"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

The Anger of the Eagle

The eagle looked angry with a reddened face. He looked towards the three of us with a sharp look. I immediately moved away from Ramdan and Romi while giving the code to leave.

Mas Elang memgamit while walking first with long steps. I followed him with half-run steps. I felt a tremendous amount of anger, along with my heart pounding. I ran after him and hoped Mas Eagle would not get angry.

Arriving at the VIP table we had just occupied for a meal, I saw that Sya had fallen asleep on Mom's lap. I immediately grabbed Sya and carried her in my sling.

"Ma, we go first!" Pamit Mas Elang while looking at me sharply. I also say goodbye to Mom even if not reciprocated. The middle-aged woman apparently still did not want to accept me sincerely as her daughter-in-law, so her attitude was still cold to me.

Arriving at the parking lot of the building, Mas Elang opened the door for himself. While I have to take pains to open the door while holding back my weight. Mas Eagle does not care about me when my hands are so sore to hold Sya.

Mobilpun out the parking lot of the building with a little jerked, I'm not balanced directly kejedot dashboard car.

"www....!" pekikku's sick. Fortunately Sya did not wake up and she was not surprised by anything because I held her body. The Eagle doesn't care about me at all.

I glanced at Mas Eagle who was focused on driving at high speed, and hoped that Mas Eagle would stop this dangerous action. I see him as a man of disobedience. My body suddenly trembled in fear.

"Mas, please don't speed. Tone of fear," I pleaded half-whimpering. Mas Eagle does not budge, he stays on his stand.

Not long after, the car that was brutally run by Mas Eagle, arrived quickly in front of the gate. The horn sounded repeatedly and often, the sign of anger Mas Eagle increasingly became.

Not how long Usep Satpam who happened to guard the night, opened the gate wide and respectfully let Mas Eagle's car in. The car entered the gate and stopped after it was parked properly.

Mas Elang immediately went down and towards the door of the car I was sitting in, he opened the door wide of the car, then I immediately went out and headed for the door of the house.

Bi Narti who realized our arrival, welcomed us with a sumringah.

"Non Nada's... Den Syanya is asleep. Let Auntie help her into her room, "Bi Narti offered help but I refused gently.

"No need. Let me be alone....!" reject me again continue to step foot towards the stairs and room Sya.

Arriving at the room, I immediately laid Sya who was really very sound. I am grateful, because Sya slept well without any interruption. Without seeing Mas Eagle's anger and brutal attitude.

Without caring anymore about the anger of Mas Eagle earlier, I also lay straightened my waist and legs that felt sore on the mattress Sya. For a moment I forgot about the angry incident Mas Eagle earlier, my body cape and my eyes heavy until my goal I fell asleep.

Suddenly Mas Eagle came to Sya's room, trying to wake me up by shaking my shoulders. Then with a slight jerk, I tried to get up. Quickly Mas Eagle grabbed my hand and pulled it a little rough so that it caused pain. Want to pull it off but the power is stronger.

Passing through the connecting door between our room and Sya, Mas Elang pulled me and the connecting door was locked.

With emotion Mas Eagle slammed into my body in bed.

"You know why I did this to you? As you know, I lost my wife because she cheated on me and left with another man."

"Tone, sorry Mas. Tone doesn't mean that. Last time out of the toilet, Nada accidentally met Nada's friend when we were working first. And we chatted for a moment" I said softly, not feeling tears coming out of the corner of the eyes unstoppable.

"The reason...if I don't come and find you soon, it could be you guys exchange HP numbers and chat, then meet and cheat." he accused more furious and then climbed into bed and gripped both my shoulders strong, strong, The eagle looked at me. An angry look I've never seen before. This time it really was like an insult. I'm getting scared that Mas Eagle's been doing violence that he's never done.

"I'm sorry Mas, I never thought of cheating on you. I will never tarnish our marriage with infidelity. I love you, for God's sake. Nada loves you Mas!" I said tight, because Mas Eagle grabbed my shoulder stronger.

"www....!" peekikku as Mas Eagle began to disarm my sage green dress violently.

"Sret.. sret. "the sound of the tearing of the brucat dress was heard. I tried to hold him back and fight him, but the power of Mas Eagle when angry seemed to double.

Now my body is innocent, I seem to be a rape victim forced by a criminal. He approached and grinned as he grabbed my chin. I grimaced in pain and sobbed. Mas Eagle forced me to be angry, I was in pain and shouted.

"Mas... Nada hasn't taken the pills....!"

Roughly Mas Elang silenced my lips. Until I can't speak anymore.

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I woke up with a deep sense of disappointment, Mas Eagle has really hurt my heart and my entire body. Slowly I began to rise and release the arms of Mas Eagle.

I went to the bathroom with my body covered in a thin blanket and cleaned myself of what Mas Eagle did last night.

When I came out of the bathroom, Mas Eagle was already neat with his casual clothes. I don't know maybe he cleaned himself in Sya's room and the Fajr prayer there.

"My behavior last night was a form of punishment for you for spreading a smile in front of other men, and I don't like it" he said as he passed into the study.

"And remember, because I still need you. So, never ignore Sya," she recalled and actually passed by slamming the door.

Tight in the chest for a moment, Mas Eagle who was angry just because he saw I talked to my two friends one job first. It was as if I had made a fatal mistake. Though Mas Eagle saw for himself, I did not spread a seductive smile or anything else. And in the dictionary of my life, never will my household ever be smeared with an affair. And that I would never do.

I cried again considering his treatment last night, although physically Mas Eagle did not dare to hurt me, but this inner wound is now starting to gap and I am required to always be strong and calm in front of My Son. Am I up to it?

Since the incident on the night of Risa's wedding, Mas Eagle's attitude towards me was really cold. Selfish, protective and hard. I can only be patient and persevere, because there is still a Shaykh who always makes me smile. He needs me more.