"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "
The Sadness of the Eagle and the Arrival of the Tone
The Pov 3 (Author)
The sadness and disappointment that the Eagle now felt. When saying goodbye to Om and Tanteenya Nada, it was like the Eagle pulled Nada into the grab and took her home forcibly. But his common sense was still running clear, he had just apologized and was going to try to understand Dara, was it to be marred with his high selfishness? The eagle restrained himself, though his heart was sad and disappointed.
Just this time also he apologized by way of rest on Nada's thigh. But the word sorry is not enough to make Nada melt and want to be invited home by the Eagle. The Eagle's disappointment grew, after Nada said the incident last night was so close that it was only a wife's obligation to her husband, and it did not make Nada want to be invited home too. Sad and disappointed clearly visible, and the Eagle had shed tears, but without the knowledge of Nada.
"I love you Tone, can't I be selfish to always be by your side, to always manage you or to force you? But in fact you are not the type of wife who wants to be arranged or forced. But you should know, I acted like this just because I didn't want to lose you. I forbid you to hang out outside, it's because I'm afraid you're flirting with other men like what Mayang did, betraying me when everything I gave him" whispered the Eagle's heart, it was at this moment that her tears were shed as she tidied her things onto the suitcase.
This was all due to his negligence being unable to feel Nada's feelings, the Eagle felt Nada would be able to understand his attitude. He is not aware that Nada's soul can thrash or protest, especially Nada is still young, but the Eagle demands Nada to better understand him. And that, now it's a time bomb that goes off. Plus the attitude of his mother who did not like Nada frontally and openly hate Nada. This became a PR for Eagle, how did he return Nada without having to hurt his mother?
Check out of the hotel Elang can not hide his sadness and disappointment towards Nada. But before leaving the room, Eagle gave an ATM whose contents can be any use. Because during marriage, Nada is not an Eagle facilitation any luxury. And this is the first treasure that the Eagle gave to the Tone that the Eagle loved a few months ago, but Nada returned it again as she sulked.
The flat stance the Eagle was unable to hide from the Tone, and Nada noticed it. If you can cry, then the Eagle wants to cry at the rejection of Nada who did not want to be invited home that day. Finally the Eagle allowed Nada to stay in the house of Aunt and Omnya as Nada pleased, hoping that Nada really believed that the Eagle would really change and understand the feeling of Nada, as Nada had hoped all along.
Returning home, the Eagle was presented with a whimper Sya who immediately asked Nada. And this situation really makes the Eagle sad and tormented. The presence of his mother also who happened to be in the Eagle house, made the Eagle instantly feel angry. On his part, the beloved Tone of his heart went away with heartache by the words of his Mother that were never filtered.
"El... have you returned.. Where is your wife? He's not coming? This tone is really yes....!"
"Ma, please from today onward the Eagle does not want to hear Mama a word disfigure or scorn Nada again. Because, Nada does not want to go home because she is still hurt by Mama. So please, for anything related to Nada, Eagle please Mama do not need to interfere in it," said Elang as he placed the suitcase on the floor. Bu Sri seemed stunned and wanted to protest, but the Eagle had moved away and intended to approach Sya.
"Nada.. You must really go back and return the kind and forgiving attitude of Eagle to me," said Bu Sri in her heart.
"Tuk.. yuk....!" The sound of crutches clashing with ceramic floors filled the entire room.
"Papa...Where is the Mother..Why didn't Papa bring Mother?" rengek Sya while walking towards the Eagle. The bewildered eagle answered what, his heart was again broken when Sya gave the question.
The eagle embraced Sya carefully and placed his crutches on the edge of the guest chair.
"Darling... Mother is still busy. But Mommy promised to be home soon if the business was done." The eagle tried to distract him.
"The evil mother is no longer fond of the same Sya," he sulked while squeezing the T-shirt worn by the Eagle.
"Papa's sorry, honey. Papa promised to bring Mommy home. Now look, Papa brought souvenirs for Sya. A remote car for Sya." The eagle showed the remote cars, but Sya paid him no attention at all. The eagle was getting sadder and very disappointed with the decision of Nada who did not want to come home with him.
"What do I have to do to persuade Him? The most powerful medicine is simply Nada. But, Nada is so stubborn. Is this what Marisa calls, that the young soul of Nada is thrashing and muttering? If it is, it should be that Nada did not have to accept my proposal," the inner bersamuk Eagle argued with each other.
The eagle brought Sya up into the room, while persuading the only child of his puppet. Meanwhile, Bu Sri was stunned by what she was thinking. He felt sad to see the Eagle acting cold like that. I want it to feel like Bu Sri presents Nada in front of the Eagle so that the Eagle returns cheerful as before.
"Tone... are you that angry as I am, until you punish my son? I know I never liked you, but the Eagle loves you, you should have stayed because the Eagle loves you. Not just go and give up. Go home You Tada, I need you just to restore the happiness of the Eagle and my grandson, Sya." whispered Bu Sri's heart raging.
