"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Suddenly Sensitive and Cengeng

Even with a heavy heart, we had to say goodbye to Mom and Bi Inah. Mother looked sad when she saw us saying goodbye, for a moment I saw mother inward and saying goodbye.

"Ma.. we're home....!" pamit Mas Eagle followed me.

"Mom, Tone's home! I'm getting well soon" I said as I prayed for Mom. We left Mom's room and headed to the hospital parking lot. On the way to the parking lot, there was no sound among us, only occasionally Sya chattering.

"Pa... Go to the Mall first!" whinek Sya while looking towards Mas Eagle full of hope. Mas Eagle was silent as if not listening to Sya and focused on the steering. The car had left the hospital area and was now on a busy road.

"Lord....!" sya shouted a little loudly making Mas Eagle look shocked. Mas Elang slowed down the speed of his car and started talking.

"Why, Yes?" Mas Eagle glimpsed Sya's face.

"Yes going to the Mall, Sya wants to play in the mall," he said still whining.

"Will go to the Mall? Yes we have to the Mall first yes," said Mas Elang agreed and then drove his car to the nearest Mall from the hospital.

Arriving at the Mall, Sya was so cheerful and happy. Sya took Mas Eagle to the playground. There he played with the others. While me and Mas Eagle were watching in the waiting chair.

"Darling, why have you been quiet ever since?" Mas Eagle asked in a surprised tone.

"none. The tone was just a little nauseous," I replied uninspiredly.

"Nausea? You're really pregnant, aren't you?" ask Mas Eagle with a happy look.

"Nada's not sure yet, Mas" I hesitated.

"Yes, we will go to the pharmacy first to buy a testpek," he said without me responding. I could only keep quiet, feeling the nausea that was now whack.

After Sya satisfied playing, Mas Elang took us to the food court Mall. But I held it back, because this nausea was really not restrained. I went straight to the toilet without waiting for Mas Elang's approval.

There I spilled all the nausea that had been whack. A few minutes later, my stomach was a little light and not nauseous anymore. I rushed out of the toilet. But without my guessing I cross paths with my childhood friend Nadie.

"She... ! You know you're here? Coincidentally we met here. What are you doing in this mall?" ask Sister Nadie to be curious. I was surprised to see Nadie. What happened to this accidental meeting was known to Mas Eagle and he became misunderstood.

"Eh... Brother Nadie... Nada is walking in this mall, sister....!" answered doubt.

"Who's with you, Nad, by yourself?" Nadie asked again as if she wanted to know.

"Tone with son and husband Nada, sister!" answer honestly. At first glance Kak Nadie looks disappointed and does not believe what I just said.

"Darling..How long is it?" Suddenly Mas Eagle came and approached us who had a little conversation. "Let's go home, why stand here!" ketus Mas Elang while looking intently at Kak Nadie and grabbed my hand and pulled her towards Sya who was sitting sweetly in front of the dining table food court Mall. I followed Mas Eagle with a cautious heart.

"Who is that guy? That guy's feelings have been following you since at my colleague's wedding the other day. What do you guys have in common? You guys seem so close?" tanya Mas Eagle keeps suspicious.

"That's nobody Nada, Mas. She's Nadie's childhood friend Nada. Just now Nada accidentally met him, we never made a deal anyway," I denied Mas Elang's suspicions about my closeness with Kak Nadie. The eagle looking at me still could not believe it.

"Review .. if you have anything behind Mas, then know your taste," he said threateningly with angry and violent eyes.

"What do you want to eat?" asked Mas Eagle to me with a face that was still upset. I did not answer, it feels like the food in this food court nothing evokes my taste after seeing Mas Elang upset so. "You don't want to eat?" I'm shaking. "Yes, it's up, whatever!"

"Mother, let's eat Mother....!"

"Mother's not appetite, baby. Mother wants to run," chirped me.

"Rubrajak? Here where there is rujak!" he screamed, but stood up and went somewhere.

Not long after Mas Elang came again with warm orange tea and then poured it on me. "Drink... in this food court happens to be selling rujak is closed, so the concoction cannot," said Mas Elang regretted. I was a little moody when Mas Elang said that his street vendor was closed and not selling. But the recesses of my heart there is a little happiness, because Mas Eagle wants to find a rujak even though it does not work, but it was still upset mode.

Arriving home, I immediately ran to the room, and went straight to the bathroom to throw away the bad taste and nausea in my stomach. I sat down weakly after the clear liquid from my stomach managed to get me out. My breath was stingy and fast and irregular. Mas Eagle who followed to the room with Sya, immediately panicked to see me sitting on the bathroom floor.

"Mother... Mother why?" He came over and saw me from behind the bathroom door. I looked up while holding my body limp from the soy sauce when I vomited.

"Tone .. Why is this?" Mas Eagle came and saw me sitting on the bathroom floor. I didn't answer just the sad look I was able to give in response.

