"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Arrival of Father, Jealousy of Mother

"Just go, baby!" pamit Mas Elang while kissing my forehead then tiptoed and passed after Sya who was at the dining table. But just two steps, Mas Eagle suddenly turned his body and came back to me again.

"Why Mas?"

"Some are missing" the reason.

"What....!" The eagle has already closed my lips quickly. Soft and old.

"Mas kangen... when can Mas travel again to the paradise of the world? Since you left and miscarried Mas must be willing to endure that desire."

"I'm sorry Nada Mas, but the doctor says wait a month until Nada's uterus is completely dry and healed."

"That's it... I can't wait. Why wait that long?"

"It's only been a month!"

"But kangen very dear, you end after this pain more beautiful and make Mas do not want to be far from you," he said seducing full of desire and kiss my lips again.

"Cupp.... !" the kiss was in exchange for Mas Eagle's desire that could not be channeled. "People love very much with you. You don't be naughty yes RHYTHM TONE!" his memory while poking my nose bangir and emphasized the word Nada Irama as if I really like being naughty. The kiss ended with the voice of Sya calling Mas Eagle from below.

Mas Eagle really went up and down the stairs. The fragrance of her perfume that wafted in the air made my sense of smell crave longer. And when Mas Elang went out the door with Syapun, the perfume still smelled.

Today Sya can go to school even though sometimes her legs still look limped. Vigorously, she said goodbye and did not forget to kiss both of my cheeks. The two of my favorite men on the road together exactly*twins* but different generations. Handsome and equally have a strong charm. Yes, that cute and smart boy is always adorable and always makes my heart happy.

"Come on, breakfast first." Suddenly Bi Narti came and brought me my morning breakfast. For the next week I have to rest completely, forced to eat alone must be delivered to the room by Bi Narti. If I force it, then I will get angry with the Eagle. Mas Eagle was overprotected after I miscarried this.

"Thank you Bi!" I said while sitting on the sofa. "Bi Narti has breakfast by the way?"

"Already, Non... Auntie had breakfast. Non Nada want Bi Narti bribe or alone?"

" Himself Bi, this is no longer limp like yesterday. It's just that the pain in the stomach is sometimes still felt."

"Patience... Non.. the name of miscarriage must be recovery at least one month. After that Non Tone must have returned to normal.

"Then, excuse me, Non. There's still something Bi Narti wants to do." Bi Narti said goodbye and immediately moved on.

"Bi. if the work is done, Bi Narti just rest. The same middle room behind the house doesn't need aunty mop every day, sapuin alone."

"Non Nada don't worry about Auntie, Auntie is already a regular Non," Bi Narti replied with a smile.

"I mean if noon is done work, Aunt just take a break. Sleep on the cake, don't feel bad about me!"

"Yes, Non. Aunt understands. Excuse me, aunty!" Bi Narti went out of the room.

After Bi Narti left, I immediately ate a mouthful of Bi Narti's porridge that tasted good. For a while my food during the healing process was porridge. I obey the word Doctor, after all I want to get well soon and do not want to*bed rest* long-time.

At about 10am, our doorbell rang a sign that a guest was coming. And the bell stopped as the sound of people approaching the house sounded.

"Assyn....!"

I heard the greeting of a man I seemed to know. "Like the voice of the father!" gumanku.

It was not long before Bi Narti came and informed him that there were guests. His guest turned out to be father. I was happy and excited until I stood up and wanted to go see my father below.

"Non...don't.... !" prevent Bi Narti. Instantly my stomach was cramping back. I sat back down to relieve the pain of cramps in the stomach.

"Shhhh....!" my hiss endured the pain from my stomach.

"That's right Auntie said as well, Non Nada don't get out of the room, so the cramps are felt again," Bi Narti recalled feeling annoyed with me who sneered.

"Yes, Bi. Thanks very much. If you can ask for help, you just tell me to go to my room Bi. You're here to see me."

"Good, Non. Waiting for ya." Bi Narti went back down and seemed to have told him to go upstairs.

Not how long you appeared and immediately I greeted with joy and moved. "Mr.... !" pekikku while hugging the approaching Father with both hands stretched out.

"Have Son... I'm glad you've come home and returned to your husband's house, now more importantly you should focus on your health!" Said my father trying to calm me down.

