"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

The Most Defending Brother

Back To POV 1 (Tone)

Finally that night after Isya, I was escorted by Nadly, my sister went home to Mas Elang. There was actually a sense of hesitation to go home. Because, it has been two days Mas Elang came home from the father's house, Mas Elang no contact at all. Maybe because he was busy and panicked to take care of the mother who fainted and had to be taken to the hospital.

The Grab we were riding was walking on the streets of the capital that is always crowded at night. Nadly, my very defensive sister sat beside me with her hands holding my arms, from the moment I got into the grab, she led me into the grab carefully, she said, afraid of the baby why-why she said. So moved by my little brother, he was so protective. The soul of his protector has been shown since childhood, he always helps the late mother wash dishes and sometimes just cook tailing mother. That's why Nadly can cook at least for himself.

"Why is Kak Kayak so sad? Sister again pregnant do not think sad, later the influence you know to dede the baby," recalls Nadly while looking at me suspiciously.

"No, you're not sad, but you're moved" I said.

"Truly why the hell, brother?" ask Nadly to investigate.

I did not answer, if I talk about Nadly later instead say 'Sak Nada is more, mediocre times, Kak'. She was, always responding that casually, and I felt deeply moved by her humble and humble demeanor.

"Sister, just shut up. Asked yes answered!" snapping Nadly, but did not discourage my attitude to remain silent and not answer Nadly's question.

"Nad, you're the same brother, why?" That silly question just came out of my mouth, which Nadly laughed at. It might feel funny to Nadly.

"Haha .... Brother nanyeeee, brother beranyeee .. gini yes I replied .... !"

"Stop .. what the heck Nad, the style is so very, Dilan not, KW also not. You were following Dilan KW, sebal know ....!" I said raising my hand, cutting off Nadly's now hanging speech.

"No, it's the same with me, yes I answer."

"Not so she replied, Nad. You've apparently been carried away by the Alif cepmek virus, nothing by the way digituin!" my sergeant was sorry to see my brother Nadly follow the style of one of Tiktoker's viral because of his cepmek.

"Handering dong, Brother. Nada Kayak hasn't known me since childhood. I like to joke. This part of life is not too serious or sad, so it must be balanced. I see, sister," said Nadly looks like a mentor about life only, even though he is still an onion, the school just wanted to graduate this year.

"Yes, I have answered the question seriously Kak Nada. I was afraid that Kak Nada nangis if brought joking continues, hehe .. I love Kak Nada as much as I love my late mother. Because the mother is no longer there, so as her replacement, yes, Kak Nada, although Kak Nada is not my mother," replied Nadly a little serious, although still peppered with her typical jokes.

"Try if you're still around, sister. I'll make mom happy. And I will make you always smile life to old same father," he turned lethargic like save a deep longing for our mother who has gone home.

I grabbed Nadly's hand, then hugged her flanking between my hand and my body. Really Nadly the figure of a man who will be responsible and love the same family, that's what I catch. That's why I'm so dear and moved by Nadly. His protective soul was always present at every opportunity. Although the talk is sometimes spiced up with jokes, but in the end the talk is always about and can be accounted for.

I hope this one and only brother will be happy and successful in his career. Nadly had to be successful, because all school fees were borne by Mas Eagle without us asking. As a form of responsibility, Nadly must learn earnestly and harder, so that later she will not be held accountable in front of Mas Eagle.

Not felt, the grab we were riding had arrived in front of the gate of Mas Elang's house. The time showed at 8:30 p.m. Nadly immediately went down and grabbed my hand and took it out, and then I swept it away.

"Thank you very much, sir!" my words while giving the cost of grab to Mr. Driver.

"Together, Mother!" reply while reapplying his grab.

In front of the gate I stared as I stared at the gate, as when I first entered the grab, there was a hesitation to enter or knock on the gate. But before I knocked, the door opened. Appeared, Mr. Nanang opened the gate.

"Thank you Mr. Nanang" I said with a smile.