"Sya .. pull over first yes, Papa wants to help lift Mother first. Mother's clothes are also wet because of water, so Papa wants to change his clothes," said Mas Elang to throw out Sya subtly. She obeyed and retreated, yet she kept an eye on me. How anxious his behavior, comforting me.

Mas Elang lifted my body and took it to the mattress and then slowly unbuttoned my upper clothes, but soon I could hold it, because in the room there was still Sya. Mas Elang understood, then he looked at Sya and approached her and persuaded Sya to meet Bi Ijah.

"Yes, get out first! Papa wants to change clothes Mother. Later if Mother has been washed, She may return to this room again," said Mas Elang softly. Sya was a little disappointed, but Sya left also with a face decorated with frowns.

Mas Elang took off my wet clothes, one by one the buttons that interlocked opened. Then my clothes were changed to the same casual clothes in the house. "You're pale like this, honey. Are you really pregnant?" tanya Mas Elang rubbed my forehead which was wet from cold sweat.

"Nada doesn't know, Mommy. See if the test in the drawer is a line of two or one. Because it was dawn if I didn't see it wrong, the line was two" I replied hesitantly. Mas Eagle went straight to the dresser drawer and opened it. When finding the object in question, Mas Elang immediately opened it and saw the results listed in the testpek.

"What ... Are you really pregnant, honey? Ohhh .. You're pregnant baby....!" pekik Mas Elang approached me and showed me the results of the tests. I was wide-eyed for the second time, because the result of the test was really a line two that appeared.

I am grateful in my heart, how happy to be given the gift of hereditary trust by the Almighty. I suddenly cry and drip water right then and there. Mas Eagle noticed it, then he quickly shrunk my tears and kissed my forehead.

I deserve to be a little whiny lately and my mood is not good, sometimes suddenly sad and want to cry. Even when I heard that I wanted to be cared for at Mas Eagle's house, I immediately felt bad and sad.

"Your mother is happy, Nada is pregnant?" I was wrapped in a feeling of doubt.

"Isss .. why are you so, so glad. My time is hamili but not happy? You don't think that don't-no dong, later even ngedrop and interfere with your pregnancy," persuaded Mas Eagle while enveloping my body from legs to chest, but Mas Elang's hand slipped into my stomach rubbing the stomach, making me feel comfortable.

"But ... Why is it that Mas Eagle is not enthusiastic to hear Nada pregnant?" manya curious.

"What's not enthusiastic, Mas was happy to know. You do not think that no-no, later if you are down and there is nothing the same fetus that you bear, Mas do not hesitate to punish you!" serious threat.

"Here it is, now Mas want to hug you so that your nausea is gone," he said, lying on his side facing me and looking at me.

"Mas ... emm ... about mother, is it true that Mas Eagle would bring mother here and take care of mother in this house?" I asked suddenly who discussed the problem of the mother who had heard that the mother wanted to be treated in this house.

"So, I'm still confused. If brought here, Mas knows you guys still do not get along and Mas does not want to see you guys constantly fighting. But ... If you let Mama there, Mama will feel lonely, because Mama says she wants to be close to Mas if she's sick," said Mas Eagle who suddenly gloomy face when thinking of two choices that he thought was difficult. I understand the attitude of Mas Eagle, if Mas Eagle still brings Mom here then the risk is feared Mother and I will be in conflict again. Just now her attitude mother still dislikes me when I want to regret it.

"The tone is up to Mas Eagle, because mom lives here not where anyone else is. But ... Nada can not imagine if the mother still hates Nada and Nada heartache, then what if something happens with the fetus contained Nada?" I said a little sensitive and turned my back to Mas Eagle who had been hugging since.

"That's it, Mas got confused. Why don't you guys get along too? What a hard thing is that one relented, and better understand because Mama is older. You will know that as old as we are, we must respect and give up so that we can be blessed. But ... Mama and you are just as stubborn" he said as if more inclined to blame me.

"The gas, always blame Nada. Any tone that should give. The woman in bed in front of others Nada must be silent, scorned also not defended, the edges Mas say 'do not say rude to Mama' and Mas Elang did not want to reprimand mother until mother realized her mistake. And finally Nada was also forced to understand Mas Eagle, even though Nada's heart was sick. Because Mas Eagle never defended Nada. Hate tone Mas Eagle. Well then, it's better that Nada just go away that far no need to come here anymore," finally smoothly jaya exactly toll road without a hitch, I managed to reveal everything in front of Mas Eagle, no matter where the courage from. What is clear is that right now I feel that my mood is completely uncontrollable, and I feel like I want to reveal everything.

Mas Elang seemed to flinch and try to calm my emotions that are still passionate. "Honey is ... Mas sorry. Calm your mind. You are currently pregnant and Mas does not want anything bad to happen to you and the fetus in your stomach," Mas Elang persuaded appear frustrated.