My crying had begun to subside, and my head started to look up. "Sound father? Why don't you, Nadly, come?" my many.

"Sound father. Nadly your sister's at school, she's having a daily replay at her school. So he's been busy lately with his school" said the father.

"How are you doing, son? Patient, I don't want you to have much thought. Now you have to focus first on your health, and do not think about things that can make the mind so sad and disappointed," recalls Mr. trying to calm down.

"Tone will focus on the health of Tone, sir! Pray for Nada to recover quickly and the uterus for a completely normal tone."

"From now on don't leave the house if you fight, solve your problems well and head cold, don't be selfish. As long as your husband doesn't cheat and flirt, then you remind him not to leave your husband's house!" remember my father hard and hard.

"Yes sir, Nada will try to suppress the ego of Nada. Thank you Father for coming to visit Nada and advise Nada," I said as I grabbed the hand of the Father and struggled spoiled.

Two hours later, my mother suddenly arrived. Mom went upstairs and went to our room. When I entered, I was no longer surprised to see my father. He immediately stood up and wanted to greet Mother, but Mother did not welcome the hand of the Father. Father sat back and hid his embarrassment over Mom's indifference.

"Mother.... !?" my great-grandson looked up and greeted Mom. Mother accepted my hand but quickly released it when it had just reached my lips.

"How are you, Madam Sri?" He asked in a polite tone.

"I'm good news, that's why I can come here to see your son. If not seen, I will instead blame my son, later he thought I would not want to see the wife of my child," replied Ketus mother. My late answer just made my heart ache, but I tried to harden my heart, 'don't baper Nada'."

I looked at the Father who happened to be looking at me, I gave a code with a sad look at Mother's attitude, but the Father winked giving a code so that I do not get carried away with emotions.

"How is Nada doing you?" ask Mom still with fashion judges.

"It's still a pain in the stomach and cramps, Mom!"

"That's why, if the husband is angry, don't try to run away from home. It became this way, your pregnancy finally became a victim. Fucking miscarriages!" it was without feeling.

"Maybe this is fate, Madam Sri. We as parents can only pray good for our children and ghosts," the Father replied to Mom's words.

Not long after, Mas Elang and Sya went home. I was happy to hear Mas Eagle coming home, like getting a fresh breeze after receiving a hurricane from Mom. Mas Elang and Sya went straight into the room that still has a Father and Mother.

He immediately rushed towards the Father, the handsome boy seemed to miss the Father.

"Grandfather....!" he said while hugging the Father who was ready to embrace Sya.

Mas Elang who saw the Mother and Father, directly approached the Mother and shook the hands of the mother, then approached the Father and greeted the hands of the Father with reverence.

"Sir, when is it coming?"

"So morning Nak Elang, around 10 am," said the Father while being held by the spoiled Sya.

"Yes...to Grandma no greetings, huh?" Suddenly Mother interjected, then she immediately came down and approached Mother and kissed her hand.

"Yes, change clothes quickly. Ask Bi Narti to prepare her clothes, after that go straight down, we have lunch with Grandpa and Grandma!" the Order of the Eagle that was directly obeyed Sya.

"Okay, Papa!" She went to her room not forgetting to greet me who was sitting leaning on the bed. I smiled proudly to see that Sya was so obedient and adorable.

"Ma... When did it come?" Now it was Mas Eagle's turn to say hello to Mother.

"So El, about an hour ago. Mama brought pudding for your wife. Later let Narti cut it for your wife," said Mother showed her attention that I think tumben.

"Yes, Ma. Thanks," said Mas Eagle.

"Come, Sir. We'd better have lunch first. The eagle is hungry. Ma, come!" Invite the Eagle to Mom and Dad. Mr. following Mas Elang's invitation, they went down and went to the dining table. While Mom was late. After Father and Mas Eagle had gone down, Mother slowly approached me and said.

"Look at my son, he can be nice to your father! But you, can't be nice with me" Mother said as she walked out of the room leaving me suddenly claustrophobic and hurt again. Again Mother made my heart ache and has not sincerely accepted me. I was just being nice in front of Mas Eagle. But behind him is different again.

I tried to rub the tight chest and comfort the sad self. As you said and Aunt Mirna said, as long as Mas Eagle does not cheat and play hands then I have to try to survive. May I be strong. And the roar of these tears was not restrained when remembering the attitude of the mother earlier.