At nightfall, the Eagle must patiently put Sya to bed who is not usually fussy. His legs are still sore due to sprains, Eagle massage according to the instructions of the Doctor, using massage oil prescribed by the Doctor.
When the Eagle laid his body beside Sya who began to sleep because it was told before bedtime story, Eagle grabbed his HP and played for a moment with the world of maya.
The eagle immediately opened the WA app and saw whoever sent the message for him. Of the most incoming WA messages that attracted his attention was only from the Stars, the best friend. The star sends word of the whereabouts of him who is now doing out-of-town service, which is always accompanied by his wife. There is envy in the Eagle to see the happiness and harmony of his best friend's household. In his eyes it was almost perfect.
Scroll down, Elang accidentally saw the profile of Tone. Apparently the message five days ago had been read Nada. The eagle became excited and hoped that Nada would give a message back to him, but until half an hour of waiting, there was no Nada to give him a message at all, even though the status was still on.
The eagle felt heartache ignored Nada, the Tone he loved but now ignores. Unconsciously the Eagle threw one of the pillows as an impingement of his disappointment.
In the morning, the sound of the neighbor's cock crowing was earthy. Although the distance is several hundred meters, but the kokokan can be heard a radius of 500 meters, waking the inhabitants of nature who are asleep in a dream. The eagle is wriggling his body. Then slowly get up and sit on the edge of the bed. Before going to the bathroom he mused at the thought of the absence of Nada beside him.
6 Hours past 30 minutes, I woke up. Today Sya still does not enter school, because the doctor still gives her a license to rest at home to recover the pain due to sprains.
I take a bath as usual with warm water that Bi Narti has prepared in *bathtub*. After that they had breakfast at the dinner table. He walked with the eagle by his side. She held onto the Eagle's hand. Although the path is not perfect, but the doctor said to be trained without crutches. And I tried it, even though I was limping.
After breakfast, Eagles took Sya to the back garden to practice the road without help. The reason Eagles bring to the back garden is to remember the existence of Nada, who always spends time in this park. Flowers such as Dahlia, Jasmine and Amaryllis thrive and flower. The flower blooms as if waiting for the presence of the owner.
Nada sometimes spends her free time caring for her favorite flowers. Watered and fertilized so that it thrives. Eagles remember very well how the habit of Tone, soft in treating the flowers, sometimes when watering Nada often invites the flowers to talk. That is the Tone of the Eagle's heart, every movement of his movement so that the Eagle longs.
"Tone.. Come back, baby. I miss everything you have to do....!" The eagle stared at one of his favorite flowers, Nada, Melati, because of its fragrance. And Dahlia is her favorite flower because when they are so beautiful and sometimes the leaves are always Tone made a trumpet toy.
"Papa.. look....!" sya shouted revealing herself who was walking without the help of crutches or anything. Eagles are happy, especially Sya's legs began to be able to walk normally even though they are still limping a little. Wounds in the temple and in the eel also begin to dry even though it leaves scars.
"Yes.great... Papa was amazed by Sya....!" praise the Eagle while grabbing Sya's small shoulder of encouragement, and thrusting a bottle of mineral water for Sya to drink.
"Yes... Does He really miss Mother?" The Eagle question was not immediately answered Sya who was closing the bottle of mineral water.
"Sya misses Mother.. but why does Mother not miss Sya? Mother evil, Mother does not love the same Sya," said Sya.
"Why do I love Mommy....?" The eagle asked again.
"Because, Mother is Mother Shay...."
"If suppose Mother has not finished her work for a long time, does she still want to wait for Mother?"
In a few seconds she did not answer, and suddenly she cried.
"I don't want to lose Mother... Papa's... I want Mommy....!" sha's whine was accompanied by a cry that made the Eagle even sadder.
"Papa can't force Mother to return Shay, because... Mother doesn't like forced Papa. So.. we must be ready if Mother really does not want to be next to us anymore," persuaded Elang lirih while shedding tears.
"Mother...why Mother does not want to be with Sya again....!" the question dissolves along with the cry of Sya, the Eagle feels sliced to hear Sya cry because it remembers Nada.
The eagle hugged the crying Shah, the Eagle dissolved in his sadness remembering Nada. The flower garden behind this house so much reminds the Eagle of Nada, that he has no power to resist the crying when he remembers Nada.
"Darling... When did you come home... did we miss you???"
Meanwhile behind Sya and Eagle had stood a pair of legs level, staring at the backs of the other men of the generation was lewd. He shed tears haru. How sad it is to be separated from the two men of different ages. His cry broke out among the pain that had been on his way. The crying and grimacing that he now felt.
"Tone.. Go home... !"
"Mother home....?" he said softly while embracing the two trembling backs that were crying.
