting healthier yeah.”
“Eh how long have you been here?”my many.
“Sunday and don't know until when here.”
“Where? Excited to stay here?”
“Ngak. Hot times. No one is friendly to the faces of people here. Crimped all his forehead,” he replied.
“Bad you. In Medan also hot kok,”balaku.
“I may be the most sinful so hot I guess,”reply.
“There are you.”
He took the phone out of his pocket. He hung out with his phone for a while.
“Yuk, selfie first,”tajaknya.
Gosh darn. For the sake of it I say, God. Her behavior always made me want to say, but, I was also amused. Has he ever felt sad? He may never feel hurt.
“Jeez, Her. My face is pale gini loh. Don't want ah,”tolakku.
“Meet me use B612 to look fresh your face.”
I can't hold my hand anymore. I laughed until my stomach hurt. I also shed tears. Just imagine he has a B612 app. Make what? I just don't have any.
“What's so funny? Can't it seem that guys have this app? gender discrimination you,”reply. His face was made as serious as possible, but it didn't work for me. I still saw him hilarious.
“Sorry, sorry. So not the photo?”my many.
“Be.” He pointed his phone forward. We also selfie. Not quite once, Heri took many photos, about five photos.
“Udah ah. Many times take it,”protesku.
“Ah don't exclamation you,”reply.
I put on a face that doesn't care. “Biarin.”
He kept his phone back in his bag. Then, he stood up to take a glass of water from the dispenser.
“Which parent, Ra?”tanyakanya.
I picked up the biscuits on the table. I suddenly feel hungry.
“I told you to take a walk. Later in the afternoon here,”my answer. I sat back on the sofa.
“You yourself dong here? Yes, I've won until your parents come,”return. He is by my side now. At the end of the couch.
“Neventless. I can do it myself,”reject me.
He narrowed his eyes suspiciously. “There will be angry, yes?”tanyakanya.
“Nothing. Sotoy times you,”I reply.
“Ah don't believe me,”reply.
“Ya already,”my reply back.
We were excited to talk about High School and about the gossip of my classmates. Just guess. Does he know everything or not? She didn't know much about my friends after graduating high school. Indeed indeed. He kind of shuts himself up and rarely joins the force reunion. He also rarely communicates with his classmates. As far as I know. And I didn't ask for the reason. I'm afraid I said too much to interfere.
“Eh, you used to like Ami, right?”my many.
“Iya. She's pregnant now, right?”
“Iya. Next month Insha Allah lahiran.”
“Not expecting ya?”
“What?”my many.
“Our old man,”his answer.
Asem this is my friend. We will never speak seriously. I guess she'll tell Ami about her feelings. It is very difficult for this man. I'd rather talk to the Stars than Heri though Stars sucks sometimes. At least he can be serious.
“I'm a bummer, huh?”tanyakanya.
“Very,”I replied with great emphasis.
He leaned his back against the body of the sofa. Then, put both of his hands behind his head.
“I wonder why we can connect gini chat when you used to be hard to talk to,”papnya while looking at the ceiling of this room.
I also leaned my back against the body of the sofa and turned my head to face it. “You were fuckboy first. Anyway, I don't know as much as a boy at school,”.
He still fixed his eyes there. “Iya true. You're just friends with Putra and Malik. And the two also went to leave you first,”he said.
I didn't reply to him. I've always been this way when it comes to the two of them, especially the Son. I don't know what to respond to.
“Son went to SMA and Malik fitting lecture. You're not sad?”tanyakanya.
“Ya sad. Just you,”I replied.
“Nothing do you like one of them?”ask him further.
I was silent for a moment. “Not there,”my answer. I decided to lie. I don't want to share my secrets with people. Let me just know. And maybe a star.
“You how? You don't have a girlfriend?”my many. I want to switch this conversation.
“Ndon't have. This is a soul mate again, but don't know where it is. You know what?”tanyakanya.
I straightened my back. “If I knew, I married Ami first,”I replied.
“Not helping once. Reminiscent of the past,”returns sewot.
“Baperan,”balasku with full emphasis.
Heri straightened her back and stretched her muscles. “You want to rest? Just rest. It's okay,”all of it.
I won't let it. Someone came in and made a misunderstanding. Wait for. Why do I think of stars? I'm sure she'll be jealous. In fact, not necessarily. He said he was still trying to love me, not love me. You're such a pity, Ra.
“Nevent gone,”tolakku. “I accompany you,”follow me.
“Eh, Ra. We speak the language of Jakarta. Who uses me-elu it loh,”ucapnya. The topic has changed again. From the moment I had a chat with Heri, all the talk was never finished. The topic always changes in a matter of minutes.
“Hah?” I put on a look of wonder and my mouth opened slightly.
“Nevent to be surprised. Let me like the Jakarta guy. Can't it look?”
I normalized the look on my face again. “Bby, can be very loh. I met a high school friend here. How are you?”my many. I put on the look on the kids' faces like that.
Heri was excited to answer. “Gue too. You are just more glowing. What skincare package?”
