"I'm Tired, I Want to Give Up "

Mother's Attitude

Arriving at the hospital, I felt a sense of anxiety running through my chest. I took a deep breath before entering the mother's ward, my heart kept praying that my arrival would not upset my mother. Before entering the nursery of Mother, Mas Elang first entrust Sya to Bi Inah and take a walk in the garden RS.

For a moment I held back my footsteps, but the Eagle slowly pulled me in. Step by step I stepped following Mas Eagle. Two meters away from the patient bed I stopped and held my leg. Mas Eagle approached the mother who was asleep at the time.

Mas Eagle came over and grabbed my hand and took me to sit on the sofa in my nursery. I try to calm my heart and mind if you wake up and see me.

"That's it, don't be so tense!" said Mas Eagle trying to calm me down. I just kept quiet while leaning my head on Mas Elang's shoulder.

Not how long the nurse entered the mother's room and intended to check the mother's blood pressure. But because the mother was sleeping, the nurse only gave medicine to drink later in the day.

"I'll excuse you!" the nurse then went out. We both nodded kindly to the Nurse.

Suddenly I felt nauseous after a few seconds the nurse came out. The smell of the medicine that was placed into Mas Eagle for Mom, smelled by my nose so that it made me suddenly nauseous and wanted to vomit. I stood up and bowed, then both of my hands held onto the stomach that seemed like it was no longer strong enough to take out its contents.

I ran into the patient's bathroom with my left hand holding my stomach and my right hand closing my mouth. In the bathroom was satisfied I let out nausea in my stomach, but only clear liquid came out. So tired, I leaned my hands against the bathroom wall with breathless breath.

"Why are you, sick? Long time in the bathroom?" ask Mas Eagle in wonder. I raised my head slowly, which was now as if heavy after letting out nausea earlier and then looked weakly at Mas Elang's face.

"Mas' nausea tone, just now when I smell the medicine the Nurse gave me, suddenly the stomach Nausea," I explained honestly. The eagle scrunched his forehead in wonder.

"Yes already, wash your mouth again and immediately to the room of Mama," said Mas Elang as he glanced first to the nursery of the mother. I came out of the bathroom of the patient who was in the room to take care of the mother, then approached Mas Elang and sat beside her.

I stared at Mother's body which was stiffened, with a slight rapid roar of breath. Almost half an hour, and Mom hasn't woken up yet. Said Bi Inah earlier, Mother had trouble sleeping last night because she felt a headache due to her tension that rose again. Now it is a bit quiet because it has been given medication by the Doctor. Maybe the effect of the drug, so the mother is very sleepy.

I glanced at Mom's moving hands, and sure enough she woke up. I pulled out Mas Elang's arm and told him that Mom was awake.

"Mas, Mommy, Mum! Mom's hand twitched, I think Mom woke up," I said as I stood up and pulled Mas Eagle's arm. The eagle immediately got up and approached Mother.

"Ma. This is Eagle, Ma," he rebuked. Mom immediately responded and looked at Mas Eagle's face.

"El....!" weak shouting.

"El, come the same Tone, Ma," Mas Elang told. I immediately approached Mom and intended to greet Mom, but Mom's left hand immediately moved to her stomach as if to pull over. I was a little amazed to see Mother's cold reaction so. But I did not run out of sense to pay attention to Mother at least this is sick, yes I joined jutek as well.

"Mom... How is he now?" ask and hope to be answered by Mother well. But Mother has not answered, I think maybe Mother can not talk like some people who have a severe stroke? Mas Eagle looked at me, as if giving me the sense that I didn't want to talk.

"El.. in ma-na Sya?" ask Mom slowly but not stammered. I suddenly flinched, apparently Mom can talk even though it sounds a little bit helpless. I asked Mom not to answer, but now she's asking about Sya. Mas Eagle seemed to give thanks, maybe because Mother could talk as usual, although still slowly.

"Yes, in the garden of the Hospital, Ma. He invited Bi Inah to go for a walk to see the fish in the pond, and again Sya should not be taken into the patient's room," replied Mas Eagle.

"Mama's breathing is crowded El, the Nurse should have given the medicine for this afternoon, was there a nurse who came to sleep?"

"She, Ma. The nurse gave me this medicine that had been opened from the wrapper" Elang explained.

"Later after lunch, Mama will drink it," said Mama while fixing the hand that was infused. I feel bad being made into a statue like this. Then I'm sorry to come out and want to go to Sya. Let it be in this room Mas Eagle who talks to Mom.

