"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Quarrel 2 (Go)

"No, my God, that's not true. Nada never tired of taking care of Sya or taking care of Sya. Nada really loves Sya," I said once again.

"Why don't you get tired, you don't go far from my life. All the way until I can't find you."

I cried as Mas Eagle spoke like that, really Mas Eagle really does not understand me. Why didn't I go so far back then, just like Mas Eagle said just now? Just because of the love and the chance that Mas Eagle could understand my feelings, that was the reason I was still by his side. But Mas Eagle didn't feel that in me at all. I became confused by the attitude of Mas Eagle like this. It is fitting that Mas Elang used to be deceived by Mbak Mayang, because Mas Elang could not judge and feel the true feelings of his wife. Who is sincere and who is evil.

"Mas... The tone also has a limit of patience. Nada had been too patient in facing Mas Eagle. Even when Mas Elang repeatedly deliberately showed the affairs of our bed in front of Madam Sonia or even mother. Every time we do that, Mas Elang seems to have an element of intent so that our actions are known to mother or Sister Sonia, which consequently the mother without sin tells us about our bed activities in front of her friends. How many times has it happened Mas, and it was Nada felt Mas Eagle deliberately wanted to hurt Nada but through mother's mouth," I said with breath down. There is no use for me to hold on, because Mas Eagle seems to no longer want to understand.

Mas Eagle as if emotion heard my words just now. She clenched her hands and went back to hit the things on the dressing table, so that now it was getting messy and the contents of some of them came out scattered everywhere.

I was stunned and scared, my chest that seemed crowded could no longer see Mas Eagle raging like that. I immediately stood up and picked up my HP that had fallen. What was in my head right now was to get away from Mas Eagle. I grabbed the bag I had hung behind the door and exited the room past the angry Mas Eagle.

I slipped and limped through the door and away from the room and down the stairs with a bitter cry. All I have in my head is to go and go.

"Non Tone....!"

"Mother....!"

Bi Narti and Sya casually called out my name. The sympathetic and sad look of the two emanated. I shrunk my tears, I stared for a moment at the two people who were always concerned about me.

"Bi Narti.., take Sya and Mas Eagle!" I said sadly, after that I immediately left without waiting for Bi Narti or Sya to speak. I went out through the front door, after which I walked rather quickly towards the gate.

In front of the gate Mr. Nandang greeted me.

"Non.. sorry, where are the nights alone. Didn't you just come home with Den Eagle?" ask Mr. Nandang while confused.

"I go first Mr. Nandang" I said as I walked quickly. After passing through the gate, I quickly sped up my pace and wished there was a taxi I could intercept. But the taxi I was expecting hasn't shown up yet. But, maybe good luck is on my side. Suddenly in front there was a gojek passing by, I quickly waved and intercepted it.

The gojek stopped right by the roadside and rebuked me. "Sorry, what's wrong, ma'am, want to talk?" tanyakanya.

"Yes, Sir. Can I do it without an app?" For a moment Mr. Gojek was pensive and thought.

"Can, Ma'am. But it would be nice through the application. No gojek app?" I shook my head quickly.

"Yes already, it's okay Ma'am. Let's go up and get the helmet." Mr. Gojek gave me his helmet to wear. Gojekpun left, but suddenly stopped.

"To the terminal, sir!" replex. And the motorbike without waiting for a long time rushed towards the destination I mentioned earlier. Just a few meters from where I was riding the gojek, I was like seeing my mother's car passing by. I'm sure you'll go to Mas Elang's house.

Half an hour later, the gojek stopped at the terminal I was heading to. I immediately went down and gave my helmet to Mr. Gojek while paying the gojek fare.

"Thank you very much sir" I said as I entered through the terminal portal. In the crowded terminal, I immediately headed to the bus ticket purchasing counter. But I am confused where am I going?

Suddenly when I was confused, my HP rang and a call from Mas Eagle called out. I refused to pick it up, and I immediately took the call. But a few seconds later the sound of the WA notification was heard, and it was from Mas Eagle. I opened it and read it.

"Darling... Where are you? Don't go far! I'm sorry I fought with you, I'm sorry. Come back!" Fill in WA's message from Mas Elang.

I didn't answer it, then the WA message came in again from Mas Elang.

"Go home, tomorrow I come to pick you up. Clear and calm your mind. Please do not go far away from me. I still need you and love you!" the message with sad emot.

I immediately closed my HP and turned it off. Now I have to focus on leaving Mas Eagle, I don't know how long. What is clear is that my departure is due to emotions that have not been restrained.

I'll be at the bus ticketing counter immediately. I got a ticket that leaves at 9 p.m. It just happened to take an hour to wait for the scheduled departure of the bus I was riding.

At 9 pm, the bus I was going to ride was already in front of the terminal yard. We passengers who are almost 75 percent of the full load, enter and occupy their seats respectively. I happened to occupy a seat near the glass on the left side.

The bus runs slowly after the bus crew checks the passengers there are already all corresponding tickets. On the bus, my sadness was growing. I suddenly felt very sad leaving Mas Eagle and Sya. The Eagle I love so much, and the One I love so much. But the quarrel had already broken my heart because of the attitude of Mas Eagle who never understood my feelings.

"Assalamu'alaikum, this Aunt Nada. Tomorrow Nada is going to aunt's house. Auntie's at home?" WA message sent to aunt Mirna father's only sister who happens to now live in Yogyakarta with her husband.

I don't think about going to father's or Ms. Marisa's house. Even to aunt Mirna's house had just been thought of earlier when after buying a ticket. It just so long ago I didn't meet Aunt Mirna. This is when I came to him, but when my heart was sad and troubled.

"With your husband Nad....? Yes, aunt wait. Auntie, it's so good that you're coming. Be careful on the road." Aunt Mirna avenged Waku.