“Air Wudhu anyway. You look cool too. It is different from SMA. Lu.. use susuk ya?”I asked while holding my laugh.
“Campret you. The results of this treatment know you yes,” he replied.
“Nah, he said he wanted to use the language of Jakarta. How the hell are you?”my many. “Eh, btw skincare you what?”ask me further.
“Layland,”answer him with a flat face.
I laughed when I heard the answer. Yes, it is too. They are often covered with clay when they are training. The answer is always to shake my stomach.
“You're satisfied?”tanyakanya.
“Banget,”my answer is still with the remains of my laugh.
“Ya. You rest first. I'm home now,”he said.
“Loh, don't use Jakarta anymore?”my many. I was mocking him.
“Neventless. Use Medan language ajalah,”balasnya.
Heri stood up and picked up her bag that was on the table. He tidied up his shirt. He was wearing casual clothes today. Black long sleeve t-shirt and blue jeans dongker.
“Eh, don't you work today?”my many. I just remembered today is not the weekend.
“Newly now you ask. I want to go home too. Naw. Excuse me today,” he replied.
I drove Heri to my door. He did not forget to pray that I would get well soon. He also gave my greetings to my parents. I didn't expect to see Heri here. I'm really happy of course.
Today I also laughed a lot because of Heri. He still hasn't changed. He's still funny. He seems to have quit as a fuckboy. He doesn't talk about women either. He might as well keep his secret. Same as me.
I was writing in a notebook my mother bought two days ago. I wrote in the window looking at the sun whose light was entering this room. I haven't seen the sun like this in a long time. Luminous and looks dashing. Providing comfort and warming. Sometimes I cover it with my hand if the light hits my face. Sometimes I play with the light. Without realizing it, I painted a smile on my face.
I heard the door of my room open. I didn't bother to take my eyes off because I already knew who was coming. Who else if not the stars. My parents did not come today. They're coming in the morning. My mother was tired from walking in the market all day. Mom and Dad went to my brother's land earlier.
“Good after soon future wifie. What more?”tanyakanya. He was already beside me.
“Nulis,”answort. “Can not really need to call future wifie everything,”protesku.
The star folded her hands on her chest. “The word is prayer, Ai,”he replied.
I looked at his face and stopped my writing. “Yes, I know. But ticklish.” I insisted on stopping it.
“Continue calling what?”tanyakanya. His face looked annoyed because I still insisted on wanting to change it.
“Ya, Ai only. No one calls me Ai. New you,”answakku. I'm bribing him. No one calls me Ai. I've always been called Rara or Aira.
I saw his face crack and his smile was clearly visible there. “OK,”balance.
It's easy to bribe him. He was like a child asking for my attention. Just gotituin was really happy. Fuck up! I said in my heart. Without realizing it, I also smiled seeing him smile.
“Keep you call me what? Star?”tanyakanya.
Duh. Why is the name issue a conversation like this? He's like a teenager who's just pubescent.
“Ya Stars. Your name is Star,”I reply.
“No need ah.”
“What does he want to be called? Mas's? A brother? The sister? Akang?”just pissed.
“Kakkak an. I'm older than you, ' she replied.
“OK,”my reply was quick before he changed his mind again.
“Oh yes. From now on don't call me again, but I. I felt like I was chatting with someone else,”he asked again.
“OK. Anything else?”my many. I actually want to laugh at her attitude like a teenager for the first time in a relationship.
“Ngak. But how do you directly okay? Usually you refuse or long debate first,”replynya.
See it? He was also chatty about the same as Doctor Fani. Doctor Fani said that he was the most chatty child among his other siblings.
“Because it does make sense sister suggestions,”balasku. He smiled when I called him brother. Where is that cold face?
“OK. We moved to the sofa. Glare,”ajak Stars.
The sunlight is indeed more and more glare. I walked to the sofa, while the Star walked towards the dispenser and took 2 glasses of water. He also did not forget to bring some food that was on the table. Then, he placed it on the table that was in front of the sofa. He picked up a piece of biscuit and put it in his mouth.
“You have a guest yes?”tanyanya in the remains of the chew.
“Iya, SMA friend,”answerku. I also took a piece of biscuit.
“Oh yes? Boy?”ask him further. Now, he was peeling off the orange that Heri had brought.
I took another piece of biscuit. “Iya. Name's Heri. Do you know where you are?,”tanyaku.
“From nurse.”
Gosh darn. The nurses here must be getting suspicious of us.“To the nurse?”
“Iya.”
Fixes. The nurses here must be suspicious. Actually there's been rumors that I'm his girlfriend Bintang. Every day, the nurses who come into my room are different. They must want to know what the face of his girlfriend Bintang, the dream doctor in this hospital. There were even reports we were engaged. And the stars don't dispute that at all. Every time he was asked, he would answer with a smile. I have to wear sunglasses tomorrow out of this hospital. A lot of people know me because of the stars.
“Cable does Heri?”ask him further. His voice changed to higher. How do I feel she's a little jealous?
“Lumayan. Can be brought to the condition,”iksaku.
