"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Sya Merajuk

"Non Nada, it's back apparently," Bi Narti scolded from the kitchen when she saw me coming out of the bathroom.

"Yes Bi..," I said short.

"Non Tone want to make a drink?" haggar Bi Narti when he saw me sitting at the dinner table.

"No, thank you Bi. I want to make my own ginger tea," I said as I moved to Pantry and brewed a ginger tea sachet that is ready to brew, quite able to eliminate headaches that suddenly come.

I went back to the dinner table to enjoy my ginger tea. Suddenly the Eagle and my mother-in-law came together. I stood up and immediately shook my mother-in-law's hand.

"Mother... when will it come?" I asked just a pleasantry, pretending not to know that my mother-in-law has been in this house since.

"Since you've gone to interracial...!" my mother replied not friendly.

"Mom's had breakfast?" kikuk. Mother did not answer. This kind of attitude has been shown to me since I got married and set foot in the house of Mas Eagle. It's normal, but the pain is always there. And I have to try to mentally prepare like steel, especially my mother-in-law does not like me. Even more painful, I once brought a 5-year-old woman over me. Beautiful, fashionable and from among socialites. Mother intended to match Mas Eagle with the woman, but Mother knew Mas Eagle had married me, at that time our marriage was only a month.

"El, Mama go first. Mama had an appointment with Sonia. Mama's driver has arrived in front of the gate!" mother-in-law said in a hurry. Mother said goodbye to Mas Elang without looking at me who was about to greet Mother. I could only sigh deeply holding his chest tightness.

Mas Elangpun went quickly to his room without looking at me. Wonder why the Eagle behaved colder than usual. I followed him and intended to ask for a change in his attitude.

"Buck...!" my broom when I see Mas Eagle leaning on the bed.

I went up to him and sat on the edge of the bed next to Mas Eagle.

"Mas, why can't Nada take Sya back to school? I was sulking and a little angry when I said that from tomorrow I won't be taking the school!" I asked for an explanation from Mas Elang.

"I just want to be independent, not have to depend on anyone anymore" replied Mas Eagle flat.

"Didn't you ask me to quit my job before marriage, so I could focus on him? But now you're not allowing me to take her to school, why is it?" I ask you more and more curious.

Before marrying Mas Elang, I did work in a large Supermarket in this city, as a warehouse supervisor. But since I got married, I was asked to resign. The reason is to focus on the same family.

"Had said, so that Sya is independent and not spoiled and does not depend on each other anymore!"

"But I'm not someone else Mas, I'm the Mother," as I stared at Mas Eagle in wonder.

" Why have you changed Gini anyway Mas, since today?" my many.

"There is no need to ask too many questions. He will understand himself. He's a smart and obedient boy" replied Mas Eagle got out of bed and went out of the room.

"Mas...., is it because of the presence of Sya's mother, Mas changed?" my many who succeeded stopped Mas Eagle's steps and turned towards me. Mas Eagle walked towards me, his face turned full of anger.

"Whatchu mean? Sya's mother? You know where Mother Sya came from?" The Eagle gripped my hand strong, speaking loud and strong.

"I remind you, do not mention His mother in front of me, especially in front of Sya," he said full of threats. My hands were brushed aside violently, then Mas Eagle passed by with long steps.

I was stuck for a while and confused at the thought of all the changes of Mas Eagle.

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At half-hour two in the afternoon, Sya came home from school. But it turns out that the one who picked up was Mas Eagle.

"Mother..., Mother where?" sya's voice screamed all the way to the top of our room. I came out of the room and greeted Sya who was caught up the stairs.

"She..., have you come home, baby?" I embraced the tiny body of the handsome boy full of kangen.

"Mother, why don't you pick up Sya at school with Papa? Mommy doesn't love her anymore, does she?" his headset while embracing my neck was strong.

I was confused to answer what the 5-year-old boy was, especially in front of us was Mas Eagle. Let the Eagle try to explain it, he knows why.

"Come on. change clothes first. After that, Sya had lunch huh, hold Bobo's lunch!" take me to lead Sya's arm, heading to her room next to ours.

"Mother has not answered the question, why did Mother not pick up Sya earlier?" tanyanya stopped our steps.

"Mother was busy, baby....!" sahutku lied.

"Here you are, now change your clothes and have lunch. Bi Narti will prepare his lunch," said Mas Eagle. She silently scowled, her face instantly bent.

"Come, baby...!" the bujukku. Sya, finally want to follow me and walk towards her room with her face still bent.

At lunch, I didn't seem excited. Mas Eagle who understands why Sya like that tried to persuade him. Finally he wanted to eat, after Mas Elang persuaded him by luring dinner together outside, later tonight. Finally Sya ate voraciously interspersed with her adorable babble. I saw two of my favorite heroes with haru, what a harmonious relationship between father and son.

After lunch, I immediately took her to her room for lunch. Not long after that, I fell asleep. Just as I was about to lay my body beside Sya, Mas Eagle snuck in and pulled me out. The eagle took me to our room. I know what Mas Eagle wants.

While in the room, Mas Eagle immediately locked the door. I no longer wanted to serve him because of this morning's problem when he grabbed my hand. When there was a wish, it was certain that Mas Eagle was kind to me and treated me sweetly without ever apologizing for the mistakes he had made.

"Mas, don't you go to the restaurant anymore?" I'm distracting Mas Eagle.

"Don't distract Mas deh dear, Mas kangen," he said rasak while laying my body on the bed.

"Have you been drinking yet?" ask the Eagle. I understand what it means, every time we want to have a relationship, Mas Eagle always reminds us of that first. Though I was most lazy to drink it, because the effects of nausea I always felt after drinking it. For the sake of filiality to Mas Elang, inevitably I obey him.

"It was last night, he drank quite once. Later in the night, I will drink again" I replied. Mas Eagle was satisfied with my answer, so without waiting for long he launched his action. Finally we were that afternoon, doing a great struggle that was equally fun.