"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Knowing Mom's Sick

At night, I saw the Adhan Isha being heard. He woke up and looked for his father. Before the Maghrib came, Mas Elang sent a WA message, asking Sya. I was a little disappointed because Mas Eagle only asked Sya, not all of me. I feel sad not to care about Mas Eagle.

"Mother... Where's papa?" He asked while glazed. I told Sya that her Papa was on business for a while. Then I took him down to dinner who knows Mas Eagle will be home soon.

After dinner, I went back upstairs and hoped Mas Eagle would come soon, but the roar of his car engine was not heard. Yes, I told you to go to the bathroom first to clean yourself and brush your teeth. After that I took her to bed to put her to sleep. But because I woke up around 7 a.m., Sya so hard to quickly sleep even though I had Nina bobokan with a story. This I used to ask about where Sya and Mas Eagle were yesterday.

"Yes... yesterday came home from school where did I go, and Sya the same Papa slept where?" ask slowly. A moment of silence, but not how long.

"Yesterday Papa to the Hospital, Mother. Papa is very sad until Papa cries," explained Sya as her body shows people are sick. I was shocked and felt guilty immediately.

"How was Nene then, Sya?" manyworry.

"When the same Papa came, my grandmother was lying down and wearing an infusion hose" replied Sya, which made me even more surprised. My chest instantly seemed tight.

"Oh Allah, let the mother. If anything happens with mother, I am the one who feels the most sinful because I have wronged mother," my mind prayed with sadness.

Mother's shadow was lying in the hospital as if dancing in my head. I was sad and really feeling guilty. In any case we often do not get along, but hearing the news of my mother being sick I am also sad. Although I was in a state of sadness, but I had to immediately put Sya to bed, because time was crawling the night.

"Will Mas Elang stay at the hospital or go home?" mind wondering. Then I tried to call HP Mas Elang, but Mas Elang did not pick it up.

Not long after she slept, after I told her a story before sleeping again for her. At 10 pm more than 10 minutes the roar of the car engine Mas Eagle sayup-sayup sounded. I was deliberately waiting for him and did not pretend to sleep again, hopefully Mas Eagle went straight into this room instead of into Sya's room.

My hope was not in vain, Mas Eagle turned out to enter our room. He seemed surprised to see me still sitting on the lip of the bed and the lights were still on.

"You haven't slept yet, how come, he's not looking for me?" he asked with a sad and tired face. I approached him and shook Mas Elang's hand and carried him into my arms.

"She's sleeping Mas, she was whining asking you, "I replied.

"I take a shower first, my body is sticky and sultry. We sleep together again, here," he said, breaking my arms. There was a sense of happiness when Mas Eagle said 'we sleep together again, here', it means tonight we will sleep together again. How happy my heart is.

Finished from the bathroom and using the pajamas I had prepared, Mas Eagle immediately turned off the lights and replaced with the usual table lamp every night illuminated us dimly. My heart suddenly thumped as Mas Eagle started to climb onto the bed which was now slightly swaying. Suddenly I felt like it was night first for us, but I had no idea what Mas Eagle would do after getting on this bed.

Mas Elang still guerrilla launched his attacks with vigor, and I accepted it with joy even more I wanted it. And finally our relationship ended with the body of Mas Eagle who drooped limp with a face that is still misty pleasure.

"Come on. sleep, Mas is so tired. Cupp....!" he said, landing a long kiss on my lips before putting his whole body on the bed. We slept together again with a very tight body and again shared the warmth as before. Intention I want to ask mother is also forgotten because the actions of the two of us who are both drunk with passion.

At dawn, I tried to get up from Mas Elang's close embrace. But the Eagle woke up. Someone woke up with him. Then without compromising first the dawn attack at dawn had Mas Eagle launched.

"You miss dear, just once before the dawn bath!" please do not wait for my approval. Scooping my lips and giving a warm feeling like he did last night. This time Mas Eagle did it more relaxed and soft, yet equally made to float.

In the morning, the sound of birds squeaking each other. Mas Elang had been relaxing on the balcony with cigarette smoke flying in the sky, after which each other scrambling to immediately rise in the sky. I was a little sad and disappointed, because my heart was not sincere Mas Eagle smoked that much. It's not good that he's done since my departure to Jogja. Sometimes there is sadness, because I Mas Eagle even lifestyle unhealthy. Cigarette smoke is not good for passive smokers especially for me who is now....

I immediately went to Sya's room intending to wake her up. But in Sya's room there is Bi Ijah preparing Sya's clothes. It just so happens that today Sya is not in school because it is Saturday, and Sya is off. Maybe Bi Ijah had been opened by Mas Elang, so that Bi Ijah could enter Sya's room.

"Mother... I've taken a shower. We'll look at Grandma Yuk!" babble Sya while looking at me with excitement. I welcome Sya's invitation with a nod. But the Eagle said nothing last night.

"Come on Mother, let's take Papa....!" pull it while pulling my arm towards my room and Mas Eagle. When I entered I still saw Mas Eagle on the balcony by throwing the last cigarette butt that was still in his hand.

Sya ran towards the balcony and opened the balcony door and approached Mas Elang. Mas Eagle was a little surprised to see Sya running towards him. Embrace it.

"Papa. let's look at Nene, Mommy also wants to look at Nene," said Sya without being able to prevent. Mas Elang looked surprised to hear Sya chattering just now.

"Come in....!" he led us into the room and suddenly crouched down in front of Sya. "Yes. go down first with Bi Ijah who, Papa would be in vain. We'll have breakfast before we see Nene. Ok, Yes!" bujuk Mas's. The eagle that Sya no longer denied, then Sya was ushered out of the room.

"Bi Ijah.. bring Sya down first!" yell at the Eagle. It was not long before Bi Ijah came and brought Sya down.

In the room now there was me and Mas Eagle, Mas Eagle invited me to sit on the bed.

"You must want to ask what Sya mentioned earlier, right?" I'm nodding.

"Mama is sick and is now being treated at the hospital. I didn't tell you because it's not important to you. I know in your heart there are still wounds because of Mama's actions, so I have no intention to tell Mama is sick," explained Mas Elang as he took a deep breath as if holding a heavy burden.

"But really Mas Eagle assesses that cruel Tone Mas, Nada also has a heart and feelings. Although the mother once incised a wound on Nada, but Nada is not as bad as it does not care to hear the mother is sick. Now take Nada to visit mom. Tone wants to see it," I asked with teary eyes.

"All right, I'll take you. But on condition that you have to accept even though Mama's attitude is not good with you," appealed Mas Eagle to give me a warning. I nodded at the ready sign with whatever mom would give with her attitude.