“More handsome who?”tanyakanya. His voice is still the same as before.
Not temptation. Not temptation. Tempt ajalah. “Silver,”my answer.
He looked at me for a moment, then smiled. Her ears turned red to hear my answer. Dah, he's shy.
“But more exciting him than big brother,”follow me. I'm not serious. I just intend to tease him. I'm making my face more serious.
He was upset to hear my answer. He puffed his right cheek with his tongue and shook his head to the left slightly.
“I'm kidding. Still more exciting brother kok,”ucapku.
“But kayaking is no longer a joke,”reply.
“Serious joke. Sister is much more exciting.”
I'm not lying. Although Heri often makes me laugh, I prefer to chat with Kak Bintang. Okay. I've called him brother now. I was just so bad of the guy. I can laugh at things that people don't think are funny. For now, the Star is still more exciting than Heri. I don't know later.
The star held out the orange in her hand to my mouth. “Do not change your mind yaa,”ucapnya. I opened my mouth and received the orange that Kak Bintang loved.
“Ndon't know. See later,”balasku.
“Ishh,”balas Kak Bintang.
I laughed seeing her upset face.
“Gini dong laugh. Beautiful nambah,”ucap Kak Bintang. He gave the orange he held to me again.
I didn't reply to her, but I felt my cheeks flushed red. Just saying pretty makes me embarrassed. I am so weak.
“Later night there is still operation, Brother?”my many.
“Nothing. I stay here,”he replied.
I leaned my back against the body of the sofa. “So I have never been home? In the hospital right from yesterday,”tanyaku. I'm really curious.
He also leaned his back against the body of the sofa. “Back now. Make a change of clothes and bring a change of clothes again,” he replied.
I feel my heart a little bit slashed. I was afraid I would hurt her heart. What if I'm gonna give her some grief later?
The stars looked at me, then reached for my hair that slightly covered my face.
“Everytime I feel tired, I'll be here. I became energized again. My tiredness is still there, but I became able to hold it until it felt like I did not feel tired.”
I returned with a smile while looking into his eyes. Being a force for others, that's what I want. I've always said I want to marry someone who makes me strong and I want to make her strong. Such a person was already in front of my eyes. Am I going to waste it?
“Try telling me about Heri,”pinta Kak Bintang.
I straightened my back and lifted my legs up on the sofa. I'm in a cross-legged position right now.
“Heri is narcissistic. The rate of recognition is above average. He always assumed that the girl who invited him to chat would love it. She also likes to tease girls, but I never chatted with her back in High School.” I told her about Heri.
“Loh why?”
“Ogah,”answort. “Males is really dealing with such a person,”apku further,
“But he never invited you to chat?”ask again.
“Never too,”my answer.
“Terus?”
“Well, Heri likes my friend, Ami. So, we were friends with 5 people, Me, May, Ami, Malik, and Son. We're a gang. But Ami did not choose Heri. Wong is like that, yes definitely ilfil,”continuku.
“Keep your friends where now?”ask the Star.
“May in Ambon. He wants to get married next month. Ami lives in Medan. She wants to have a child next month.”I replied.
“You're a single doang, yes?”taunted.
My face turned irritated. Actually, people always say that every time I tell about my friends. Why don't you have a boyfriend? That's what people will say, including my old-school High School friends. And I can't help but be upset to hear it.
“Continue, which guys where?”tanyakanya.
“Putra has died. Brother knows that. And Malik is dead too.” I'm ending. I'm trying as normally as possible to tell the stars.
The star patted me on my forehead slowly. “Failed, Honey. Don’t pretend that you feel okay telling about them. Very easy to see your face.”
“Yaaah kirain successfully nipu you,”balasku. I'm glad he didn't force me to be okay. I smiled at him. Genuine smile.
“How can I know you in the hospital?”ask the Star again. The talk about Heri hasn't finished viewers yet. He had to know everything first and then he would stop. I'm certain.
“From May. He moved to Jakarta a week ago. Because there is time, so he cools me,”I replied.
“What does it work for?”ask again. What did I say? He would stop if he felt he already knew all the information about Heri.
“Army. He's a freak to know, brother. He used to exclaim UKS, but instead became a soldier. Tau it would be mending as a scout,”iksku. I shook my head thinking back on his behavior.
“Loh, why be a soldier?”
“I don't know either. Not too,”agakuku.
The star suddenly smiled at me, then hugged my body. I was automatically surprised by this treatment. After a few seconds, he let go of his embrace. His sight is still on me.
“Apaan was hugging. Opportunity in your narrowness,”benkku.
The stars still look at me with a smile on their face. “I'm glad you didn't meet Heri,”ucapnya.
I was amazed to hear it. That alone makes him happy? It's funny this star. He really is like a child. The little things make him happy. Especially the big thing? Is he not already soiled?
“Kakak kayak little boy tau. Small things just for sister happy?”manya curious.
“Iya. Everything related to you makes my sister happy,” he replied.
“Gombal just keep going,”balasku lazy.
“Serious brother, Ai.”
