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Smile, Until the Sun Sees You

Renzana Alcatraz

Maybe I was overreacting. Excessive way I love Kanya. Overdoing my way of wanting to protect the only woman I have in my heart. It is also excessive to want to be with him all the time. He wants to have time for himself. Especially when Aunt Sukma has been transferred to the ICU room with all kinds of equipment attached to her body and can only be guarded by one person.

Initially, Om Eka insisted on wanting to keep Aunt Sukma. However, Kanya with all her stubborn nature asked Om Eka to come home. Invite and I who want to accompany him tonight. At least the woman is still there to look after him even on the hospital porch.

"No, Mas. Araz just went home with Dad. I'll take care, Mama. Even if you are here, Mas Araz also cannot be in the room. Where is Araz waiting for me? Already, Mas Araz come with me just go home. I can take care of myself."

I looked at Kanya's face that looked haggard. The woman looked pale. Due to the accumulated sadness also often cry. Moreover, his body also refused food intake. His appetite seems to be lethargic as his spirit fades more and more in sadness.

Last afternoon, when I took her to the hospital cafeteria, Kanya only ate half a bowl of soto served. He said his tongue was bitter. And refused when I ordered the warm sweet tea to restore his strength. He reasoned that at night he would look for food when hungry.

In fact, until my return and Om Eka, Kanya did not eat a bite of rice at all. He refused my invitation when he offered her dinner. Again he said he would look for food if he was hungry.

"Below there is a mini market, Mas. I'll find something that's filling. Already, you guys just go back. I'll be with Mama, tonight. Don't worry Dad, I'm fine. Already, you guys go back there!"

"But you've run out of long trips, son. There should be more rest than, Dad."

"Dad took care of Mama for a few days. Must be just as tired. Tomorrow morning change Kanya's rest, but tonight please, let Kanya take care of Mama."

The woman is still stubborn. Even so, at least I am grateful for one thing, the events that are happening at this time open Kanya's heart to accept Om Eka's presence as a father. Their conversation towards the afternoon ended with a warm embrace and the faint heart of Kanya received the figure of Om Eka in place of her biological father.

"Take yourself. That's it, Araz's dad came home, right?" pamit Om Eka only answered a slow nod by Kanya.

"If there's anything, be quick. You can also chat me anytime if you want. If you are sleepy, go straight to sleep. Don't get sick!" my advice is to make Kanya's smile expand.

"Yes, Mas. You're a real drag. It's back there. Waiting for Dad, no." Kanya pointed with the chin of the figure of Om Eka waiting behind the door.

"Yes, I'm back."

"Yes, Mas. I told Damar to take Mas Araz's stuff home. He said he wanted to go on the way. Maybe he's home now."

I smiled in response to Kanya's statement. Before coming out of Aunt Sukma's room, I kissed a glimpse of the woman's head.

"Take care of yourself, don't get sick" I said making Kanya's smile again fluffy. I like to see him smile a lot.

"Yes, Mum."

I actually left when Om Eka opened the door and took me home. Leaving behind the listless-looking Kanya and returning uninspired as I stepped out of the room. If so, how can I leave him alone?

***

My eyes cannot be closed. Almost 12pm when I glanced at the clock on my watch screen. I tried to send Kanya a message, but there was no sign of her reading the message I sent. My feelings are uncomfortable. I'm afraid something has happened to Kanya. Especially when he remembered he had not eaten anything since noon.

Alcatraz

Kanya, are you asleep?

Alcatraz

Yeah, everything's fine, right?

My message has not been answered. Until a notification appears on my screen. Message from Kanya.

Anya

Not yet, I'm still awake. Sorry, I just got HP. From there Mom talked.

I don't dispute Kanya's statement. According to one study, he said to stimulate the awareness of people who are in a coma, I need to often invite him to talk. Maybe that's also what Kanya did to make Aunt Sukma soon wake up.

Alcatraz

If you're tired, rest, yeah. Do not force to stay awake. You also do not get sick.

Anya

Yes, Mas.

Alcatraz

So what did you eat?

There is no more reply. I waited for him for a long time, but still there was no reply from Kanya. Bad thoughts are bothering me again.

Ting ...

A message made me rush to unlock the screen. Hope Kanya sends the message, but it is precisely the name of the Son that appears. A little lazy, I opened my chat room with the man.

Mahameru's Son

How's Kanya doing, Bang? She's okay, isn't she? I asked Papa, but there was no reply until now.

Alcatraz

Don't worry, Kanya's fine. There's me.

My reply without further ado. I know, in the future Son will definitely be my brother-in-law if Kanya wants to be my life companion. Even so, for some reason there are still feelings of unwillingness when knowing the fact that the vocalist Nada Sumbang, will be part of my family in the future. Moreover, the fact that Kanya was once a lover of the Son. Really, this is a strange bond that happens. And, I never imagined at all being bound in a situation like this.

Ting ...

Mahameru's Son

Thanks for taking care of Kanya for me, Bang. If it was you, I could really be willing to take off Kanya. Sori, I can't deny that I still hold feelings of affection for Kanya. But from this second on, I will truly let Kanya go. I know, he deserves to be happy. And it's just with you, Bang. Sori's.

Son's long confession left me in shock. It turns out that the man who claimed to have been willing to accept Kanya as a younger sister, is still a threat to me. My chest is pounding. The heat suddenly spread throughout my body. I'm jealous. To my boyfriend who was his ex-girlfriend.

My watch screen is still on. Opening my chat room with Son without me knowing how to reply. That man's statement really made me stare. It even felt like my brain suddenly could not be invited to think clearly.

