"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Look at Mother

At school, we are getting ready to go to the hospital. We had lunch, then we left. Mas Elang made an appointment in advance with Dr. Gilang, who happened to be serving in the hospital.

Arriving at the Hospital, we went straight to the room of Doctor Gilang who was not busy, because this is right with the clock adjacent to home. All patients are treated.

"Assynnya!" greetings at the same time. Doctor Gilang who was working on the file turned his head, and apparently was waiting for our arrival.

"Waalaikumsalam," he said, welcoming us. "Hello, Yes! Whatchur?" greet Doctor Gilang greeting Sya who is spoiled in the hands of Mas Elang. Sya and Doctor Gilang are already very familiar, because Mas Elang and Doctor Gilang were friends since college.

"How, what does Lady Eagle feel now?" asked Dr. Gilang while telling a Nurse to help me lie down in the *bed* examination. I lay down to follow the Nurse's direction, and the Nurse revealed a little bit of my boss's shirt to apply a special ultrasound gel.

Fetal heart rate can not be felt, because my gestational age has just stepped on one month. The heart and other organs have not yet been formed, but so far the condition of my fetus is good and healthy.

"Dok, this morning I felt a cramp in the stomach, is this not going to be why?" I asked to recount my complaint this morning with curiosity and fret.

"That's okay, this condition is common. The cause is because there is growth in the uterus, it can also be due to hormonal changes. And this is only natural," explained Dr. Gilang dampened my fear.

"For her husband, if you want to relate, be careful not to get too excited, so forget that in the stomach of his wife there is a fetus. Connecting every day is legitimate, as long as you see first the condition of the wife, if the wife is tired then do not be forced," recalls Doctor Gilang addressed to Mas Elang while smiling meaningfully.

Mas Elang understood, he returned Doctor Gilang's smile timidly.

"Remember El, don't get too excited. Know limits!" doctor Gilang's sweat directly in front of Mas Elang. Mas Eagle scowled and patted Doctor Gilang's familiar shoulder.

"This thing, the Cave knows its limits," stalked Mas Elang while smiling wryly.

After the examination, Dr. Gilang gave a prescription drug to Mas Elang that must be redeemed.

" Okay, Doctor Gilang we'll excuse you. Anything else to say?"

"Ohh, there is no Eagle, for today is quite so. Take care of his wife!" doctor Gilang's sweat does not get bored reminding Mas Eagle. Again the Eagle smiled wryly.

"Ok, Bro, cave into Mama's room first. Mama is being treated at this Hospital, in the Nusa Indah room," Mas Elang news.

"Gua, get there when you're free. Ok, bro, the cave continues back this remaining work." "Yes, congratulations, yes, will have a new sister," continued Dr. Gilang while opening the door for the three of us.

"Ok, Bro, thank you in advance. Cave, farewell, yes!" said Mas Elang ended our meeting that afternoon.

"Come, Doctor!" I cried before leaving Doctor Gilang's room.

Out of Doctor Gilang's room, we went straight to the mother's room. Different one hallway from Doctor Gilang's room. Arriving in front of the nursery, my heart suddenly thumped. Mas Eagle who noticed my tension, immediately grabbed my hand to give strength. Sya, who had been led by Mas Eagle, took my hand. Finally I was flanked by my two heroes towards the nursery.

"Waalaikumsalam" he answered.

"Den Eagle, Non Tone .... !" he said hello to us.

"How is Bi, Mama's condition, it's been realized yet?"

"Already, Den, even the Madam already wants to eat. But, eat it a little," Bi Narti explained.

"It's okay, Bi. What matters is that you want to eat."

"Oh yes, Bi, today Bi Narti is coming with us home. Mama let Bi Inah take care," break up Mas Eagle. Bi Narti nodded in understanding. Meanwhile, the mother from when we arrived until half an hour later had not yet woken up as well, perhaps the effect of the medicine she was taking.

Half an hour later, my mother woke up. What will happen when you wake up, I'm still guessing? Actually I was worried waiting for my mom to wake up.

"Mrs, do you want a drink?" Bi Narti's voice was heard asking mother something. I immediately looked up to mean to approach mom. But Mas Eagle waved his hand, giving a code so that I don't get close first. Mas Eagle tried to give a pause to the mother to be fully aware, not in a half-and-half state.

Maybe Mas Elang tried slowly to bring me to meet with mother, afraid if I was met by mother ngedrop again. I have to wait patiently for that moment. Mas Eagle approached the mother and regretted it. The mother who was greeted by silence had no sound coming out of her mouth. I became surprised, why mother was silent and not as beautiful as usual.

I was only able to observe from 3 meters away, and tried to hide my body behind Bi Narti's body. I saw Mas Eagle whispering in Mom's ear, but she was silent. Not long after, Mom made a sound but her voice was not clear.

"Ol, Ol .. "I don't know what I just heard was like calling El but what came out wasn't El. Mas Eagle held Mom's hand, I saw Mom talking to Mas Eagle. From what I've seen, it's like I had a stroke and I can't speak clearly. To heal, it takes approximately a year of healing through the therapeutic path. And during that time you are forbidden to eat fatty foods and contain cholesterol.

The new fact is revealed, apparently Mother had a stroke on the right. His speech was slurred and chaotic and unclear. I was not strong to see it, I wanted to cry to see Mother who looked sad when talking to Mas Eagle, but Mas Eagle had difficulty understanding Mother's words.

I immediately approached Mother, with or without being accepted by Mother, which obviously at that moment I had to try to apologize so that I felt empty and did not feel sinful. At that time Mas Elang tried to hold back but I did not care, anyway the day I had to greet Mother.

Arriving near Mom, I immediately grabbed a hand

Mother and regret it. Mother glanced at me at a glance then she focused back on Mas Eagle who was in front of her. What a sad state, in such circumstances Mother still holds resentment towards me. I have to think positively, so that my pregnancy does not experience stress.

Mas Eagle gave a code to take us home, because Bi Inah has come. We say goodbye to Mom. I went back to regret it, even without an answer.

"Bi, we go home first! If there's anything, call me right away," bitterly as you leave the nursery room. Out of there, Mas Elang showed his gloomy and sad face. I also feel what Mas Eagle feels.