I brought my position closer to her and tilted my body to the left to look at her. “Sister has never been in love huh?”my many. “Iya, right? Aye right?”my God stroked his chin. Then, I rewinded my body and returned to my position that was leaning on the body of the chair.
“Sotoy's. Yes, it has ever been. Only you can fall in love,” he replied sewot.
“Masa anyway? How can you never, ever? Can't believe me,”balasku. I folded my hands together in my stomach.
“You want me to tell you a story, right?”tanyanya. He also lifted his legs to the sofa.
“Iya.”
“Then, hug,”love.
“Ogah. Don't tell me it's okay either,”balasku.
“Huu stingy.”
“Huu biarin.”
The star rests its head on the shoulder of the sofa. He sat cross-legged on the right side of the sofa, while I sat on the left side of the sofa. He set his eyes on me. Then, he pressed on my feet that were near his feet. I put on a dislike face and warned him not to do it again. When did the stars heed my words? He kept pushing my feet. He sometimes laughed lightly when I replied to him, but he was able to avoid it. He's a baby in a doctor's body.
“Main games, yuk,”myaj.
“What?”
“Just answer that. Take turns asking,”I replied.
“OK. You first.”
“What's sister's full name?”my many.
The star heard my question. “You don't know my full name, Ai?”tanyanya did not believe.
“Ngak, hehe. Sorry. I'll know where I'm from anyway? I can't possibly have Doctor Fani, right?” I defended myself.
“Ya pretend to mama,”balanya.
“Udaaah's chat. Answer aja,”my.
“Star Adicandra,”answer.
“That means?”
“Beautiful stars. Fits the guy?”
I made a flat face hearing his words. “Emang sister know my full name?”
“Tau dong's. Arya Princess,”answered.
“True. Now it's brother's turn.”
“What is your favorite food?”
“Fried rice,”my answer. “What jack?”my many.
“Fried squid. Favorite country?”
“Spain. Sister?”
“Same. Tos dong.”
I received the toss. When I wanted to continue the game, my phone rang. The star stood up from the sofa and picked up the phone I had placed on the table near my bed.
“Who?”my many.
“Heri,”it's cold. He gave the phone to me, but he looked annoyed. I'm sure he's the jealous type.
I received the phone and received Heri's call.
Me:
Hello, Heri.
Herr:
Ra, are you out of the hospital tomorrow?
Me:
Ja. Wh why?
Herr:
What'sthetime?
Me:
At 10 am.
Herr:
I'll be there tomorrow. I'll take you home.
Me:
Uh, no need Her. You don't work?
Herr:
Naw. I'm holidaying.
Me:
Just keep on going on holiday.
Herr:
It's up to me. How so?
I glanced at the Star that was peeling the apple. He pretended not to care or what?
Me:
Don't go to the hospital. Come to my contract. I'll send you the address.
Herr:
Wh why? Someone picked it up too, huh? Suit.
Heri's starting to crack.
Me:
Sotoy's. Anyway, just there it came.
Herr:
Okay. Okay. See you tomorrow.
Me:
Okay.
I ended Heri's call. I put my phone on the table in front of the couch. Then, I glanced at the stars. He was watching me. His face looks unfriendly and curious.
“Heri want to come tomorrow to the contract. At first, come here. Kan I know Kak Bintang who wants to anterin to the contract. It would..” I did not continue my words.
Smiling stars. “Iyaaa. Don't be bad with his face.”
I guess he'll ask a lot of questions. I returned his smile.
“After all I wonder how that Heri is,”more.
After saying my heart, I walked to the sofa. I picked up a book on me and was about to write some poetry there. I like to write poetry. The sound of the door stopping my writing. I walked to the door to see who was coming. He came in hesitantly to my room.
He smiled at me looking at me. “Oh hi, Ra. Howareyou? You still know me?” He wanted to say hello, ask for news, and confirm.
I saw it carefully. His face was no stranger. I patted my forehead.
“Heri?”my many.
“Bingo,”answort.
“Oh my God! Howareyou? Gosh darn. Why did you change?”many enthusiast.
I didn't think Heri was here. I never talked to him at school. At all. He was the one I avoided the most at school. He became more content and robust. His skin was still brownish, but it suited him. His face was more full. Her hair was brushed to the side. He's getting cooler now. But I'm not sure of his behavior.
“I can sit first nih?”tanyakanya.
“Bolecules. Sit here aja.”I asked her to sit on the sofa. Then I sat down at the end of the sofa.
“Do you know where I'm from in the hospital?”ask again. I didn't stop asking her questions.
“You answered which one was this? I'm telling you or do I know where you're from?”tanyakanya.
Gosh darn. This boy has not changed his behavior.
“Two,”answort.
“Good news. I know from May you're in the hospital.”
“Kok, can you be in Depok? Vacation?”ask again.
“I transferred tasks to Jakarta. I asked who our friends were in Jakarta. May said you live in Depok. Then, the May told me that again in the hospital, so I looked,”.
