"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Proof of Love

The tone was still slumped on the bed, while the Eagle passed and came out of the room. His heart ached being treated harshly by the Eagle. What is the proof that the eagle really loves him? Just because he mentioned his ex-wife's name alone, that angry Eagle.

Tone stood up from the mattress and headed for the bathroom, the pain over the Eagle's treatment was still so pronounced that while in the bathroom he was still wailing miserably. Half an hour passed, Tone came out of the bathroom. He stood in front of the mirror looking at his pitiful self. Moist and pale. His heart whispered if Mom and Sonia saw him like this then they would be excited, then Nada sat in front of the dressing table to improve his pale and puffy look.

Some time Nada pondered, wanting to feel determined to leave her husband forever. However, what mistake did the Eagle make that was the reason he had to leave? It's her husband's house, and Nada doesn't live in the house of the Mother-in-law who is like the witch. So why did he have to leave and stay away from this house? If he goes, where does he go? To his father's house in the village was afraid. Afraid of the state of the household that always pestered his mother-in-law known to his father. And Nada was afraid it became a burden of mind for her father.

The POV Author End

Finished polishing my puffy and pale face, I walked towards Sya's room, since that boy I haven't seen yet. And apparently she's still sleeping. Strange, this boy always sleeps when his parents are in a cold war or storm. Maybe I shouldn't see a fight between his parents. It means the quarrel between Me and Mas Eagle. I am grateful in my heart.

I went back to our room, I suddenly missed my father and wanted to call him. I tried calling my dad in the village. When I tried to call, my father picked him up.

"Assalamu'alaikum Sir!" my regards. He returned my greetings with a happy voice.

"Wa'alaikumussalam, son! What are you saying there?

My conversation with my father flows like water. Immediately I was able to forget for a moment my sadness because of Mother and Mas Eagle. Even when I talked to my sister Nadli, I was able to laugh happily. Nadli told me about his school and also about Mas Eagle who likes to give him pocket money which is entrusted to the father.

For a moment I was stunned to hear the words of Nadli who was always given pocket money by Mas Elang, such as the attention of Mas Eagle to my family in the village. Is this proof of his love for me, with the help he always gave my little family?

At the end of our conversation suddenly my father said.

" Nada, say the same to your husband Son Eagle. Do not send money to the father every month, the business of grocery and tire patch is quite good and rame now. The remittances that the Eagle Boy gave me were more than enough. Please son, tell Son Eagle not to send father money. I am so grateful to you, Eagle. If you speak, you may be heard. You are embarrassed to continue to receive remittances from Nak Elang," said the father at length.

I paused for a moment thinking about everything my father was talking about. Is the Eagle really that good and really love me? All those questions are now in my brain.

Day turns night, dinner time comes. With my heart still in pain, I brought Sya down to the dining table. Here I am required to continue to give affection to Sya without bringing up angry feelings towards Mas Eagle. I can, because I love Him.

Mas Elang who came home when I looked at Adzan Isya last night, immediately cleaned up and prepared for dinner that we used to do as usual. While Grandma Magic and Mak Lampir do not see the trunk of his nose. I don't think they're both staying here because of Mom's insult to me earlier.. Maybe Mom's embarrassed or Sonia's uncomfortable, I don't know.

At first glance I saw Mas Eagle stealing towards me who was busy preparing food to the plate Sya. I did not take the initiative to pour anything on Mas Eagle's plate like I usually do, I was indeed disappointed in Mas Eagle. So that dinner today feels different, quiet and gripping.

"Sone....!" My steps halted for a moment, then quickly Mas Eagle was already standing beside me. "Yes.. go up first, Papa would like to talk briefly with Mother," orders Mas Eagle who immediately obeyed Sya.

"I'm sorry, for my rude attitude earlier," clearly sounded in my ear the apology. But to me it feels discordant. Without looking I ran a little after Sya to her room. I don't want to stare at Mas Eagle's face at all.

I managed to put Sya to sleep after a while I told her a story. At that moment I also lay on his side and began to string. But I did not fall asleep, suddenly Mas Eagle grabbed my waist and hugged me from behind.

I was silent without flinching, I did not respond to Mas Eagle's reaction, my anger the rest of this afternoon was really still imprinted.

"Move on. I miss you!" the whispers make my feathers they. "Come on Nada, I'm sorry for my attitude. I really don't want to be rude to you" he said, kissing my forehead.

"Come on. I'll prove, if I marry you it's not for my flatterer like what Mom's been saying. But I really love you," urged Mas Elang again as he lifted me up and took me to our room.

In that room the romantic atmosphere that I used to feel, now no longer. Only a sense of disappointment and sadness that is increasingly felt, Mas Eagle selfish just want to desire alone. I immediately grabbed the glass that still had water and intended to take the Pill I used to drink. But as fast as lightning had already been struck by Mas Eagle, he snatched it from my hand. What does it mean I don't understand.

"No longer do you drink this, I will prove that I married you not because you were satisfied with my bed, but rather...."

"No Mas, unfortunately Nada is no longer interested in having children from you....!" The eagle just heard my words.

"What do you mean?" Mas Eagle looked at me behind the dim light of the table lamp.

"Nada did not want to have children like Mas Elang always asked for," I said while recapturing the Pill that was held by Mas Elang's hand.

"What do you think Nada, I've really thought carefully that I want to have a child from you" she said.

Then violently Mas Eagle repeated his actions again, forcing me in a state of heart and mind was in a state of turmoil and did not want to serve him. I can only shed tears without enjoying the game.