"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "
Mama Into RS
ELang POV
When on the way to pick up Sya to school, suddenly there was a call coming in from Mama's house. I wonder why suddenly Mama called from home, usually also use HP. When I picked up apparently Bi Inah who called and mentioned that Mama passed out, and was being rushed to Harapan Kita Hospital. Immediately I drove my car to school Sya, picked up Sya and went straight to the hospital that was mentioned by Bi Inah earlier.
Arriving at the hospital, I went straight to the VIP room where Mama was treated. Because I was in a hurry to not return first. Yes, I took it into the nursery of Mama despite having to hide from the RS, because it was clear there the rule that children under 12 years old were prohibited from entering. Luckily, there was a driver there who was driving. So that I can ask for help to bring Sya home. But I didn't want to, I cried when I wanted to return it. Finally I told Driver Mama to take a walk in the garden RS. And fortunately, I want to.
I saw Mama who was lying weakly with an infusion hose in her hand. It is sad to see people we love and respect lying weak helplessly, but usually the loudest voice.
I approached Mama and I rubbed Mama's forehead softly that felt cold, then I held Mama's left fingers that were not intermittent infusion and peed it. In my heart I wondered, What is the pain of Mama and why? Not long after the Doctor who treated Mama came and entered the room.
When I asked her what the pain was, the doctor said she had high blood pressure up to 180/140 and could have caused a stroke. My heart slipped when I heard the Doctor explain the state of Mama. When Mama woke up from her stupor, apparently Mama could not talk. Not unable to speak, but his speech is unclear. I forbid Mama not to force her to talk so as not to tense, Mamapun silent and occasionally tears melted from the corner of the eye.
A sense of sadness immediately spread in the chest, whose heart is not sad when you see your beloved parents in pain and suffering?
Mama had a stroke, her right leg and hand were affected. My heart was so sad that I did not feel my tears coming.
Because Sya did not want to be escorted home, I finally rented an inn near the hospital for two days, to make it easier for me to go back and forth if Mama had anything. I also told Mr. Joni, Mama's driver to go home and pick up Bi Inah to wait at the Hospital.
And finally I decided today I was staying at the inn without informing my wife's tone. Besides I think it is not time to tell Nada about the situation of Mama, even if she is told not necessarily Nada wants to come to visit, while Mama's relationship with Nada is still tense.
Arriving at night when the Doctor's examination was completed, I returned to the inn that had been occupied by Sya and Bi Inah. Now at night, Bi Inah who I gave the task of keeping Mama in the nursery.
Around 10 pm, my HP rang and apparently the phone tone, but I accidentally did not pick up. I was thinking maybe Nada was worried about the whereabouts of Sya who had not come home. For I did not tell Nada at all about Mama's state and our existence.
"El, El....!" Mama was heard calling my name even though it was a little vague. His eyes were staring at me sadly.
"Ma, El go home first! The eagle wants to go to school first!" I say goodbye to Mama while kissing Mama's hand that is not fitted with an infusion hose. Just then my HP suddenly sounded, Nada called out with the WA application. Her pretty face was on my HP. The face I really miss.
I accidentally didn't pick up the phone. Let him wonder where I am. The effect is evil anyway, but it's better than me being frankly where it will only add to the disappointment, because I'm sure Nada won't care. I had to send Mama back to Bi Inah who was loyal to look after Mama.
I say goodbye to Mama, I see Mama as sad. But I tried to comfort him that I would be back in the afternoon. Mama seemed resigned by lowering her head down.
In the afternoon I went home and drove him home. I don't worry anymore if Sya comes home. There is Tada mom who really loves Sya, and there is Bi Ijah who is now in addition to taking care of the house is also focused on taking care of Sya.
Coming home, I was greeted by Nada well, she kissed my hand with a look of disdain. Honestly, so close to him, the desire to embrace and pour out affection is so great. But because I was experiencing sadness because of Mama's sick state, so my attitude was still cold and flat, because I was experiencing sadness.
Intentionally Tone I did not tell about Mama, let her find out for herself. And I don't want to be considered I want to get his attention about Mama's situation. However, Nada and Mama are still not okay. Let me take this sadness myself without Tone, which is usually able to make me have a solution if I get into trouble.
When my heart was struck down like that, suddenly Bi Narti came and gave a test of Nada's order. I was shocked to hear that. Want a pregnancy test? There is a little happiness to hear the word testpek, lest Nada get pregnant. Tone suddenly hugged me from behind and asked if I was happy when she was pregnant? Obviously I'm happy dong, she's pregnant with my son, especially if Nada is pregnant I'll easily hold it if one day Nada sulks and leaves.
Although I was happy to hear the news that Nada was pregnant, but my sadness was greater because I thought of Mama who was sick. Also sad because all this time I have not been able to reconcile between Nada and My Mama. Both mean the same thing, but Mama means the most to me.
That afternoon I had to go back to the hospital to accompany Mama, even though there was Bi Inah but Mama wanted me there. I say the same with Nada because I have to go to the RS. But I didn't say where it was, let Nada think something else about me, because if I tell you the truth I'm not ready. Tone seemed a little disappointed with my attitude. Even so I still leave with a face that is still flat and sad so that Nada thinks I still have not forgiven her mistakes completely.
