"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Don't Say Rude to Mama

What should I do in front of my mother, while Mas Elang asked me to always give in and not raise my speech in front of my mother, even if she hurt or insulted me? Mas Elang felt disappointed if someone wanted to hone or raise his voice in front of his mother, especially if I did that.

Mas Eagle then went into Sya's room when he managed to persuade me to open it. He came up to me and sat on the edge of the bed, while I lay behind him. Mas Eagle tried to persuade me and rubbed my shoulder.

"I don't want something like that to happen again, you raise the intonation of your voice to Mama in front of me. I love you, but I love Mama more. So, I do not want anything wrong Mama with you, in front of me do not dare to say rude to Mama. She is my mother, I will be disappointed women who have contributed to giving birth to me in the world, yelled at or based on each other, including you," said Mas Elang at the time.

I could only endure the cries as Mas Eagle said like that, the cries held back so that my chest was tight and the sedu sedan was unbearable, escaping just like that.

"Whatever the mother's insults on Nada in front of the people, Nada must be quiet, Mas? Take for granted the mother's insults and swallowed roundly? Alright, will Nada follow your will Mas. And let's see where Nada will be able to survive to be your wife" I replied while shedding tears.

"So, you have a plan to leave me, do you?"

"If indeed Mas Eagle wants Nada to go, then now Nada will go!"

"You misunderstood Nada, not so I mean. You do not understand the nature of Mama, now I can respect your father and love him, so why not you? Try to feel how disappointed a child sees his mother in front of him, do you feel disappointed or not? It must be as hurt as I am," pressed Mas Eagle.

"Nada has never been rude to you, Mom. Nada only defended herself, because the mother who constantly pressured and accused Nada. What's wrong if Nada defends herself?" reply fierce.

"I know, but just try a little. Even though as loud as you talk and insult you if you don't fight it at all, Mama will be quiet alone. I know the nature of Mama, Mama can be very affectionate with someone if the person is related to Mama. I guarantee you will be very dear Mama. I know Mama's attitude changed like that, it was just a mere impingement of her disappointment towards Mayang."

I just quietly listened to all the words of Mas Eagle, all of which only added to the pain of my heart. The eagle really doesn't understand me. Now I'm told to be quiet if Mom insultes me at all costs. So where is Mas Elang's defense of me, which was insulted when Mas Elang seemed to deliberately show the relationship of our bed that mother knows? And mother lightly scoffed at me in front of her travelling companions.

I sometimes get confused with Mas Eagle, used to feel unhappy if mom sneered at me in front of people. And now Mas Elang was even unhappy when I defended myself in front of my mother because the accusations were not true.

"I told you, in front of me I don't want you to say it out loud or go up to Mama. I'm his son, now I can love your parents. Try to love Mama too by holding your ego. That'sthat's all. I've been dizzy with the behavior of you who never want to get along, plus the land certificate of the missing Restaurant Power Plant. With you guys debating and defending each other, my headache. Just try to obey this once said your husband's Tone of Rhythm!" cetus Mas Eagle is full of emphasis.

"Well, I'll try. But if Mas Sakti can stop mom from talking rudely or insulting Nada anymore, then Nada Nada's promise will not be loud and high talk to mom," I pressed back as I passed and opened the door of Sya's room and slammed it.

"Brakkk....!" the sound of the door swirled until it sounded down. My disappointment with the attitude of Mas Eagle overcame my fear of him. I know I was wrong, I should have obeyed the Eagle. However, I also don't want mom to always insult and scorn me constantly.

"Sone....!" the cry of protest Mas Eagle is not I gubris. I went to the back garden of the house and locked the back door from the outside, hoping that no one could open the door including Mas Eagle. I cried there, it felt like no one could defend me including Mas Eagle. To whom did I complain when this self was insulted by mother?

In the afternoon, around 4. Mas Eagle just came home from picking up Sya. I who heard the sound of Mas Eagle's car was already in front of the house, immediately slipped out again to the back garden. It just so happened that my mother was no longer in this house, so I was free to go in and out of the kitchen and back of the house.

"Darling, open... She's gone home. He's lookingforyou. Come. open. I'd like to apologize to you about that, "he insisted. And I still don't care.

"Tone..please open, come on. Don't do this. I'm looking for you and we still need you!" persuade Mas Eagle again slightly pressed. I had to unlock the door, although I was very careful to open it, but the sound of the key still made a sound.

"Tracks....!" a few seconds later, the door opened.

Mas Eagle appeared and approached me who was sitting on a long bench in the back garden. With swollen eyes and a red nose, indicating that I was still crying.

I threw away my face as Mas Eagle wanted to look at me, and brushed off the hand of Mas Eagle who grabbed my finger.

"Come in, I'll wait! I don't want Sya to see you like this" he said.

"About that, I'm sorry I didn't defend you in front of you. But believe me, I always loved you. You know I'm in a state of turmoil and there's a big problem going on, so please don't think about my attitude too much."

"Indeed, basically Mas Eagle will never defend Nada, Nada is just another person who happens to be married, which at any time Mas can throw away at any time. So, there is no need to do anything for Nada, even if insulted by others," I said as I glared and ran into the kitchen.

The eagle followed and grabbed my hand and pulled it. "Come on... Is waiting for you. I beg of you to forget for a moment." Without saying anything, I got up and ran small to the stairs and climbed it. In front of the room door, Sya greeted me and rushed towards me. I really can't let Sya even though my heart is being disappointed by Mas Eagle. Behind the door I, Mas Elang saw my interaction with Sya who looked familiar.

"Why are Mother's eyes swollen and her nose red?" babble She is curious. At the same time the bell rings a sign that someone is visiting.

"Assalamu'alaikum.!"'s search....!" The sound of greeting is not foreign. Not wrong anymore. Smile fluffy.