“Ohh that? Uh, are you a soldier or a cop anyway? Forgot me,”tanyaku again.
“Army, Rara. Ah, not fun times you. You were from earlier that nanya. How are you civilians?”
The insolent Heri. He's an army. But I know he's just kidding. He was like that from a long time ago.
“Alhamdulillah good. Tomorrow I can go home, I replied.
“Says the May you got into a coma. How can?”ask Heri. He stood up and looked at what was on the table. “Eh, I ask the wafer not to?”tanyakanya.
Gosh darn. This kid's behavior is very entertaining. I laughed, then answered the question.
“By yourself don't want to be eaten either?”my many.
“Bby emang? If it's okay, you answer.
I put on a surprised face, even though I already knew he would answer like that.
“Kanda, Ra. Seriously times you.”
“Serious is fine too. Wherever I'm finished the fruit you brought,”balapku.
“If you want to drink grab it yourself at the dispenser,”.
“OK,”balance.
“Eh, you haven't answered my question,”more. He had already peeled off the orange he was carrying.
“I again wait for ojol on the side of the road alley of my rented house, want to go to work. Suddenly there was a car driving. Be me hit. Turns out the driver was drunk and died,”my.
“Cause of the accident?”
“Not. Due to alcohol overdose.”
“Innalillah. But thank goodness you're getting healthier yeah.”
“Eh how long have you been here?”my many.
“Sunday and don't know until when here.”
“Where? Excited to stay here?”
“Ngak. Hot times. No one is friendly to the faces of people here. Crimped all his forehead,” he replied.
“Bad you. In Medan also hot kok,”balaku.
“I may be the most sinful so hot I guess,”reply.
“There are you.”
He took the phone out of his pocket. He hung out with his phone for a while.
“Yuk, selfie first,”tajaknya.
Gosh darn. For the sake of it I say, God. Her behavior always made me want to say, but, I was also amused. Has he ever felt sad? He may never feel hurt.
"Gosh, Her. My face is pale gini loh. Don't want ah,”tolakku.
“Meet me use B612 to look fresh your face.”
I can't hold my hand anymore. I laughed until my stomach hurt. I also shed tears. Just imagine he has a B612 app. Make what? I just don't have any.
“What's so funny? Can't it seem that guys have this app? gender discrimination you,”reply. His face was made as serious as possible, but it didn't work for me. I still saw him hilarious.
“Sorry, sorry. So not the photo?”my many.
“Be.” He pointed his phone forward. We also selfie. Not quite once, Heri took many photos, about five photos.
“Udah ah. Many times take it,”protesku.
“Ah don't exclamation you,”reply.
I put on a face that doesn't care.
“Biarin.”
He kept his phone back in his bag. Then, he stood up to take a glass of water from the dispenser.
“Which parent, Ra?”tanyakanya.
I picked up the biscuits on the table. I suddenly feel hungry.
“I told you to take a walk. Later in the afternoon here,”my answer. I sat back on the sofa.
“You yourself dong here? Yes, I've won until your parents come,”return. He is by my side now. At the end of the couch.
“Neventless. I can do it myself,”reject me.
He narrowed his eyes suspiciously. “There will be angry, yes?”tanyakanya.
“Nothing. Sotoy times you,”I reply.
“Ah don't believe me,”reply.
“Ya already,”my reply back.
We were excited to talk about High School and about the gossip of my classmates. Just guess. Does he know everything or not? She didn't know much about my friends after graduating high school. Indeed indeed. He kind of shuts himself up and rarely joins the force reunion. He also rarely communicates with his classmates. As far as I know. And I didn't ask for the reason. I'm afraid I said too much interference.
“Eh, you used to like Ami, right?”my many.
“Iya. She's pregnant now, right?”
“Iya. Next month Insha Allah lahiran.”
“Not expecting ya?”
“What?”my many.
“Our old man,”his answer.
Asem this is my friend. We will never speak seriously. I guess she'll tell Ami about her feelings. It is very difficult for this man. I'd rather talk to the Stars than Heri though Stars sucks sometimes. At least he can be serious.
“I'm a bummer, huh?”tanyakanya.
“Very,”I replied with great emphasis.
He leaned his back against the body of the sofa. Then, put both of his hands behind his head.
“I wonder why we can connect gini chat when you used to be hard to talk to,”papnya while looking at the ceiling of this room.
I also leaned my back against the body of the sofa and turned my head to face it. “You were fuckboy first. Anyway, I don't know as much as a boy at school,”.
He still fixed his eyes there. “Iya true. You're just friends with Putra and Malik. And the two also went to leave you first,”he said.
I didn't reply to him. I've always been this way when it comes to the two of them, especially the Son. I don't know what to respond to.
“Son went to SMA and Malik fitting lecture. You're not sad?”tanyakanya.
“Ya sad. Just you,”I replied.
“Nothing do you like one of them?”ask him further.
I was silent for a moment. “Not there,”my answer. I decided to lie. I don't want to share my secrets with people. Let me just know. And maybe a star.
“You how? You don't have a girlfriend?”my many. I want to switch this conversation.
