"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

The Arrival of Marisa Brings Peace

"Marisa's sister!" pekikku happy. Marisa came to the dining table, and sat down without any hesitation while keeping a large crackle under the refrigerator.

"What the hell is it, like, really heavy?" I said while looking at the frisk that Marisa's mother kept under the refrigerator.

"Just a little fruit for you and Uwa" he replied, holding his ass in the dining chair.

"Well, if this is a red velvet sponge with pandan balls, it's good to make your snack if you are hungry again" said Marisa while thrusting a crackle containing two balls.

"There's a lot, yes, Ma'am," I said.

Marisa's sister sat back in the guest chair while her eyes looked at the dining table. His increasingly distended stomach, did not make him disturbed in moving. Still agile and very cheerful. I have been envious of Ms. Marisa, since the first month of pregnancy, as if I had not felt the nausea of severe vomiting.

B"How are you, yes? Auntie wants to go to school, huh?"

"News, My good Aunt. In a moment, Sya left for school with Mr. Udin," replied Sya while drinking water.

"Which Eagle? How not to bring Eagle, Nad?"

"Mas Eagle, this morning set out out of the city, seemingly in a hurry. Neither did the devil, for he was still sleeping" I replied. Marisa ma'am.

"Bi Nartiiiii, I want to eat dong!" ma'am Marisa calls Bi Narti spoiled. Ms. Marisa is already familiar with Bi Narti, so if you ask for help do not hesitate like not to other people's ART.

"Ready Non, aunty do it," said Bi Narti while taking a plate and spoon for Mbak Marisa who is more beautiful at the age of eight months of pregnancy.

"Still, Bi," said Ma'am Marisa while starting to eat the food prepared by Bi Narti earlier. Marisa's sister had breakfast with her voraciously, sometimes I look at her in awe. There was no sadness or sadness after her marriage, she was always cheerful and seemed happy.

"Mother, I have breakfast already" she reported, standing up from the chair. I got up and happened to have my breakfast done, to take Sya away to school.

"Come, I think Mr. Udin is ready, huh." And sure enough Mr. Udin was ready and approached Sya.

"Kemon, The handsome!" take Mr. Udin while reaching for Sya's tiny hand.

"Sir Udin, take Shay, yes!" my word.

"Ready, Non," he nodded politely. Mr. Udin led Sya to the car and drove her to school. After driving Sya in front of the door, I returned to Marisa.

Marisa's sister finished her meal when I arrived at the dinner table.

"Come on, just talk to us in the living room, ma'am!" take me while holding a glass of lemon juice. Marisa agreed and followed me. Before going to the living room, we turned first to Mom's room.

"iva ... Marisa came," said Ms. Marisa as she approached Mom and greeted Mom's left hand that was not a stroke.

"Mar, tumben you look at Uwa. Bring what are you Mar?" Mother immediately asked although a bit slowly, understandably was experiencing pain.

"Marisa bring fruits and red velvet balls with pandanus balls. If Uwa wants, then let Bi Narti get it," said Marisa Mbak. I'm silent not replying.

"Ok, deh, Wa, then Marisa to the living room first yes want to chat first with Nada. If Uwa wants to join nimbrung, it's okay. Uwa just ask between Mbak Vera," said Mbak Marisa relaxed.

We moved on even though there was no response from Mom. "What business is Elang doing out of town?" Ma'am Marisa suddenly asked the departure of Mas Eagle.

"No idea, Ma'am. It might be that expanded restaurant," I replied uncertainly.

"Anu, Ma'am, Nada was just surprised by Ms. Marisa, eating anything without nausea and vomiting, and again Marisa's mother was always cheerful and happy," I said while looking down.

"Alhamdulillah, I ate nothing prevented and did not nausea vomiting, kept my husband and in-laws did not press much, so that's the key to my joy while pregnant," marisa made me look down sad.

"What's wrong with you, Nad? I know what you're feeling, just now I'm talking like this not realising that you're sad. I'm sorry, yeah!" exclaimed Sister Marisa while embracing me.

I cried without a hold. The pain felt when Mother often scorned and insulted me now re-emerged like a wound hit by lime, very painful.

"Crying while you are still heavy on your chest, if you have been crying will be plong," persuaded Mbak Marisa trying to make me calm. Marisa rubbed my shoulders with strength.

"If you're not satisfied, cry."

For about ten minutes I cried, and just subsided and calmed down a little. My chest feels plump, right said Ms. Marisa. I looked up while gently wiping my tears.

"I hope all the treatment of Uwa Sri can you forgive, you try to make peace and just think of the wind then, then you will feel relieved. Try it, you do it in the room when it is quiet you exhale deeply, then take it out. And do it three times in a row. You intend to eliminate all feelings of hate, resentment, resentment, and heartache. Keep doing it with a roomy heart," said Marisa at length.

What Ms. Marisa said just now, a little relieved me and determined to try to control myself more so as not to be hurt again by Mother's painful speech. Especially since I was sick, Mom was no longer heard saying anything to me.

"Since Mom got sick, Nada has been determined not to be hurt again if Mom talks no-no about Nada," I said.

"It's good Nad, you've got that kind of determination. For a long time you will plong and get used to. Uwa, too, I think you can change if you continue to show feelings of affection and love. Anyone, if it has been fostered affection and love continuously, then God willing will produce love in the person, just look later Uwa will also change, Nad," said Ms. Marisa increasingly relieved my feelings.

"Yes, Ma'am, Nada felt a little relieved after hearing the words of Mbak Marisa. Nor is there any grudge at all Mother."

"That's good, Nad. Now just prepare your heart and mental, especially you are currently pregnant young. So the sad thoughts are put away," said Marisa again not bored to give me motivation.

"So there's more, no, burdening your mind with something else?" I'm nodding. "It must have something to do with Eagle Brother, right?" I nodded again slowly with teary eyes.

"Mas Eagle sometimes if you hear the name of Mbak Mayang called him always angry, is he traumatized and has not been *move on* from Mbak Mayang? This is always the mind of Tone. But after that, Mas Eagle always said he loved me."

"That's right, Nad. Eagle has a sense of trauma. But that does not mean Eagle has not been*moveon* from Mayang. If I think it's natural to have trauma, because the incident seems to be very imprinted in the mind of Kak Elang. To avoid the trauma, yes it had to avoid the name Mayang either the name or the person." I'm trying to understand the words of Ms. Marisa who is a lot of right.

"The problem is loving you, I think it's true. And right now all he loves is you. Mayang is the past that Brother Eagle threw away. He's too painful to remember his name though, so as I said earlier, it's natural that Eagle Brother has a trauma, but that doesn't mean he hasn't moved on from Mayang. The proof is that he can marry you and impregnate you, wakwakwak," said Mbak Marisa ended with laughter. I laughed with Marisa's last words.

"So, from now on you do not have to doubt the love of Eagle. Brother Eagle is a loyal type, he is a little hard man, his goal is just to want his partner still not turn away from Brother Eagle. Anyway if we obey and understand the character of Brother Eagle then guaranteed Brother Eagle will be happy that person desperately. And to you, I think Brother Eagle has his own way of loving you. And he really loves you like he said to me a month before you were married" Marisa said.

The arrival of Sister Marisa this time made me feel a little peace in the chest. I will try to make myself as comfortable as possible and be in the safe zone.

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