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Give Me a Chance

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Tears wet the face of the Son who still looks tangled. He still parked his car on the side of the road and looked at the cold Java Sea. Without ripples, what else is a wave. Even the wind was mute as if supporting his heart. Thinking of Kanya always made the man sentimental. Too many wounds that can not heal once washed.

The thing that made Putra even more hurt, Kanya never gave him the opportunity to correct the mistake. Although he himself was actually doubtful, what mistake made Kanya so hate him. Even when Eka - his father - and Mama Kanya decided to get married, the Son was also among the suffering people. He had tried his way to keep the marriage from happening. But Kanya decided to leave.

All this time, the son never stayed silent. He always tried to find traces of Kanya wherever the woman was. All the friends that Putra had never escaped he asked. He even made an announcement on social media over Kanya's departure. The woman did not return.

While their parents continue to hold marriage under the pretext of the baby candidate who is in the stomach Sukma must have a father figure. No matter if two hearts are broken and one chooses to disappear. No wonder the woman did not come home at her mother's wedding. Even if the Son insisted not move from his seat, merely to wait for the appearance of Kanya.

If only I could

Stop the time for yourself

I will not let your heart hurt

Forgive me for not being able

Give happiness only to you

Believe me, you are one in your heart

Give me time

To understand yourself

Back to our old story

Do I mean nothing to you anymore

Lost that love for me

Please...

Stay put don't you turn away from me

A song played on the local radio made Putra's cries even more scattered. He remembered the day he created the song. Armed with the application on his smart phone with his hands still infused, he created the song with lightning. Then record it.

On the same day that Kanya decides to leave, she sends the song before Kanya's number is off forever.

The son shrank tears from his face. The man took the device out of his pants pocket and looked for a name that was always at the top of his favorite list. A year ago he managed to force Almira to provide a contactable Kanya number. Although he managed to get the woman's number, the Son still could not touch his heart.

Sounded like a connecting tone. But as before, the phone always ends with a tuuttt tone.

The man opened his chat room with Kanya. Things he often did during this one year, but always ended up in a message that piled up without ever getting a reply. This time the Son did not expect more when sending a message to Kanya.

Give me a chance to explain everything that happened. After that whatever your decision, I will accept.

There was no sign yet of the message the Son would reply to the woman. Not even read.

The face of the Son was getting frustrated. In what other way he could touch Kanya's heart even just to apologize. If Kanya does choose a man who is not herself in the future, the Son will try to be willing. But if the woman still does not ignore it certainly makes her heart hurt. And how can he let Kanya go if the name of the woman is still permanently attached to his heart.

Kanya's. The name of the woman is like a opium that makes the Son always sad when he remembers her. Names that leave wounds, but also drugs that are able to heal simultaneously. The name he always called while delirious, even when he prostrated lowest on the ground.

Kanya's. A name that could make her smile and cry at the same time. A name that could make his life meaningful, but also ruined on the other side.

Gawai Putra rings. His heart seemed to stop beating when reading a name printed on his mobile screen.

Kanya's.

"Hello Kanya."

"What else would you like to explain Put? I don't need it and please don't ever interrupt my life again."

"You need to know everything that's going on."

"What's? The fact that requires me to give up my own parents because she is already pregnant? The fact that she miscarried because she was too stressed and made them even more inseparable? Or the current condition where my parents are pregnant with your future sister? What else do you want to explain? I know everything, Put."

Kanya's voice shook as she explained to the Son. The man was shocked when Kanya found out about everything. Even the man does not know if Sukma is now pregnant again.

How selfish of those people. Letting himself and Kanya crumble to the nadir. If it was like this, how could he blame Kanya for choosing to leave the house?

At first, Putra stayed in the house because he wanted to welcome Kanya to go home. He wants to be in place if Kanya needs a shoulder to lean on. Or the place to plant all tired. But the reality that exists, really makes the Son more torn apart. He no longer knows what to do. The son was so ashamed of Eka's attitude that it was so easy to destroy Kanya and himself. He was disappointed in Sukma who only thought about his happiness and sacrificed the feelings of his son.

"If there's nothing else you need to do, I close."

"wait. Can we meet once? There's really something I want to say to you."

"Ck, are you stubborn anyway? What other facts do you want to reveal?"

"Everything you tell me doesn't explain how I feel, Him."

"It's none of my business anymore. We're done, Put. You can't deny that."

"I love you, Him. Never changed."

"And we are too cowardly to go against a current that is too swift. Let me or you drown. We can't swim together towards the edge. Because for me it hasn't been us since I've decided to leave."

"Give me a chance to fix everything from scratch."

"Repair what else? Do you know what I mean by not talking about it?" Kanya's voice tone was rising. His emotions are always drained when he talks to the Son. "Lo will accept whatever my decision is, right? From now on, please don't assume I ever existed in your life. Even if destiny will play around and bring us together, you will meet the new Kanya. It's not Kanya you've ever known. That's an opportunity I can give you the same."

The phone immediately disconnected as Kanya finished her sentence. The wound in the Son's heart is getting worse. If only there was something he could do right once.