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He and the Ruckus in His Head and Heart

Renzana Alcatraz

At the beginning of my meeting with Kanya I had time to think that the woman was a person who was easy to get along with. But just a day with him, I know, Kanya is not someone who easily opens her heart to others. In her heart was a terrible wound that she tried to hide from the world. Even from those closest to him.

At first I was sure I could melt the woman's heart. Because long before I met Kanya, there was a story that first came to me about her. Until the heart attached to my body reacted on its own when we met.

But it was not easy to get close to Kanya. The woman deliberately built a high fortress with misleading labyrinths to go to her heart. Kanya even hires Cerberus to stand guard in front of the castle gate he accidentally built.

I noticed Kanya's movements when I met Damar. The woman's voice was suddenly murky when her friend mentioned something about her past. Even during the journey to the city where Kanya came from, the woman was more silent. Look out the window and enjoy the rain. Seeing him so hurt somehow my heart also felt pain. Did the former owner also feel Kanya's sadness?

Until the next day of the new year, I saw Kanya sitting pensively on the porch next to the house of Almira. I don't want to ask why he asked me to stay at his friend's house instead of the woman's parents' house or maybe the hotel. I don't think it's hard to find a hotel in this area even though it's a small town. It's just that I think it looks like he's trying to hide something about his family's circumstances and I don't want to pry that information unless he tells it himself.

The woman was daydreaming when Almira and Damar left home to go to work. He did not even respond to the calls of his two best friends. It was as if he was engrossed in the world he built himself with all the storms and challenges he wanted to conquer. Eventually, Almira gave up and asked me to ask her to talk.

"Beep Anya yes. From the outside, he was strong-willed, when he was originally glassy. Once it falls, pyar breaks. Ajakin chat or where to let him not be a zombie," confided Almira before leaving for the boutique.

"Yes, I'll take him for a walk" I said, convincing Almira though I wasn't sure if she accepted my invitation. Not to mention there are still tasks that I need to complete immediately. The 5th is the deadline for the collection of my report.

After asking me to accompany Kanya once more, Almira finally left with her driver - Mr. Pras. Damar left in another car. Before long, I approached Kanya who was still busy with either what was in her heart or maybe her mind.

"Hey, early in the morning have been daydreaming. What's our plan today?" my broom surprised Kanya. The woman looked at me and looked at the rustling of the fish pond not far from our place.

"I had an interview with him, Mas. How about I make an appointment first? He was afraid he was out of town because this was the moment of the new year," said Kanya still looking at the rustling of the pool water.

"Can. Oh yeah, I'm really fine living in your house?"

"Just relax Mas, this big house fits really if you only fit one person. It's more comfortable here than my house."

Whether you are conscious or not, the woman's voice shakes as she speaks. Like someone was trying to cover it up.

"Why, afraid I thought your boyfriend was?" I asked to try to lure what Kanya was hiding, but the woman still remained stubborn.

"Not that, too, Mom. My house is too small, I'm afraid Mas Aldo isn't comfortable."

When someone moves agitated when talking about the house with a vibrating voice holding anger, it can be ascertained if something is not right. And all those gestures are firmly attached to Kanya. Makes me even more sure if there is an event that happened to make him not want to go home. Is not the house always the port of all fret when we are not necessarily direction?

"I don't have a problem living anywhere. Even if it's not in your house, I can stay in a hotel."

"Almira is just as relaxed as Damar, Mas. Mumpung parents Almira again care for his pond in Kalimantan. So all the names of this house let's not be lonely."

I just smiled in response to Kanya's statement and asked her permission to smoke a cigarette. Even though I'm not a cigarette maniac sometimes need to suck nicotine to get rid of all the fatigue that's clutching my cranium. Then the idea of taking him for a walk according to Almira's message appeared and he responded with a nod after a long time of thought.

Okay, maybe not yet I know what is a storm in your heart and head.

***

Kanya's face is slightly colored when we explore the natural attractions of Goa Akbar which is one of the destinations managed by the local government. Especially when he told me about the legend that developed about the tourist spot.

It is said that a ramps room in the cave, used to be a place of deliberation of the Guardians when spreading Islam in Java. Not only that, this cave is said to also be a hiding place for the Guardians. In addition to this cave, there are also other caves that are allegedly as a place of deliberation of the elect. No wonder if this small town besides nicknamed a thousand caves is also dubbed as Earth Guardians. Because there are so many graves of figures spreading Islam that is still awake until now.

