"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Tone Crying and Regrets

Tone out of the bathroom with clothes that have been replaced. His eyes fluttered looking for the figure of the Eagle, but not the tone. Not how long Nada smelled the aroma of cigarette smoke that stung and made him dizzy head. Tone is looking for where the smell of cigarette smoke comes from. When Nada turned to look towards the balcony, apparently from there it came. Tone saw the Eagle staring at the sky, then occasionally smoked a cigarette and his smoke deliberately toyed into the air.

Nada's heartbeats are getting tighter, athletic body, tall, which is behind him as if looking at him. Rushing Nada took the mucena that was on top of the closet, then performed the nearly exhausted Maghrib prayer. In his prayer Nada did not get solemn, his mind branched thinking of the Eagle's suddenly cold demeanor. Of course Nada realized it, this all has to do with him being caught talking to the opposite sex. All this time the Eagle did not like Nada talking to other men.

Not too long to pray, the sound of the balcony exit sounded slowly. Although slowly, but able to arouse a sense of sensitivity in the ear of Nada. Two minutes later Nada ended her prayer.

When folding the mucus to be stored back, Nada felt her chest tight, her feelings were also unpleasant. Nada suspected the Eagle was in bed, but the Eagle came out of the room. Nada did not know what the Eagle was doing. But when his eyes search again for the figure he is now afraid of, apparently the Eagle is not in bed. "Where is the Eagle?" ask in the heart.

But then the sound of the door of his room was opened, and the figure of an eagle appeared. Tone approached and intended to kiss the Eagle's hand but the Eagle dodged.

"I want to talk, about the incident I saw at my colleague's wedding, '" Eagle spoke directly to the point without further ado. The tone now looks pias save fear. That's how if he feels guilty, then Nada will show a worried and pias reaction.

"I'm disappointed in you, not only disappointed because you were chatting with a man who knows who, but there is something that makes me more disappointed than that." The eagle paused for a moment. While Nada wondered inwardly, what other mistake other than her chatting with her childhood friend Nadie that made Mas Eagle angry and disappointed?

"In addition to not being able to maintain honor when the husband left for a moment, there is something worse than that and it hurts my heart." The eagle stopped again and set his breath. While Nada guessed what other mistake he made so that the Eagle spoke like that? Hurt heart? The tone of mana can hurt the Eagle intentionally.

"You don't think my mama is there anymore, when she's in front of your eyes. You pretend you don't see it and walk away. And what's so outrageous and this hurts my heart, when you get back from the toilet, you deliberately turn to avoid Mama. But you're just talking to another guy."

Nada's heart immediately stopped beating, his gelagat had avoided his mother-in-law apparently known Eagle. Tone was confused as to what he should say and gave an excuse.

"Nada. It was after coming from the toilet that Nada felt nauseous and wanted to eat ice cream as much as fruit soup!" Tone gave an excuse while looking down, his voice slightly trembling keeping in fear.

"Lied. I know you're lying! A made up excuse! Where are you going with your parents, and that's my mom? You are too selfish, letting resentment and hurt get inside you. Though I have given you the opportunity and space to introspect each other, but what I see, you are like a vengeful person," denied the Eagle is full of emphasis so as to make the tone does not wart anymore. Giving another reason is useless, because the Eagle already believes that he deliberately avoids his in-laws.

The tones are more tight he feels depressed, so the tears that had been detained now flowed profusely on his cheeks. Admit all the words of the Eagle were true, traumatized and vengeful as if it had possessed her when she had accidentally seen her mother-in-law at her husband's colleague's wedding.

Nada also regretted, why his father's advice he did not use to always respect his mother-in-law even though her mother-in-law hurt him. "*If your mother-in-law**insult or hurt you, let it go. Remain**appreciate him. After all she is the mother of**your husband*!" His father's words were now ringing in Nada's ears, clear and felt real. Why did Nada not follow his father's advice which was clearly correct? Tone is very sorry.

Suddenly Nada ran and rested at the feet of the Eagle. She was truly sorry that she had avoided her mother-in-law earlier. Though what is difficult he reprimanded or regretted it.

"Mas... Tone of apology, Tone of wrong. Admit Tone is wrong. But all that Nada did was just to avoid the mother so as not to say words that are no longer in front of her friends that will make Nada embarrassed. That's the real reason for Tone, Mas. Nada was already afraid if mom would scoff at Nada again. Tone of apologies Mas!" said Nada pleaded with a voice that shook accompanied by sobs. Nada hoped that the true reason for Nada would be acceptable to the Eagle.

The silent eagle stared as if it had not heard anything Nada said. What was clear was that Nada's treatment really hurt her heart. Nada deliberately avoided Bu Sri who was still in the crowd, and Nada turned to the right to avoid her.

The eagle saw clearly, when he had just discovered the existence of Bu Sri a few meters away from him. At the same time, the Eagle saw Nada from the direction of the toilet towards the table they had occupied, according to the belief of the Eagle. The eagle hopes Nada reprimands Mama when passing by earlier, but the alleged Eagle misses, apparently Nada turns after knowing Bu Sri is still in the crowd.

The disappointed eagle and heartache especially Nada even coolly accompanied a young man chatting. Jealousy and heartache immediately lodged in the chest. The very disappointed eagle was really disappointed.

"There's no need to apologize to me because it's all for nothing, you should apologize to Mama. I've given you guys a long time to introspect each other. With 3 months of not seeing each other, I think in your heart you can forget all the frustration and heartache, but my guess seems wrong," firmly Eagle while clasping the hand of Nada who holds both knees.

"Mas, forgive Tone Mas! Tone please, Tone is very sorry!" pinta Nada begged but the Eagle would not listen. Then the Eagle passed to Sya's room without turning his head again Nada who was still calm with a crying voice that was now heard.

"Mas..pardon Nada Mas....!" shouted Nada did not accept being left without an apology. Nada approached Sya's door, but the door was locked so Nada could not open it. Tone disappointed and thrust his body behind the room's connecting door.

"Nada is really sorry, Mas, the wrong tone has avoided mother. Tone is so sorry!" it was still accompanied by sobs.