“Ndon't have. This is a soul mate again, but don't know where it is. You know what?”tanyakanya.
I straightened my back. “If I knew, I married Ami first,”I replied.
“Not helping once. Reminiscent of the past,”returns sewot.
“Baperan,”balasku with full emphasis.
Heri straightened her back and stretched her muscles. “You want to rest? Just rest. It's okay,”all of it.
I won't let it. Someone came in and made a misunderstanding. Wait for. Why do I think of stars? I'm sure she'll be jealous. In fact, not necessarily. He said he was still trying to love me, not love me. You're such a pity, Ra.
“Nevent gone,”tolakku. “I accompany you,”follow me.
“Eh, Ra. We speak the language of Jakarta. Who uses me-elu it loh,”ucapnya. The topic has changed again. From the moment I had a chat with Heri, all the talk was never finished. The topic always changes in a matter of minutes.
“Hah?” I put on a look of wonder and my mouth opened slightly.
“Nevent to be surprised. Let me like the Jakarta guy. Can't it look?”
I normalized the look on my face again.
“Bby, can be very loh. I met a high school friend here. How are you?”my many. I put on the look on the kids' faces like that.
Heri was excited to answer. “Gue too. You are just more glowing. What skincare package?”
“Air Wudhu anyway. You look cool too. It is different from SMA. Lu.. use susuk ya?”I asked while holding my laugh.
“Campret you. The results of this treatment know you yes,” he replied.
“Nah, he said he wanted to use the language of Jakarta. How the hell are you?”my many. “Eh, btw skincare you what?”ask me further.
“Layland,”answer him with a flat face.
I laughed when I heard the answer. Yes, it is too. They are often covered with clay when they are training. The answer is always to shake my stomach.
“You're satisfied?”tanyakanya.
“Banget,”my answer is still with the remains of my laugh.
“Ya. You rest first. I'm home now,”he said.
“Loh, don't use Jakarta anymore?”my many. I was mocking him.
“Neventless. Use Medan language ajalah,”balasnya.
Heri stood up and picked up her bag that was on the table. He tidied up his shirt. He was wearing casual clothes today. Black long sleeve t-shirt and blue jeans dongker.
“Eh, don't you work today?”my many. I just remembered today is not the weekend.
“Newly now you ask. I want to go home too. Naw. Excuse me today,” he replied.
I drove Heri to my door. He did not forget to pray that I would get well soon. He also gave my greetings to my parents. I didn't expect to see Heri here. I'm really happy of course.
Today I also laughed a lot because of Heri. He still hasn't changed. He's still funny. He seems to have quit as a fuckboy. He doesn't talk about women either. He might as well keep his secret. Same as me.
*****
I was writing in a notebook my mother bought two days ago. I wrote in the window looking at the sun whose light was entering this room. I haven't seen the sun like this in a long time. Luminous and looks dashing. Providing comfort and warming. Sometimes I cover it with my hand if the light hits my face. Sometimes I play with the light. Without realizing it, I painted a smile on my face.
I heard the door of my room open. I didn't bother to take my eyes off because I already knew who was coming. Who else if not the stars. My parents did not come today. They're coming in the morning. My mother was tired from walking in the market all day. Mom and Dad went to my brother's land earlier.
“Good after soon future wifie. What more?”tanyakanya. He was already beside me.
“Nulis,”answort. “Can not really need to call future wifie everything,”protesku.
The star folded her hands on her chest. “The word is prayer, Ai,”he replied.
I looked at his face and stopped my writing. “Yes, I know. But ticklish.” I insisted on stopping it.
“Continue calling what?”tanyakanya.
His face looked annoyed because I still insisted on wanting to change it.
“Ya, Ai only. No one calls me Ai. New you,”answakku. I'm bribing him. No one calls me Ai. I've always been called Rara or Aira.
I saw his face crack and his smile was clearly visible there. “OK,”balance.
It's easy to bribe him. He was like a child asking for my attention. Just gotituin was really happy. Fuck up! I said in my heart. Without realizing it, I also smiled seeing him smile.
“Keep you call me what? Star?”tanyakanya.
Duh. Why is the name issue a conversation like this? He's like a teenager who's just pubescent.
“Ya Stars. Your name is Star,”I reply.
“No need ah.”
“What does he want to be called? Mas's? A brother? The sister? Akang?”just pissed.
“Kakkak an. I'm older than you, ' she replied.
“OK,”my reply was quick before he changed his mind again.
“Oh yes. From now on don't call me again, but I. I felt like I was chatting with someone else,”he asked again.
“OK. Anything else?”my many. I actually want to laugh at her attitude like a teenager for the first time in a relationship.
“Ngak. But how do you directly okay? Usually you refuse or long debate first,”replynya.
See it? He was also chatty about the same as Doctor Fani. Doctor Fani said that he was the most chatty child among his other siblings.
“Because it does make sense sister suggestions,”balasku. He smiled when I called him brother. Where is that cold face?
“OK. We moved to the sofa. Glare,”ajak Stars.