"Mas, there is a myth believed in this place, you see" whispered Kanya as we passed through the pond in the middle of the cave. We could see a lot of coins at the bottom of the pool that were formed naturally from the droplets of stalactites and stalagmites dating back thousands of years.

"Oh yeah? What'sthat?" ask me enthusiastically for the sake of provoking more smiles and stories from Kanya. The woman's eyes sparkled as she spoke to me for the first time.

"Say, if we throw a coin into the pool while saying our wishes, then it could be reality. Did Aldo try?" bargain Kanya while looking for money and hand it to me.

"Can I say anything, right?"

"Yes dong."

"Including my hopes for you huh?"

"Eh?"

"We interviewed the manager first yuk. It's good to create blog content."

"Mas Aldo has a blog too?"

"Yes, it's about my testimony if you've gone out somewhere. I think**** this Traveler. Just not a pro like Trinity."

"Where is the time for the journey of cooperation, Mas?"

"Yes how yes, from the past it has been a hobby of traveling and writing as well, so yes just walk away. Can fit coverage outside the area also lamentable there is additional income from there."

"Well, very hard worker."

"Yes to my future wife who is still working."

"Oh there's someone I like anyway" Kanya's comment made me anxious. How could he be so relaxed if he was the one I expected in silence?

I smiled before leaving him behind. There's still a plan I need to work out.

***

Kanya's intimate chat with a woman made my heart beat fast. Because I was the object of their chat while waiting for Almira's order. The woman suddenly wants to eat martabak and forces Kanya to buy it. Instead of them arguing, I relented to grant Almira's wish. But instead we were both in this cafe after Kanya's friend forced us to leave together.

And now I'm the object of Kanya's conversation with Damar's mother.

"Loh Almira is not your story. Auntie now manages this cafe. Boutique already taken care of Almira so Aunt calm if you want to open a new business. Who the hell is this? Your girlfriend yo? Ganteng loh, a rich Korean artist. What is kuwi jenenge? Gong Yoo?"

I refrained from looking wrong. Many say I look like Jeong Dae-hyeon in Kim Ji-yeong Born 1982 or Seok-woo in Train to Busan, but that's not what makes me uncomfortable. It was Damar's mother's assumption about my relationship and Kanya that made me clumsy. What if after this Kanya gets distracted and chooses to avoid me? Then all the efforts I have made to date will be in vain.

"He's Aldo Aunt. The boss's friend in the office" Kanya replied while introducing me to Damar's mother. Ah, he even introduced me as Aldo which is not my real name. The worse my image is if Kanya knows the meaning of Aldo's greeting. "He was Damar's mother, Mas, who Almira said was to be picked up by Mr. Pras in Juanda."

"Hello Auntie, I'm a friend of Kanya's," I said mimicking Kanya's introduction to Damar's mother despite wanting to introduce herself as a future husband, but if I do that Kanya won't want to know me again.

And again, my name is Alcatraz. Yes the prison is famous for its strict guard system. Not Aldo. How could Hanung know me by that name. In my heart I cursed my own stupidity.

****, you also first mentioned the name Lo Aldo.

"Big yo. Yes, you have not had to date her for a long time. Direct marriage wae, let pepet mengusul Almira same Damar," said the woman made my heart soar.

If only it could be that easy, Tan, my inner self.

"Indeed Almira was saying how are you guys, how about picking up Auntie at the airport?"

"Tan's habit, he's craving people like him."

"Suppose he gave you a moment to be alone."

Ah right too, why don't I think that Almira deliberately set this plan?

I was still busy with my thoughts when Damar's mom wanted to see a guest.

Suddenly silent atmosphere. We are dissolved in each other's minds. Until I broke the silence with a pretty shocking question. Even for myself.

"When do we get married?"

"Huh?"

I laughed at Kanya's reaction. "No need to rush. We still have plenty of time. You must be surprised, too, did I ask?"

The rest of the women chose silence. He was again busy with the world in his head and heart. Closing the gate Cerberus guarded and not allowing me to enter.

For whatever it is, I'll wait for Him, because there are promises I have to fulfill.