"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Awkwardness

At nightfall, I felt my body was better, and the headache that had been felt began to disappear. I looked all over the room but didn't find Mas Eagle. "Thank God....!" my germs. I slowly got up to cleanse myself and carry out my duties.

Not long after I was in the bathroom, I opened the door slowly. When I opened it I found Mas Eagle on the sofa in his cocoon. He sat down and deliberately looked at me. I lowered my head, and I immediately reached for the person in the closet.

"Come....!" he said while giving a prayer signal together, without saying I followed him. I became confused by the attitude of this man in front of me, it was cold and very scary but could instantly turn good even though it was still flat. My prayers are not solemn, my mind is floating somewhere.

Finished praying, Mas Elang turned his body and thrust his hand. I slowly grabbed him and kissed him as usual. There was a sudden sense of peace running through my entire body. Mas Eagle was able to present a sense of peace in a short time, when he was angry at noon.

"I'm sorry, but this afternoon I was very happy. I shouldn't be rude to you!" she said as she grabbed my body and kissed my forehead. I was a little carried away, without being able to hold tears in the corner of my eyes had gone down. The eagle took me up and tried to stop my tears. "Once again I'm sorry, now open the door" he said.

After I tidied my face, I immediately stepped foot towards the connecting door of Sya's room, while Mas Eagle was already struggling with his laptop on the sofa. I could see it with the tip of the eye, how handsome Mas Eagle, his face shaded without a hue of anger. My heartbeat suddenly tightened just by staring at Mas Eagle with the tip of an eye. That man really has an incredible charm. So that makes my heart always there is a sense of unwillingness to leave it. Love and affection have been ingrained in my heart so strongly in Mas Eagle, my priest. So that I don't let go easily.

Arrived in Sya's room, but the adorable child did not exist. I tried to look him down. His voice was coming from the kitchen. Apparently Sya was eating with Bi Narti. Then I peeked for a moment to pay attention to her behavior. Funny, obedient, and not fussy, always obeying what Bi Narti said. How adorable. It means that if one day I am forced to leave him, he will not be persuaded for long. I believe Sya is very obedient and kind. But immediately this chest feels tight, if you remember the breakup. Though in the depths of my heart, absolutely do not want to experience a good farewell with Sya or Mas Eagle.

A few minutes later, I saw Sya running small towards the stairs, not sure what Bi Narti told her to do. What was clear was that Sya with a full smile was so excitedly running. Before heading up the stairs I managed to intercept him.

"Where are the handsome boys going?" my intercept blocked Sya's path. "Eh, Mommy... I want to call Mommy and Papa for dinner, let's Bun let's have dinner. Bi Narti had already prepared it. Call Papa first!" she is very smart, adorable. "Ok.. Carefully go up the ladder yeah, don't run!" I remember rubbing his head. I looked at Sya until I climbed the stairs.

Not long after, Sya and Mas Eagle followed down the stairs and headed to the dining table. Then sit in their seats. I swiftly prepared the dishes and rice for Mas Elang and Sya, the side dishes were usually those who decided on their own. We eat in silence, but the only thing that always chatters is Sya melting the ice between me and Mas Eagle. Although Mas Eagle had apologized, but awkwardness was still felt between us.

Dinner was over, I helped Bi Narti momentarily bring our old dirty dishes to the sink. Bi Narti forbade me, but I still did, after all just moving dirty dishes to the sink. After that I heard Mas Eagle say to Sya. "Yes go to sleep, don't forget to brush your teeth!" his memory while kissing the top of Sya's head. "Come on Mother.. Kelonin Sya!" take her while pulling my hand. I walked straight up the stairs. While Mas Eagle moved to the middle room, along with the sound of a phone call from someone.

In Sya's room, I had Sya brush her teeth first before going to bed and Sya immediately obeyed her. "Mother, I'm not sleepy yet but I want Mommy to tell me first about the prince who managed to defeat the Tiger who will pounce on a princess!" she begged. I nodded and looked for the storybook in question.

"Finally, the princess was saved by the prince....!" I said ending the story about the "Great Hunting Prince". The goals I saw Sya had begun to close my eyes, so that the story I listened to no longer responded to her. " Thank God....!" I whispered while covering her whole body from leg to chest with a blanket.

It is strange that I have not felt drowsiness, but usually if I am listening to the story to Sya, I will come to sleep and sleep next to Sya. But not this time. Then I got off the bed to the balcony of Sya's room. Breathing the night air from Sya's room. A moment may kill boredom until drowsiness comes.

I stood there looking up at the sky, as if the stars were shining and flashing towards me. Suddenly I imagined the blink of Mas Eagle first when he managed to invite me to marry and I agreed. How happy was Mas Eagle back then, so I hugged him very tightly.

I've been on the balcony for half an hour, and time shows 9 p.m. But I have not felt sleepiness. I still want to see the stars and enjoy the night breeze that now feels more piercing. I tried to shake off my coldness by hugging my hands at each other.

A few seconds later, I heard the sound of our connecting door and Sya slowly opened. My heart immediately thumped, it must be Mas Eagle. I was upset why my drowsiness had not arisen until the Eagle Mas was looking for me. I became misbehaved, wanted to step off the balcony and pretend I was sleepy and that sleep was impossible, because Mas Eagle had already seen me.

Mas Eagle appeared to approach Sya and kissed her long ago. Then allow the blanket that was slightly exposed. I hope Mas Eagle does not catch up with me here and just falls asleep by Sya's side. But hope was lost, slowly Mas Eagle down from the bed and his body towards the balcony exit.

Slowly the door opened, and Mas Eagle was now on the balcony, I looked at him for a moment but returned my gaze to the front. The atmosphere was awkward, and no one had spoken between us yet.

I slowly untied my hands, then changed position to hold the balcony railing. While the cold was getting worse.

"You're still here? The night wind is not good for health, do you not feel cold?" The Eagle suddenly started a conversation. I slightly twisted my body and looked at Mas Eagle. "Not yet, Nada has not drowsy," I said slowly and then returned my gaze shifted forward. Without me noticing suddenly Mas Eagle approached and hugged me from behind. While my heart was beating very fast.