The sunlight is indeed more and more glare. I walked to the sofa, while the Star walked towards the dispenser and took 2 glasses of water. He also did not forget to bring some food that was on the table. Then, he placed it on the table that was in front of the sofa. He picked up a piece of biscuit and put it in his mouth.
“You have a guest yes?”tanyanya in the remains of the chew.
“Iya, SMA friend,”answerku. I also took a piece of biscuit.
“Oh yes? Boy?”ask him further. Now, he was peeling off the orange that Heri had brought.
I took another piece of biscuit. “Iya. Name's Heri. Do you know where you are?,”tanyaku.
“From nurse.”
Gosh darn. The nurses here must be getting suspicious of us.“To the nurse?”
“Iya.”
Fixes. The nurses here must be suspicious. Actually there's been rumors that I'm his girlfriend Bintang. Every day, the nurses who come into my room are different. They must want to know what the face of his girlfriend Bintang, the dream doctor in this hospital. There were even reports we were engaged. And the stars don't dispute that at all. Every time he was asked, he would answer with a smile. I have to wear sunglasses tomorrow out of this hospital. A lot of people know me because of the stars.
“Cable does Heri?”ask him further. His voice changed to higher. How do I feel she's a little jealous?
“Lumayan. Can be brought to the condition,”iksaku.
“More handsome who?”tanyakanya. His voice is still the same as before.
Not temptation. Not temptation. Tempt ajalah. “Silver,”my answer.
He looked at me for a moment, then smiled. Her ears turned red to hear my answer. Dah, he's shy.
“But more exciting him than big brother,”follow me. I'm not serious. I just intend to tease him. I'm making my face more serious.
He was upset to hear my answer. He puffed his right cheek with his tongue and shook his head to the left slightly.
“I'm kidding. Still more exciting brother kok,”ucapku.
“But kayaking is no longer a joke,”reply.
“Serious joke. Sister is much more exciting.”
I'm not lying. Although Heri often makes me laugh, I prefer to chat with Kak Bintang. Okay. I've called him brother now. I was just so bad of the guy. I can laugh at things that people don't think are funny. For now, the Star is still more exciting than Heri. I don't know later.
The star held out the orange in her hand to my mouth. “Do not change your mind yaa,”ucapnya. I opened my mouth and received the orange that Kak Bintang loved.
“Ndon't know. See later,”balasku.
“Ishh,”balas Kak Bintang.
I laughed seeing her upset face.
“Gini dong laugh. Beautiful nambah,”ucap Kak Bintang. He gave the orange he held to me again.
I didn't reply to her, but I felt my cheeks flushed red. Just saying pretty makes me embarrassed. I am so weak.
“Later night there is still operation, Brother?”my many.
“Nothing. I stay here,”he replied.
I leaned my back against the body of the sofa. “So I have never been home? In the hospital right from yesterday,”tanyaku. I'm really curious.
He also leaned his back against the body of the sofa. “Back now. Make a change of clothes and bring a change of clothes again,” he replied.
I feel my heart a little bit slashed. I was afraid I would hurt her heart. What if I'm gonna give her some grief later?
The stars looked at me, then reached for my hair that slightly covered my face.
“Everytime I feel tired, I'll be here. I became energized again. My tiredness is still there, but I became able to hold it until it felt like I did not feel tired.”
I returned with a smile while looking into his eyes. Being a force for others, that's what I want. I've always said I want to marry someone who makes me strong and I want to make her strong. Such a person was already in front of my eyes. Am I going to waste it?
“Try telling me about Heri,”pinta Kak Bintang.
I straightened my back and lifted my legs up on the sofa. I'm in a cross-legged position right now.
“Heri is narcissistic. The rate of recognition is above average. He always assumed that the girl who invited him to chat would love it. She also likes to tease girls, but I never chatted with her back in High School.” I told her about Heri.
“Loh why?”
“Ogah,”answort. “Males is really dealing with such a person,”apku further,
“But he never invited you to chat?”ask again.
“Never too,”my answer.
“Terus?”
“Well, Heri likes my friend, Ami. So, we were friends with 5 people, Me, May, Ami, Malik, and Son. We're a gang. But Ami did not choose Heri. Wong is like that, yes definitely ilfil,”continuku.
“Keep your friends where now?”ask the Star.
“May in Ambon. He wants to get married next month. Ami lives in Medan. She wants to have a child next month.”I replied.
“You're a single doang, yes?”taunted.
My face turned irritated. Actually, people always say that every time I tell about my friends. Why don't you have a boyfriend? That's what people will say, including my old-school High School friends. And I can't help but be upset to hear it.
“Continue, which guys where?”tanyakanya.
“Putra has died. Brother knows that. And Malik is dead too.” I'm ending. I'm trying as normally as possible to tell the stars.
The star patted me on my forehead slowly. “Failed, Honey. Don’t pretend that you feel okay telling about them. Very easy to see your face.”
“Yaaah kirain successfully nipu you,”balasku. I'm glad he didn't force me to be okay. I smiled at him. Genuine smile.