"This is Nadly, my sister from the village. He deliberately drove me because I was worried it was night," I introduced Nadly without question. Mr. Nanang smiled and nodded. I'm in on Nadly's tail.

"Assalamualaikum.... ! my greetings echoed in front of the door of Mas Elang's house. Some moments seemed quiet, Bi Narti and Bi Ijah did not hear his voice.

" Non Tone .. has come, Non!" exclaim Bi Ijah from the direction of our attic. I think Bi Ijah put Sya to sleep. I became very confused with Sya, it felt like I wanted to embrace her immediately.

"Yes, Bi ... Alhamdulillahot. And this is my sister, Nadly. He deliberately drove me, because he was worried about me going home alone" I explained.

"Thank God, Non ... !" In that case, let Bi Ijah prepare a room first for his sister Non Nada. For a moment. But ... Better Non Nada dinner first with her sister, Bibi will prepare. Pity the long journey, cape, and must be hungry" said Bi Ijah understandingly. And I'm sure I'm hungry.

After cleaning up and having dinner, I went back upstairs. While Nadly went straight to the room Bi Ijah had prepared. I immediately went to Sya's room, because I haven't seen her since. Apparently in Sya's room there is Bi Ijah who is still waiting.

"Bi Ijah, I haven't seen Bi Narti since, where is Bi Narti?" many wonder.

"Bi Narti to the hospital, Non, invited Den Eagle to wait for Madam. But, it is only temporary, because later Bi Inah will be replaced," explained Bi Ijah.

"Ohhh, so, huh, Bi?"

"Yes, No."

"If it is, has it not been fussy all this time?"

"It is precisely that, Non, Den Sya fussed continuously since Non Nada left. He also wanted to join Den Elang to the hospital, but Den Elang forbade it. Forced to hold Bibi, despite crying for a long time," explained Bi Ijah making me sad. I immediately approached Sya and looked at her shoulder face.

So, my departure doesn't make things any better. Am I being too selfish, carried away, or a crybaby? Forgive me, Mother, Yes. Mother is too selfish and does not think about your feelings. Mommy thinks too much about the pain of Mother because of Grandma, even though here She is hurt because Mother left.

I cried a little in front of Sya's sleeping body, I'm really sorry I left without thinking about her feelings. But why do I feel so lost, when I am not her real mother?

Half an hour later, my eyes felt very sleepy. I finally slept next to the one who had fallen asleep. Wading through dreamland, and hope after waking up I will meet a very beautiful reality.

The voice of Azaan reverberated with each other, I woke up to immediately carry out my duty to the Almighty. For a moment I looked at the sad face of Sya. There is a sad murat there, my heart feels sliced, considering that Sya has always considered me as a biological mother not a connecting mother, but I really cannot be expected as a good connecting mother.

Finished performing the Fajr prayer, I saw Sya still asleep. I got closer then at a glance I kissed her forehead. "Mother, dear to Him" I whispered. After that I went down the stairs and towards the room where Nadly slept. Apparently Nadly had prayed at dawn and was preparing to go home.

"Sister, I came home, probably still at five, still hunting to go to school" said Nadly as she prepared.

"But you haven't had breakfast, Nad. Let Brother prepare first yes," I said

"No need, brother. I'm afraid I'd have a bad time going to school if I had to have breakfast here" Nadly said.

"All right then, Nad. For a moment, I order the grab first yes," said I who immediately opened the HP to order the grab via the application. Not long after, the grab I ordered arrived.

"Sir Nanang, I say goodbye first. Assalamualaikum," said Nadly while greeting the hands of Mr. Nanang politely.

"Be careful, son!" exclaim Mr. Nanang warned.

When Nadly wanted to enter the grab, along with that Mas Eagle's car appeared. Nadly saw the arrival of Mas Eagle, Nadly stopped for a moment to just greet Mas Eagle. Mas Eagle greeted by honking the car horn. After that Nadly immediately entered the grab, not how long the grab drove through the streets of the complex.