Suddenly the nausea in my stomach was felt again and I seemed to be unable to bear it and wanted to spit it out. I immediately closed my mouth and ran like that to the bathroom.

"Owek.o.o.o....!" several times I wanted to remove the contents in my stomach but still no contents came out, only clear liquid and now plus yellow liquid that tastes bitter.

"Are the results really accurate, and I'm pregnant now?" inner wondering.

For a moment I was pensive in the patient's bathroom, washing my bitter mouth.

"El... Mama wants to be treated at your home. At Mama's house there's no one, Mama wants to stay at your house as long as Mama hasn't healed properly," I asked Mas Elang in a still soft voice.

Instantly the heartbeat in my chest somehow suddenly became tight. Just hearing Mom's request like that, especially if the others. My heart doesn't seem to accept that I have to be cared for in our house. Exactly the house of Mas Elang, I was just hitchhiking at the house of Mas Elang.

"Later, El talked to Nada ya, Ma. Now you don't have to think about where you will be treated. El hopes to come home from here Mama immediately healed completely and not much thought," persuaded Mas Elang without giving a decision first about Mother's request. Apparently Mas Eagle still needs my opinion, his wife. And I'm still valued as a wife.

"Where is the tone, brother? In the bathroom for long? Why her?" madam Marisa's grumbling about my absence in the room.

"Tone in the bathroom, she was nauseous. But now I don't know what else. I didn't see why" replied Mas Elang while focusing on Mother.

"Nausea? Wow. lest Nada get pregnant. It's not wrong anymore....!" mbak Marisa said loud, so Mas Elang was heard to give a warning.

"Mar.. talk about it, slow down a little! This is a hospital and this is a patient room!"

"Ehehhehe.pardon, Brother. Marisa was curious about the state of Nada. Tone....!"

"Shuuuttt....!" mother and Mas Elang heard giving the code to Mbak Marisa silent.

To quell Marisa's furore, I immediately appeared before the three of them while smiling knots.

"Mr Marisa, when are you here?" I ask for pleasantries to this beautiful and energetic woman near me.

"Alhamdulillah, I'm so good Nad. Look at my stomach growling. The doctor said about 3 more months I was born. Baby girl you know according to my wishes," he said happy.

"Mother Marisa herself?" my many.

"Obviously, my husband, Mas Ilham, is an office worker. Unlike your husband who is super relaxed, his work can be relaxed," replied Ms. Marisa while turning her eyes towards Mas Elang.

"You want to talk here or see Mama sick, if you want to talk please come out, if you want to look at sick people, please stay here!" reprimand Mas Elang to us who are busy chatting. We both kept quiet.

"El.. said the same Doctor Mama did not want to stay here for long. Mama just wants to be treated at home," whined Mom again begging.

"Later Ma, let El ask the Doctor first when you can go home and can be outpatient, right said the doctor and right hand Mama had a stroke."

"Hahhhh... stroke..right, Wak?" surprised Marisa while closing her mouth.

"Yes, Mar. Mama had a stroke. But it can still be cured by diligent therapy," finally Mas Eagle's answer made everything relieved including me. Even though we clashed a lot, I'd rather see Mom healthy than sick like this.

"Oh yeah... Mar...! You're also most happy to hear Uwa has a stroke and can't walk. Aye right?" point Mother at Mbak Marisa, although slow but cynical.

"That's it... Uwa this is suudzon, right? The sick time is still bad thinking!" baby Sister Marisa's pouty lower lip.

"Let's Nad.. We better just go out, than here, fearing high blood Uwa Sri Kumat!" take Sister Marisa while pulling my arm.

"Mar... Where do you want to take Nada? We are coming home soon, poor Sya later here," said Mas Elang to arrest Marisa's mother.

"Marisa wants to take Nada to the food stall, sister. Marisa's stomach is hungry!" sahut Ma'am Marisa while pulling my hand towards the exit, but I want to say goodbye first to Mother and Mas Eagle.

"Nad...re you really nauseous?" mama Marisa asked while chewing the Ice Fruit that she had bought at the hospital's front food stall.

"Yes, Ma'am....!"

"Don't you get pregnant Nad. Your face also looks a little pale. Nih... eat first rujak that I bought earlier, it must be delicious to eliminate nausea," said Ms. Marisa while giving streofoam containing rujak. And strangely I was drooling and wanted to eat it immediately.

"By the way, where is she? How come there's nothing in the park?" ask Ma'am Marisa wonder. At the same time Sya and Bi Inah came from the back of the hospital garden.