“How can I know you in the hospital?”ask the Star again. The talk about Heri hasn't finished viewers yet. He had to know everything first and then he would stop. I'm certain.
“From May. He moved to Jakarta a week ago. Because there is time, so he cools me,”I replied.
“What does it work for?”ask again. What did I say? He would stop if he felt he already knew all the information about Heri.
“Army. He's a freak to know, brother. He used to exclaim UKS, but instead became a soldier. Tau it would be mending as a scout,”iksku. I shook my head thinking back on his behavior.
“Loh, why be a soldier?”
“I don't know either. Not too,”agakuku.
The star suddenly smiled at me, then hugged my body. I was automatically surprised by this treatment. After a few seconds, he let go of his embrace. His sight is still on me.
“Apaan was hugging. Opportunity in your narrowness,”benkku.
The stars still look at me with a smile on their face. “I'm glad you didn't meet Heri,”ucapnya.
I was amazed to hear it. That alone makes him happy? It's funny this star. He really is like a child. The little things make him happy. Especially the big thing? Is he not already soiled?
“Kakak kayak little boy tau. Small things just for sister happy?”manya curious.
“Iya. Everything related to you makes my sister happy,” he replied.
“Gombal just keep going,”balasku lazy.
“Serious brother, Ai.”
I brought my position closer to her and tilted my body to the left to look at her. “Sister has never been in love huh?”my many. “Iya, right? Aye right?”my God stroked his chin. Then, I rewinded my body and returned to my position that was leaning on the body of the chair.
“Sotoy's. Yes, it has ever been. Only you can fall in love,” he replied sewot.
“Masa anyway? How can you never, ever? Can't believe me,”balasku. I folded my hands together in my stomach.
“You want me to tell you a story, right?”tanyanya. He also lifted his legs to the sofa.
“Iya.”
“Then, hug,”love.
“Ogah. Don't tell me it's okay either,”balasku.
“Huu stingy.”
“Huu biarin.”
The star rests its head on the shoulder of the sofa. He sat cross-legged on the right side of the sofa, while I sat on the left side of the sofa. He set his eyes on me. Then, he pressed on my feet that were near his feet. I put on a dislike face and warned him not to do it again. When did the stars heed my words? He kept pushing my feet. He sometimes laughed lightly when I replied to him, but he was able to avoid it. He's a baby in a doctor's body.
“Main games, yuk,”myaj.
“What?”
“Just answer that. Take turns asking,”I replied.
“OK. You first.”
“What's sister's full name?”my many.
The star heard my question. “You don't know my full name, Ai?”tanyanya did not believe.
“Ngak, hehe. Sorry. I'll know where I'm from anyway? I can't possibly have Doctor Fani, right?” I defended myself.
“Ya pretend to mama,”balanya.
“Udaaah's chat. Answer aja,”my.
“Star Adicandra,”answer.
“That means?”
“Beautiful stars. Fits the guy?”
I made a flat face hearing his words. “Emang sister know my full name?”
“Tau dong's. Arya Princess,”answered.
“True. Now it's brother's turn.”
“What is your favorite food?”
“Fried rice,”my answer. “What jack?”my many.
“Fried squid. Favorite country?”
“Spain. Sister?”
“Same. Tos dong.”
I received the toss. When I wanted to continue the game, my phone rang. The star stood up from the sofa and picked up the phone I had placed on the table near my bed.
“Who?”my many.
“Heri,”it's cold. He gave the phone to me, but he looked annoyed. I'm sure he's the jealous type.
I received the phone and received Heri's call.
Me:
Hello, Heri.
Herr:
Ra, are you out of the hospital tomorrow?
Me:
Ja. Wh why?
Herr:
What'sthetime?
Me:
At 10 am.
Herr:
I'll be there tomorrow. I'll take you home.
Me:
Uh, no need Her. You don't work?
Herr:
Naw. I'm holidaying.
Me:
Just keep on going on holiday.
Herr:
It's up to me. How so?
I glanced at the Star that was peeling the apple. He pretended not to care or what?
Me:
Don't go to the hospital. Come to my contract. I'll send you the address.
Herr:
Wh why? Someone picked it up too, huh? Suit.
Heri's starting to crack.
Me:
Sotoy's. Anyway, just there it came.
Herr:
Okay. Okay. See you tomorrow.
Me:
Okay.
I ended Heri's call. I put my phone on the table in front of the couch. Then, I glanced at the stars. He was watching me. His face looks unfriendly and curious.
“Heri want to come tomorrow to the contract. At first, come here. Kan I know Kak Bintang who wants to anterin to the contract. It would..” I did not continue my words.
Smiling stars. “Iyaaa. Don't be bad with his face.”
I guess he'll ask a lot of questions. I returned his smile.
“After all I wonder how that Heri is,”more.
What will happen tomorrow? I'm sure Bintang will be tired of playing with Heri's jokes. Star is not the person. Heri would also definitely comment a lot about the Stars. Looks like tomorrow's gonna be a fun day. Hopefully they will be familiar.