Mahameru's Son

Sora, Bang. I didn't mean anything by saying this. I'm just grateful you found each other. And, I'm more and more convinced that you can strengthen each other. Anyway I saw how desperate Kanya was when you disappeared all of a sudden. In the past, he never worried about it when I accidentally disappeared. I know, you guys are sincere in love with each other. Then I will stand by my role as the sister who supports you.

Oh, my God, what did my son mean to say all this to me. At present. Chat room and don't tell me directly. Is this some kind of test?

Frustrated I ruffled my hair and decided to go to sleep. Not intending to reply to the message of the Son who momentarily announced that he would return home. I don't know, I don't know how to behave or deal with that guy.

***

The knock on the door kept me awake for a moment. The sun has broken through the window. My eyes still feel heavy. My head feels dizzy too. I don't know at what time I can really sleep. Kanya's unrequited message, as well as the Son's sudden confession, left me unable to sleep all night.

"Son, are you awake?" Om Eka's voice rang out from behind the door as I tried to gather awareness.

"Yes Om, I'm awake" I said, not wanting to make Om Eka wait for an answer.

"I'm sorry to interrupt your sleep, son, but we need to get to the hospital right away."

The voice of Om Eka was heard again. I rushed to the door and opened it when Om Eka said I was going to the hospital. For some reason, my feeling of saying something bad happened to Kanya.

"Why, Om?"

Raut Om Eka was shocked when I heard my question.

"How did you know that Kanya .. ah, forget it. Sometimes love has a magic way." Om Eka smiled while looking at me. Then he said with a serious face, "She fainted. The nurse who treated Sukma, found Kanya unconscious while checking her condition. He was taken to the emergency room. Om should be there soon as a guardian close to Kanya."

My brain is unable to properly digest the information that Om Eka conveys. However, I rushed to snatch the jacket lying on the side of the bed and followed the steps of the man who had gone first to the garage.

During the trip we were more silent. My mind is still filled with how Kanya is currently. I wanted to ask, when was Kanya about to faint until the sisters found her, but could not tell. If the disturbing bad thoughts from last night were true, it would make me even more guilty of Kanya. Why don't I insist on staying.

"Swimming, Son. Trust me if everything's gonna be okay."

"Yes, Om."

Not long after the car driven by Om Eka's personal driver turned to the hospital where Aunt Sukma was treated. I rushed down when the car hadn't really stopped. Behind me, I heard Om Eka yelling to ask me to wait. However, my steps were increasingly rushed towards the receptionist to ask where Kanya was being treated.

A nurse escorted her to where Kanya was lying, just as Om Eka entered the emergency room. The man followed us from behind and immediately left while making sure Kanya was still not awake. He said he would take care of the administration so that Kanya could be transferred to the treatment room immediately.

Before long, Om Eka was standing next to me still holding Kanya's hand. The man patted me on the shoulder.

"He's exhausted. His body was lacking fluids and his blood pressure was quite low. The doctor said, soon he will be awake. Soon it can also be moved to the treatment room," said Om Eka explained.

"Thank you, Om."

Just as Om Eka was about to move, Kanya's eyes moved slowly. The woman woke up. His gaze was fixed on Om Eka, then on me. Smile weak.

"Thank God you're sober, son. Araz was so confused when he heard you passed out. I told you, if not strong, don't push yourself. So you have to be treated now too" said Om Eka could not make Kanya refute. She just kept quiet and listened to her father.

"Sorry Kanya, Dad. Kanya also did not know that would faint gini and even ngerepotin Dad."

"Dad doesn't feel you're repotin. Most importantly, you are healthy. Araz, Om, please take care of Kanya. Om would like to see the situation of Mama Kanya first," pinta Om Eka after saying to Kanya.

The man asked for permission, then left us both in the ER room. Some of the sisters were still preparing a room move for Kanya and asked us to wait.

After Om Eka left, I touched Kanya's forehead slowly. That girl's been worrying me since night. And, early in the morning, it made me worry when I found out that he was not doing well. I want to feel like I'm scolding Kanya. However, he was no longer a child who deserved such treatment. Anxiously, I could only kiss the woman's forehead after arguing with her.

"If you've reached your limit, rest, Kanya. I don't want you to get sick. You must always be healthy to support the recovery of Aunt Sukma," I said again soften while tucking the children's hair behind Kanya's ears. The smile of the woman expands. Before our lips finally clutched together.

"Mas Araz is a real fad. What if a nurse comes in?" kanya asked as soon as our lips no longer met each other.

"Just be wild. We're not breaking the rules, are we?"

"Iihh ... that obviously disturbs the general comfort, Mas."

"But you like it, don't you?" I asked to tease Kanya who was already blushing her cheeks. My smile expands. Women are the most beautiful when they blush.

"That's a hell of a whim" he said, holding a timid smile.

"Continue smiling, My. Smile until the sun is envious when you see your smile. For there is a light besides its rays that reaches the earth."

"Oh, start again. Mas Araz is really a hobby of gombalin girls, right? It feels really expert make that seduction?" ask Kanya pretentiously pretend to sewot even though in reality she still smokes a smile.

"Barusan's not a fight, miss. It should be more smiling so that positive energy always envelops you. Look, you look better after you smile."

Kanya threw away her face. I know he's hiding a laugh.

The tip of my lips also slackened. In my heart I promise, I will keep the smile on Kanya's face never fading.

You are so beautiful when you smile, she is. And I'm willing to replace it with anything you keep smiling. Keep smiling, Him. Smile until the sun is envious if your smile is brighter, even warmer. Smile, remove all lara to be happy.