"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Bakti Mas Elang, and My Regrets

A week later the mother can really go home, the mother's blood pressure is also normal and the doctor allows the mother to be treated and can do physiotherapy outside the hospital hours. The goal is to recover the health of the mother quickly. The doctor said the mother's stroke can still be cured by diligent therapy.

I resigned with the wishes of Mother who had wanted to be cared for in our house, the reason to be close to her son. I'm sure Mas Eagle hears mother's request more than I think about my feelings. But as a wife who must obey, I resigned what was decided by Mas Eagle. I was also forced to understand and give up. But the situation is different now. I was pregnant and I felt a bad feeling constantly, the innards were sad and sensitive.

But Mas Elang who is thought to have come from the hospital and brought mother home, apparently has not appeared. Suddenly I thought no. I'm trying to send a WA message to Mas Elang.

Five minutes, ten minutes to an hour, Mas Eagle is not retaliating WA from me. I became very nervous myself, and I finally let my HP lie on the bed. Then I went down the stairs to the flower garden behind the house.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, the roar of Mas Eagle's car engine began to sound. I stood up from my seat in the back seat. The voice of Mas Elang's greeting was already heard, and Shia's chant was also there. I didn't come straight. I still enjoy the rujak made by Bi Narti earlier which feels good and refreshing in the back garden.

"Mother ... !" the scream of Sya was able to stop me who was chewing the rujak. Then immediately I spent the rujak then followed Sya and Mas Eagle up.

"Shy ....!" call me while heading upstairs.

"Mother ....!" He screamed again and approached me. I grabbed him and took Sya to his room. Bi Ijah deftly prepared a change of clothes Sya and prepared to take Sya lunch. The three of us went down to our lunch.

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At nightfall, Mas Elang was caught talking on the phone in his study, but I don't know who. Intentions wanted to ask the state of the mother, but Mas Eagle was still busy. Since last afternoon I thought of a mother who was not brought into this house. Relieved mixed sad actually. But how else, in fact Mas Eagle did not bring mother to this house.

In the phone conversation I accidentally heard, Mas Eagle was talking about mom. The mother was apparently treated at her home with the help of a Sister who was ordered by Mas Eagle. All kinds of costs Mas Eagle who bears, including Therapists who are brought directly to the mother's house.

"I don't want the relationship between my wife and my mother to get worse, especially now that my wife is pregnant young. I persuaded Mama to give in and seek treatment but to stay in her own house." The conversation on the phone ended.

So Mas Elang seduced mom to be cared for in her own home, even though she wanted it in our house? How sinful I am, for my sake Mas Eagle desperately seduced the mother to be cared for at home and finance all the medical expenses of the mother and the Sister who cared for her. I had misjudged against Mas Eagle, who I thought would sacrifice my feelings for the sake of mother's will.

Apparently Mas Eagle still thinks about my feelings and the safety of me and my fetus, that's why it doesn't let the mother be cared for here, even though the one who cares remains Sister and ART.

"I'm sorry Tone, Mas. Tone was already wrongly guessed against Mas Eagle!" my mind is sad and sad.

I immediately moved from behind the door of Mas Elang's office after seeing Mas Elang standing up and was about to leave the room. I immediately headed to the room and pretended to clean my face in front of the dresser.

The door of our room slowly opened and entered the figure of Mas Eagle. I pretended to be busy washing my face with cotton. Mas Eagle kept his HP on the dressing table, while Mas Eagle went into the bathroom. The gurgling water signifies Mas Eagle is bathing.

For a moment I felt sad to read the incoming WA from mom on the HP Mas Eagle screen. Apparently mom still hates me even though she's sick. I feel guilty about Mas Eagle, for my sake Mas Elang willingly in hardik mother.

Mas Eagle came out of the bathroom wet, with a towel wrapped around his waist. I quickly headed to the bed, after preparing Mas Eagle's pajama. Pretend you're ready for bed. Mas Elang put on the pajamas I had prepared, then went up to the bed to catch up with me and lay down. This time I should try to ask how mom is doing, whether Mas Eagle will be honest or not.

"Mas, how's mom, you're home from the hospital, right?" tanyaku ventured while lying next to him with his head prodded spoiled on his shoulder.

"Mama's gone home. The situation still has to be treated every day so that Mama can recover quickly and can go back," replied Mas Elang while fiddling with his HP. It could be Mas Eagle is reading WA from the mother I had read on his HP screen. Seeing Mas Eagle's grim face, I felt guilty with Mas Eagle. Because I once refused mother to be cared for at Mas Elang's house.

"Mom didn't ask for treatment in this house, Mas?" I asked while hugging Mas Eagle to hide the guilt for my attitude that once refused mother to be treated here.

"No .. You don't think about Mama. Mama's been taking care of everything, Sister, the cost, and everything. So, Mama just wait to heal," replied Mas Elang while saving his HP back on the dressing table earlier.

I feel so sad to see Mas Eagle grim like that, this must be because of the WA message from the mother earlier. But Mas Eagle tried to hide his sad feelings for me.

"So great is your devotion to Mother Mas, responsible and never wanted to hurt mother in the slightest. And now Mas Elang denied mom for the sake of thinking about my feelings. Selfish tone here, Mas. Tone of apology," suddenly these tears could not be contained, fortunately Mas Eagle had turned off the main light with a dim table lamp, so that when I cried was not seen by Mas Eagle.

"Heiii .. You cry?" The Eagle realized I was crying and framed my face with his hand and shrank my tears. "What's wrong?" The question only made me more tears. Guilt and regret accompanied my crying.

"Excuse Tone, Mas ....!" I whispered in my heart while slipping my face on the chest of Mas Elang.

The next day, while taking Sya to school, Mas Elang deliberately drove me to the hospital to be examined for pregnancy. Thank God the condition of the fetus that I carry is healthy and good. The doctor only gave me a nausea reliever to take when the nausea was felt.

"Thank you, Doc!" said Mas Elang while reaching for my friendly hand and creeping it to take me home. The car driven by Mas Elang drove out of the hospital area splitting the road to go home.

Really I feel happy with the attitude of Mas Eagle from last night. Mas Eagle is very attentive even though the depth of his eyes is still stored sadness because of mother.