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I Love You, Mom

Renjana Kanya's

My mother's condition has not fully recovered. The effect of long sleep makes him dizzy and excessive nausea. Sometimes he also still complains of pain in some parts of his body. However, his lips were always smiling every time he saw me. Even the woman hugged me for so long after the doctor checked her condition. We cry while hugging.

The doctor said Mama's condition is pretty good. His health condition is also stable. It's just that the woman took a few more days to remain hospitalized, so that doctors could easily monitor the state of Mama until finally allowed to go home.

"Thank you, Kanya is going home. Caring for Mama, accompany Mama at all times. You know how scared Mama is every time ... ."

My mother did not continue her sentence. The woman's eyes water again. A soft sobbing sounded from his lips which slowly no longer looked pale.

"Mama's afraid you hate Mama forever, Kanya. I'm afraid you never really want to go home. I get scared every time I think about it."

Mama's getting sobbing. His eyes were puffy due to mostly crying. I stroked the back of his hand that was still weakly drooping beside the bed.

"Ma, yes. Don't think of anything heavy. What matters now is that you need to be healthy. Mama should recover soon. After that, whatever Mama would say, Kanya would definitely listen. Including if Mama wants to be angry even though Kanya, Kanya will definitely listen. Yes, Ma."

The clear water falls increasingly profusely wetting Mama's cheeks. I wiped it while trying to keep smiling, even though I really wanted to cry and rest in Mama's lap. I ask forgiveness for all the wrongs I have done.

"Sorry, Ma. He has been selfish all this time. Sorry that Kanya's been troubling Mama. Making Mama sick, angry, disappointed, even it feels a thousand times Kanya apologized will not be able to pay off the Kanya attitude all this time to Mama."

"You can't say that. However, Mama also has a share of mistakes for everything that happens. Sorry Mama for being so selfish, honey."

I smile. Even with tears that I couldn't bear in the end. The woman held my hand tightly. I kissed my palm and asked him to come closer to me. Mama also warmly kissed my forehead and broke into tears.

"So she's still a princess of pride, Mama. Anyway, Kanya's still a darling, Mama."

"Ma ... ."

My voice was swallowed by tears. There's no word I can say. We just kept quiet and hugged each other and shared the most bitter cries I've ever felt. Even when Mama has not yet regained consciousness, it feels like my crying is not this easy. However, when Mama was conscious and we shared a hug, my cry actually felt so bitter that it stifled the chest.

"Cup ... cup .. Mama's most beautiful child, don't cry anymore yes," said Mama makes me more and more unable to hold back tears. "Already dong, if Kanya wants Mama not cry, Kanya also do not cry ya."

It was my turn to wipe away the tears on my cheek. The woman tried to smile. The smile on her face made the tip of my lips pull upwards. Forms the crescent moon.

"Mama, get well soon. I love Mama."

"Yes, Honey. As long as you accompany Mama, Mama will definitely recover soon. Oh yeah, where's the guy you said you wanted to know Mama?"

"Mama, did you hear when Kanya talked to you?" many doubt.

"Yes, of course Mama heard. Even Mama remembered, whatever Anya was talking about when Mama wasn't conscious."

"Seriously?"

"Yes. All Anya's stories, Mama listen. No one is missed. Start how sad Anya when she knows Mama is unconscious. Until Anya has hope and confidence that Mama will recover and open her eyes. Including Anya's story how while making up with Eka's father. It feels, every time Anya tells a story, at that time Mama wants to wake up immediately. But the truth is it's not that easy to open your eyes. My mom always begged me to get through this. Mama just wants to see you, Anya. Mama wants to hug my beloved. Mama wants us all to come together and be a happy family. That's why Mama always tries not to break Anya's expectations."

"Mama, did you really hear everything Anya said?"

"Yes, Honey. Mama heard all your stories. So Mama was curious, who's the lucky guy who got this Mama's favorite?"

My face flushed as Mama asked that question. I didn't expect Mama to actually hear me while asleep for long enough. Indeed, I once read an article if people who are in a coma should often be invited to talk, so that their organs still respond to the circumstances around. However, I never expected that the effect would be strong enough for Mama. Even the woman was able to hear my voice and keep it neatly in her memory.

"Well, Mama cheated this anyway. How can you hear all of Kanya's stories. Don't-don't Mama fuss at Kanya, huh?"

Mama's smile expands. Wearing the ends of my hair that began to extend beyond my shoulders.

"If only a long sleep makes Mama can hear all the stories, even complained Anya, like Mama willing to sleep longer deh sleep."

"Ma ... ." I was sulking hearing Mama's words. Six days waiting for him to wake up just like waiting for centuries. How could the woman expect to sleep longer.

"Yes, dong's story. Who is that guy? Where is he now?"

I hesitated to look at Mama's face. It was hard to tell about Araz when he disappeared for three days without any news, after driving me home.

"Why? Do you have a problem with him? What the hell's his name? Araz's? I think he also looked at Mama and invited Mama to chat. There's enough of what he's screwing. Just Mama forgot what the guy was talking about."

I smiled in response to Mama's statement. Like Mama said, Araz did visit Mama when I was treated for a day due to lack of fluids. The man went to visit Mama. Say hello and see you again in the near future when you are really healthy. It's just that I didn't think Araz would talk to Mama, too.

"So why don't you want a story now?" tanya Mama looks enthusiastic and curious about the figure of Araz.

"Just feel bad for her, Ma."

"Why? Anya smart, smart even, beautiful, friendly, hardworking, especially huh? It's a complete package. Why don't you feel worthy of Araz?"

"Cliches anyway, Ma. Araz is just too perfect for Kanya. He is a man of all abilities. Very inversely proportional to Kanya. And ... ."

Sentence paused. I could not bear to express my true feelings about the Son clearly to Mama. He just felt happy. How could I possibly say that, right?

"Sanya, listen to Mama. We are looking for the couple precisely to complete our shortcomings. If we look for the same thing, how is it different from us alone? Yes, if he is versatile, it means completing your attitude that must be taught this first. Don't you?"

My smile expands. I hugged the weak body of the woman while whispering in her ear. "I love you, Mom. Anya will definitely tell a story about Araz if Mama's condition has improved. Yea?"

"So, the reason is getting slippery now. Yes already. Mama will be waiting for your next story about Araz. Okay, promise me, right?"

"Yes, Ma. Anya will be well-kept. Sure. Don't worry."

Mama's smile is so bright. Either because of hearing my words or because of a knock on the door of the room and Eka's father appeared shortly afterwards. Their smiles are equally bright.